Mated To My Best Friend's Lycan Alpha Brothers-Chapter 61: Conflicted Mind

(Brave’s POV)

*Huff ... huff ...huff .... huff*

*heavy panting and heaving and groaning*

I have been running around like a wild boar without any destination to aim for. My mind, my soul, my entire being is in a whirlwind of chaos and abyss. I want to scream, cry, beg. I want to plead. The agony I’m feeling right now is beyond any words mentioned in the dictionary.

The hope that flickered inside me when Nora showed me that opal, the sheer excitement I felt seeing it within my reach, I was purely overjoyed though I kept my expression neutral. When the black gemstone touched my neck and rested on my chest line, I felt this sudden urge to call out for my beloved, the name which has long lost its owner but is still very fresh in my senses.

I know what I sensed at that time, the presence of my wolf, my buddy, my Raw. He was there, I know he was. It wasn’t just some hoax thing.

"But then, why didn’t he wake up to my calling? Why didn’t he reply to my questioning when I call out for him? Is he still hurt because of ..... because of that incident? Why are you doing this to me, my dear goddess? Am I such a nuisance in your eyes? Do I not deserve anything in this life? Am I not earnest enough? Am I not good enough? Is this how things will end for Raw and eventually me? Just. WHY .... WHY..... WHY ..... TELL ME, JUST WHY?" I burst out kneeling, looking at the gigantic trees that surrounded me. I was deep inside the forest and it was pitch black here. The flurry of questions that were rotating inside me, made me feel dizzy and weak.

I felt my hopes shattering and everything sinking towards and reaching darkness. I was still wearing that locket, crying inside to call for my wolf, but nothing responded to my pleas. "Raw, please I felt you earlier, even if it was for just a millisecond, I did buddy, I really did. We are like two sides of the same coin, and can never be separated so what is this fuck?

The weight of despair was heavy and dawning at me.

After wandering aimlessly for hours and hours, I needed a distraction to calm my mind. My mind swimming towards the only distraction I was into these days was ... that human girl, surprisingly.

We never even properly interacted and mostly kept our distance from each other but still I was always following her these days, waiting for her, anticipating her, looking at her, reading her, taking in her scent.

My brain was buzzing and to end the tornado inside me I need to go see my distraction.

So, I made my way back to the area where the tents were set up. On reaching there, I saw everybody were already inside their respective tents, maybe sleeping. So, without making any sound I made my way towards the place where she was resting.

As I reached the entrance, I hesitated, ’Just what am I even doing here?’ I ruffled my hair in irritation.

Scratching my head in frustration, I just parted the curtain a bit to see her sleeping soundly. She was covered with a thick quilt and her face seemed a bit pink, ’Is she not well? Should I check on~ ... Wait .... Wait .... Wait ....Who am I to care for her? She has Nora beside her. And what is she to me, huhh? Am I turning crazy?’ I clenched my teeth at my inner turmoil. ƒreewebɳovel.com

I sighed heavily and didn’t enter the tent but left for the office immediately. There has been a lot of work that has been pending because of frequent rogue attacks near the border. Now only work can keep me sane and free of any distraction.

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"BRAVE, where the heck were you the whole night?" I was startled by the sudden voice that filled my office room.

Tilting my head upwards, I found Alaric looking at me with a serious expression. Then, I checked my wrist, checking the time and it was nine in the morning. "Good Morning, Al. I was just here to complete the pending work." I tried to sound cheerful, normal. My office table was stacked with documents and folders and whatnot.

Alaric gave me a death stare and didn’t utter anything for a few moments. I pressed my lips and continued scribbling on the paperwork, which I was doing earlier. Luckily, I immersed myself in work and half of the documents which were lying on my desk were already completed, thanks to my special abilities and years of heir education.

I heard footsteps approaching me but didn’t look at the source. Alaric stood beside me, he held my shoulder firmly, gulping down hard, his voice sounding hoarse, "Why didn’t, ummm, you didn’t pick up your phone and didn’t even respond to my mind calling?"

This time, without looking up, I just replied vaguely, "The phone battery’s down and I forgot to charge it." I didn’t answer for his second question neither did he asked again.

"Isn’t this the pack deal offer from the Blue Mountain Pack’s Alpha, Almond Winston? Didn’t we already reject it?" he asked me while looking at the document I was working on.

"Yeah, all the terms are full of arrogance and flamboyance. He even included you take up his daughter, the famously notorious SALLY WINSTON as your chosen mate. I was just preparing a counter offer for him, in his style" I sneered saying it.

Alaric sat on the couch and shrugged, "As if I’ll fulfill his greed, huhh. He just wants to plant a spy at our place and that she-wolf is his own flesh and blood, she is perfect for that task. She even tried to approach me at the birthday party and was ready to undress at any time, throwing herself on me, shameless freak."

I laughed at Alaric’s words loudly, holding my stomach as I spat, "Don’t you know she’s into you? She has been vying for you since ages. I guess she is very persistent."

Alaric growled at my words, "Don’t associate me with the likes of her. She wants the Lycan Alpha heir not me. It fucking disgusts me. My mate can only be a qualified and a dignified Lycan she-wolf and no one else" he declared. "A cheap and attention seeking whore won’t be my Luna."

I zipped my mouth at his words, I knew he didn’t like people like Sally. She was too bitchy and arrogant and always treated others like piece of mud. But the resources her family had were quite crucial for our alliance and to maintain peace with the other species. So, brushing her or her father off wasn’t going to be an easy task.

"Are you really fine bro?" I heard the concern dripping from Alaric’s tone.

"What will happen to me? I’m completely ..... absolutely .... fine."

To Be Continued . . . . . . . .