MTL - How Can I Get Confused with the Top?-v2 Chapter 64 Children of a beautiful world
The suicide note written by the original body is in the mobile phone memo, and the text version is a transcript of Chu Zhi. "The Light Falling in Life" was temporarily put in by him after winning the Zage gift bag. How to say...
Chu Zhi's body trembled involuntarily. She was not acting. She exposed the scars in her heart in front of the public. The wounds were **** and ugly. It was extremely stressful for normal people, not to mention depression.
"It doesn't matter, no one will scold you anymore. People believe that you are not supported or married. Be good, don't be afraid." Chu Zhi said to the original body in his heart, wondering if it was his psychological effect or the original body. The residual reaction of the body, said to the original body in the heart, the body trembling stopped.
The Shadow Emperor Beast suddenly felt that the subtle sense of repulsion between himself and his body disappeared, which also means that the last feeling of the original body left in the body also dissipated, and the original body completely disappeared in the parallel world, leaving nothing.
To let people know what the child went through, one of the purposes of Chu Zhi's fancy work.
Gudong.
The study is so quiet that you can even hear the sound of swallowing. What is a professional photographer? Tactically leaning back, Jelly is a professional, even if his mind has not returned to his mind, his hands are not consciously aimed at the party, so the guests' reactions from trembling to calming are broadcast live without reservation.
"Mr. Chu..." Wei Tongzi's tears rolled in his eyes, distress and fear coexist.
It's easy to understand the distress, and passers-by who are not Xiaoguo will also feel distressed when they see this situation. The fear stems from her not expecting it to be so serious. She just wants more Xiaoguo to know that her idol is depressed and give more support. I didn't want to expose the idol's scars completely, including the suicide note.
"It's in the past, it's okay to say it." Chu Zhi didn't have much expression on his face.
"I..." Wei Tongzi wished he could slap himself twice.
It's all like this, and you have to ask Brother Nine to comfort you, why are you so capable? Wei Tongzi blamed himself in his heart.
The barrage exploded and exploded: "Woooooooo", "Ninth Brother, you must be fine", "5555", "There are a lot of things I want to say, but I don't know where to start, Chu Zhi looks quite normal. Yes", "want to hug the orange", "don't"...
There is a little popular science in the message in the live broadcast room: "Hearing hallucinations are the main symptoms of mental illness. Generally speaking, it is a typical feature of schizophrenia. In the case of depression, only when the disease is severe to a certain extent, fragmentary imperative hallucinations may appear. Listen. So it's no exaggeration to say that the depression of Brother Nine is severe..."
The atmosphere in the study was dignified, the live broadcast had to continue, and the guests had to speak to break the silence. Chu Zhi felt that he had suffered too much for the show.
"If Brother Pang and Tong Tong have anything to ask, you can ask directly." Chu Zhi said, "Don't delay the recording of the program."
"Cough cough." Pang Pu coughed twice. After seeing the wind and waves, he quickly adjusted, and Xin Yiheng asked bluntly: "Mr. Chu, is this a suicide note? When was it written?"
"August 17th, it is indeed a suicide note." Chu Zhi said, "I'm going to swallow sleeping pills after writing it, um—inaccurate."
"I took sleeping pills. At that time, I felt that the whole world was targeting me."
"Of course I know it's just my belief, because the world doesn't have time to pay attention to me."
Chu Zhi also made a little joke when he was telling the story, but of course no one could laugh it out, he paused and continued: "For more than two months, I desperately hope that someone can prove my innocence, I have a little illusion, and I am wronged. My people came out to clarify, I obviously didn't do it."
"So I read Weibo every day, expecting a reversal, but every day I see not-so-good comments."
"Even if you don't watch it later, as long as you use your mobile phone and push various software, there are similar news [where is the lower limit of the entertainment industry, I hope the country can severely punish the wicked stars], [use money to suppress the quota of others, analyze the future son champion" the tricks] and so on.”
"I started having nightmares. I still remember a nightmare. In the dream, when I was a child, my parents stretched out their hands to hug me. When I rushed over, my mother suddenly said [Why did you become a liar? "Children, if you are married, you have to lie to others for not getting married], and my father said [blame us for not teaching you well, so don't hurry up and apologize]."
Although the tone is like a bystander, there is no fluctuating tone to tell the experience, but none of the three present, Pang Pu, Wei Tongzi, and Jelly, will think that this experience has no ups and downs.
To what extent do you have to be tortured? to have such a nightmare.
What the nightmare said was the original experience, Chu Zhi told the depression process from the perspective of a bystander.
"Because of nightmares, my mental state is not very good. I always have chest tightness and headaches. For a month in a row, I feel that when I sleep, I can hear vague voices saying [Go to hell], [Go to hell. ], even with earplugs I can't block it, even if I hit my arms and legs hard, I can't make the sound go away from my ears with pain."
"It lasted for more than two months. I thought I couldn't hold it any longer, so I wrote a suicide note and took sleeping pills." Chu Zhi didn't go into more detail, and quickly ended the story.
Don't think that there are no sleeping pills in the medicines prescribed in the medical certificate. Sleeping pills are the general name of drugs, not their names. For example, zopiclone and zaleplon are sleeping pills, as are estazolam tablets prescribed in the natural diagnosis certificate. One week's dose, Estazolam Tablets Top Potian Twenty Flat Tablets.
But if a person really wants to commit suicide, doctors can’t do anything, and the country can’t help either. Sleeping pills are only a second-class psychotropic drug, and there is no such thing as a kind of control. Go to different hospitals to buy repeatedly.
Not on Earth, the Earth’s second-class drugs are also connected to the Internet.
They all felt that it was very convenient to take sleeping pills to commit suicide without pain. It was a film and television drama that deceived people. Chu Zhi knew it very clearly from memory.
"Who rescued Teacher Chu?" Wei Tongzi didn't notice that his voice was trembling slightly.
"It may be that I didn't swallow enough pills and was choked up by the vomit." Chu Zhi explained that he also sincerely hoped that the original body was awakened by choking instead of dying.
He said very solemnly: "Sleeping pills are basically specially made with ipecoxalline, and the pharmaceutical organization has specially created the emetic effect. When you continue to swallow, your stomach will be very uncomfortable. They are also to prevent people from committing suicide by using sleeping pills. , During the process of swallowing sleeping pills, your stomach and throat feel like you have swallowed sulfuric acid, and then the vomit will block the breathing tube. Those who take sleeping pills to die easily in movies and TV dramas are all fictional.”
Wei Tongzi asked again, "How did you... hold on?"
Pang Pu shook his head inwardly, would he be more euphemistic, and how could he hold on? If the guest still has suicidal thoughts in his heart, he should ask, "How is Teacher Chu now? The truth will come to light." Wei Tongzi has completely lost the calmness of the host at present, and automatically defaults to what he expects in his heart. His thoughts are also reasonable, and the idol is almost sensible.
"As for how to survive - just talking about this topic, I also hope to say something to my fans, or passers-by who saw the video." Chu Zhi turned to the camera and said: "I know, life There will be a lot of insurmountable problems that will keep you from going on.”
"I thought countless times before committing suicide, could someone help me and lend a helping hand, but no, I know the feeling of being abandoned by the surrounding, so I think I can be the one who lends a helping hand. "
"So I wrote "Backlight" to tell the fans that it's not that nobody cares, I care about you very much." Chu Zhi said: "We have persevered for so many years. Let's persevere for a while, okay? For a few more years, I invite everyone to watch my eighth anniversary concert for free."
Not to mention Wei Tongzi, Pang Pu was made to cry by what he said, but he was very professional. He still held the small lift board in both hands and did not wipe his tears, so there were two lines of tears on his face.
The next link is to select the questions of Xiaomangyou in the live broadcast room to ask the guests. Now the questioning link is not important.
"And." Chu Zhi smiled and said, "When I was on the verge of death, I arrived in heaven, and then I saw the old man of God. The old man said to me, 'Go tell the children on the ground, don't commit suicide, heaven can't hold it', and I was also taken aback. Kick your feet back to the ground."
"We are all children of the beautiful world. Children, don't commit suicide. Let's live well."
The curtain call of acting as an emperor beast.
For what Xiaomangyou said in the live broadcast room, the words were extraordinarily sincere, and the effect was extraordinarily shocking—
[Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu! When I was in junior high school, my parents quarreled and I was very depressed. Then I asked my parents to take me to see a psychiatrist. My parents said that I was hypocritical. It makes sense to me, at least I'm not starving. But I am really uncomfortable, especially every time my parents fight and fight~www.novelbuddy.com~ I smashed things at home, I couldn't help but use a knife to self-harm, and I poured out on the Internet, many people knew that I was a junior high school student, and they felt I was intentionally hurting myself to get people's attention.
But I didn't, I really didn't. I also felt abandoned by the whole world. After reading your words, I suddenly felt that I had a spiritual support in my heart. Some people believed in me.
I must work hard to live and participate in the eighth anniversary concert. 】
[Uncomfortable, I cut my wrists to commit suicide some time ago, and then I was sent to the hospital to be rescued. Lying in the hospital bed, I didn't want to live, but I didn't particularly want to die. To describe me as a puddle of mud, I thought it was an insult to mud. I have tried, but I have failed, and nearly paid with my life. As a loser, I don't have the courage to fight again, and I don't believe anyone can do it.
Although I follow the entertainment industry, I have never been a fan of celebrities, but today I have become a fan, and I would like to ask Brother Jiu why he feels abandoned by the world and wants to help others? It is true that no one knows despair better than those who have experienced it, but it is despair that will lose the faith to live.
Brother Jiu, I respect you very much, you are a good person, a very good person. 】
[The hemp rope is cut at the delicate point, and bad luck only finds the poor. I don't want to talk about what I have experienced, but I was defeated by "we are all children of a beautiful world". An old man in his 40s, watching the live broadcast and crying is ridiculous. No one has called me a child for more than 30 years. I forgot that I used to be a child too, thank you Chu Zhi. 】
In the live broadcast room, people who regained their confidence because of Chu Zhi's remarks left messages one after another.
The messages full of hope were like those who were trapped in isolation and helpless, their feet were muddy and unable to pull them out, but when they held Chu Zhi's outstretched hand, the black mist disappeared before his eyes, and only dawn remained.
Maybe it was because of Chu Zhi's experience, maybe because they had the will to survive, but they just lacked a reason.
