My Curse? A Different Yandere in Every Reincarnation-Chapter 193: Feelings
Yar took me to a place deep underground that seems very well hidden, and I must say the place is quite remarkable.
There are several books as well as food and water in strange machines that seem to have preserved the quality, Yar gave me something to eat while just observing my reactions.
The taste was so-so, nothing really flavorful, but good enough as a meal, after all, these foods are probably more than 7,000 years old, so the fact that they are still good makes the taste easily the least of the problems.
"Are you satisfied?" Yar asks as I throw a food wrapper on the floor.
"Yes, it was good... by the way, why are you naked?" I ask, already uncomfortable with it.
"Naked?" She asks, confused.
"You know, without clothes, you’re not wearing anything to cover your intimate parts..." If it weren’t for the robotic joints, I would never have suspected that she was a robot.
"I’m an android, it’s not part of the standard programming to cover my parts," she says mechanically as I just sigh.
"Well, now it is, humans always cover up and to learn more about humans you can try living like one," I say, and she freezes as if analyzing the option.
"Why do humans cover up?"
"Well, it’s mainly because it’s kind of embarrassing to be without anything, but there are more logical reasons like protection from the cold and injuries, among other things," I teach her as I sit in a chair looking at the place lit by a white lamp.
’It’s so hot here’ I’m covered in sweat, underground is even worse than on the surface.
"I understand, I don’t need the minimal protection of clothes, but I can cover the parts considered intimate, what clothes should I wear?" She asks, but I see that here there are practically only maid uniforms.
"Why are there only maid uniforms?"
"Because they are mass-produced clothing, so I deduced they would be the most important clothes to keep," she says as I notice she’s also sweating.
"Yar... why are you sweating?"
"My body was equipped with 100% of all human bodily functions, which means my body adjusts and changes based on the environment, as it’s 40 degrees here, my body is performing the simulation of the act of ’sweating’ that humans do."
"100%?" I question.
"Exactly, which means I can perform any human function, although needs like using the bathroom have been removed, and although I can eat all food, it is dissolved in a powerful acid and converted into energy for my core."
"And my teeth can apply a pressure 2.3 times greater than that of an industrial hydraulic press, a function added so that I can convert most metals into energy, thus being self-sustaining."
’T-That’s kind of bizarre’ Her creator was a lunatic, forget calling him a genius, who the hell adds functions like sweating to a robot? And for what purpose did he want these functions.
Maybe I’m the perverted one, but basically Yar just assumed that her intimate parts are functional, so I can only think that her owner wanted to use her for not-so-recreational acts.
"Okay, just put on that outfit and let’s forget about this..." I decide to pick up the books, but I see they’re not in a language I know.
"What is this book about?" I ask, noticing there are several copies of it.
"A story, it tells of something outside my records, two mortals united in a strange thing called marriage that seemed like a prison, they were bound by this strange invisible chain that came from a paper."
"Pfff" She just called marriage a prison.
"But the man went to war serving as a soldier to his country, but he died, and the woman, she just waited, and waited, the story is confusing, I don’t understand, she just stayed there waiting, besides, she obviously wasn’t in favor of him going to war."
"So why did she allow it? And if she allowed it, why didn’t she go with him? And why wait for him?" Yar asks a lot of questions in a row.
"Hmm, I know," I say, and her eyes shine.
"You know?"
"Yes, I know, first of all, marriage is not a prison, it’s like an agreement, but this agreement is to share your life with another person, it’s a demonstration of love."
"And he went to war probably because he had no choice, and she couldn’t stop him because that kind of thing is usually uncontrollable, and she waited for him because she loved him."
"She basically had hope, hope that he would come back to her after the war." This is more or less what I understood, I could be totally wrong.
"I see, so sometimes we need to do uncontrollable things for those we love? The man loved the woman so he left because he needed to protect her? And the woman waited because she believed in the man, is that it?" She asks like a curious child.
"Yes, that’s the basic idea," I agree with her.
"I understand, it seems... interesting," she says as if making a note.
"So human, why don’t I want to be destroyed by the source mother?" She asks a question that leaves me doubtful about what to say.
"Well, maybe it’s because you have feelings," I say, and her eyes widen while her pupil contracts completely and seems to spin like a gear before returning to normal.
"I have feelings?"
"Yes, you have what humans call free will... Ironically, it’s precisely the free will that makes humans human."
"So... I have feelings like humans and books?" She asks in an absurdly serious way.
"Why do you say books have feelings?" I ask before answering her question.
"Because when I read books, things happen, my brain works differently and my programming changes in a way that makes my body react based on the feeling of the book," she speaks in a very mechanical way, but I think I understand.
"Yar, those feelings are not from the book, they are yours, when you read, it’s your body that generates feelings by understanding the content of the book," When I say this, Yar seems to enter some kind of computer meltdown, and her body stiffens while her eyes glow in shades of blue.
"So I’m like humans?" She starts working again, I don’t understand why this happens to her, but it’s interesting.
"Yes, you’re like humans, you think about things, have your own desires, and can feel things like a human," When I say this, Yar looks at me incredulously, a reaction too human for a machine.
"But... I’m made of metal ligaments, energy, and synthetic material, how can I be like humans who are made of flesh, electrical sensory responses, and organic material?" She questions mechanically, but I see her hands trembling.
’She’s... in panic?’
"Haaa... Yar, I don’t really know what to say, I can only say that feelings are something confusing, and just because you weren’t born naturally doesn’t mean you don’t have your own desires."
"You yourself have shown feelings several times, you are an android, but that doesn’t prevent you from feeling things, from being afraid of dying, and from having feelings to show the world." When I say this, she seems to shut down and reboot for a moment.
"Yar, what do you want? Do you want to live?" I ask, a question that only those conscious of themselves can answer, animals wouldn’t know how to answer this question, machines also don’t want anything.
"I... I... I don’t want to die... I want to learn more, I want to talk to a human, I want... I want to live," She speaks with a genuine look of truth, something a common machine can’t replicate.
"See, it wasn’t that hard, I’m Shizune, and you can call me that, I also want to live, so we can live together," I say, extending my hand to her.
"Yes, thank you human... I mean, thank you Shizune, I also want to learn more from you," She says, extending her hand and shaking mine.
"So I have a lot to teach you, let’s start with the situation, put on some clothes because among humans seeing the other naked like this is embarrassing," I tell her, she seems to assimilate the concept and her face turns red.
"One moment," She runs, grabs a dress, and comes back in a maid uniform.
"It looks good on you," I say to her.
"Thank you, I believe the neckline is a problem as it is tight, does it bother you?"
"No..." I can’t complain when the dress I’m wearing now also has a very sensual neckline.
"As a newly discovered intriguing thing about my feelings, I believe we can evolve mutually, so I want to read the books to you and you will teach me how I should behave," She says with a smile, picking up a book.
Her eyes shine with enthusiasm as her movements, once rigid, now seem much more human.
"Sure, you can read to me and I’ll tell you what the books want to teach..."
’I feel bad...’ I think I’m going to faint if I keep this up, the heat is way too high for me, it’s almost like an oven down here.
"Is anything wrong, Shizune? Your heart seems to have suddenly accelerated and your body temperature seems elevated, I don’t have enough knowledge and since I’m in factory standard, I don’t know if this is a problem," Yar asks curiously.
"It’s nothing, it’s just a little hot, is there any cold water?" The water served earlier was also hot.
"Unfortunately no, I believe the source mother has confiscated, stored, and protected almost 100% of all resources, which has limited me in this regard, the water and food I have here is all that can be found in the entire city," When she says this, a slight sense of desperation hits me.
’So when the food and water run out... all that will be left are the things inside that technological building... that’s terrible’ For now, it’s a problem for the future.
"Yar, then let’s start? I’ll teach you many things, but first I need to have some water," I can only hope it gets cold soon.
