No One Will Ever Hurt You Again I Promise-Chapter 41: He’s Back And I’m Screwed
Crouching in front of Howie’s bloodied and inert body, El tries not to panic even more than he already was. He tries to touch his hands to remove them from his abdomen but he retracts his gesture by cursing the latter in his strong interior.
Why did you have to do such a stupid thing Howie, you’re as human as a god when you’re here, how could you do such a thing, huh silly? How will we live if we lose you, do you already forget that you are as dangerous for yourself as you are dangerous for those around you, don’t you know that fool? Have you already forgotten it, poor bastard? Yelled El with all his might punching the wall behind Howie in rage, why don’t you ever think of me when you make such drastic decisions, why?
He cries silently as he rests his head on Howie’s shoulder, you always give a hard time to everyone who approaches you, you never take into account the feelings of others, and you always do as you please.
That fucking ambush that cost Lugh his life, you made him go when he wanted to stay with you. Yes, I know, I always knew that it was you who pushed him to respond to this invitation. just because you were afraid that he would get bored with you and later regret having stayed to work by your side instead of taking a few minutes of relaxation in the company of the others.
And today you start again, you prefer to suffer alone in your corner instead of letting them know who you are. I would so love to have your nobility of heart, he said in a chuckle, but you have to know one thing big boy, I find you pathetic and stupid. Oh, thank you for showing me the way, I’m not going to stubbornly fight against that dumbass idiot Theo anymore, I want him and I know it so I’m going to make him my wifey.
Instead of getting on our heads all the time hurting each other, I’m going to make him cry with joy instead by fucking, cherishing, and pampering him. But I’m going to fuck him until I get rid of his cockyness, I’m going to make him mine.
I think we have understood, that you are going to fuck him, and all the stuff that comes with it, a calm voice whispers to him with low, serious, and very soft intonations behind him like a melody. He jumped and hurriedly turned around to check if what he had just heard was true.
So you’ll never change Ursoc, said the newcomer with one of the most beautiful smiles he’s ever seen... Lugh! he cried happily, staring from head to toe at the creature in front of him, he crawled on all fours to his feet like a small animal, vigorously shaking his bottom like a puppy in front of his master.
With an amused glint in his eyes, Lugh watches him walk towards him with enthusiasm and glee. He should miss me at least, not like some person who decided to run away, but who can blame him for that, it shouldn’t have been easy for him I witnessed his suffering myself before leaving him.
El reaches out to touch him, but he hesitates as if he doesn’t believe what he sees. He rubs his eyes when he comes back to the charge again without really managing to touch him, he is afraid that he is not real and that he will leave before Howie can see him.
But what the hell is he doing? Lugh wonders, watching him without moving. He waits for him to start rubbing his eyes again to let him stand there, trying to touch him without ever daring to do it as if he were made of fire.
He passed by him and went to kneel in front of Howie’s relaxed body, he leaned towards him and put his cheek against his, a crystal tear left his eyes and slid against Howie, he stayed like this with his eyes closed, he placed his right hand on H’s cold cheek.
He caressed his cheek with his cheek, rubbing against him like a kitten, he wiped the traces of tears left on his cheek with his thumb, placed a kiss on his forehead and carefully admired his beautiful childish face, and took it between his hands.
I missed you, he said with a deep voice in which you can hear his suffering and his tears held back. I missed you a lot. He pulled his lifeless body into his arms, hugging him to his chest, closing his eyes with a sigh of relief. I’m so glad to see you it’s been so long.
Look at yourself, you still haven’t changed, you still protect others first without ever thinking about yourself. I’m sorry to have left you so soon and you are not responsible for what happened to me.
The only culprits are whoever hatched this plan, you just wanted me to have some rest. I only blame you for taking me away from you, without asking me what I wanted. I just wanted to spend time with you, watch you work, and write the future of your worshipers. I never got bored or tired of watching you, never.
I’ve always liked feeling your gaze on me when I’m not looking at you, brushing against you when you were lost in your responsibilities as god and protector, to destabilize you. You always pretend not to feel it, but you shudder and act awkwardly each time.
It’s hilarious to see the great and powerful Lycian revered by all for his exceptional abilities by hundreds of thousands of city dwellers, feared and dreaded by mortals and immortals alike, let himself be destabilized by a mere touch.
That a simple brushing of arms could disturb him, to such an extent that he avoids meeting the gaze of the one who disturbs him for hours by acting stupidly like a kid or like a damsel.
He laughs softly as he recalls memories of the past, memories he will never forget even in the depths of the abyss, memories that helped him overcome fear, loneliness, and cold, memories that given meaning to his immortal soul and energy to keep his spiritual force intact, memories that guided him to return once again to finish what he couldn’t have before.
I know more than anything that I was a real pain in your life but you never said it, and I loved the fact that you chose me over all the other high places. I who had to prove that I was useful and worthy to be part of Yolpem, thanks to them I was able to become who I am and your one and only friend, even if that pain in the ass Ursoc managed to make his way to get a place at the table.
Hey, I’m right behind you, and I didn’t push my way as you say, he welcomed me because just like him I have an animal in me, that’s what attracted him to me, we were almost the same. Two hybrids.
El had realized he was gone when he opened his eyes. A bit in a panic he turned to look for him in the room and he found him kneeling beside Howie’s body.
He rolled his eyes, ah here we go again, he said to himself, fortunately, I found my life partner. No one will make me languish on the contrary I will be the one who will make your mouth water. This little brat and Lycian himself have the same damn character he prefers a thousand times to stay away from the boys instead of revealing his feelings. So good luck lovers, he said with a small proud smile thinking of Theo.
You were the same my ass, Lugh replies without looking at him, his gaze lost in Howie’s beautiful peaceful face, he just felt sorry for you and your brother. And besides, where is this little bastard, he did not follow you here?
Unfortunately no, but I hope that I will meet him in my next life or even in this life, who knows what can happen, you are here after all, right? He said sarcastically. Lugh glanced over his shoulder and stared at him before returning his attention to Howie’s body in front of him.
Are you going to keep telling your shitty stories, or are you going to help him heal? you have to know too, that his host is a pureblood he’s as dangerous to himself as he is to others, which means he’s likely to stay here forever if we can’t find a way to wake him up.
I know, I felt it the minute I opened my eyes. Is this a punishment for what he did after my death? These two are a dangerous mix, of light, and darkness. Don’t worry too much about that, he’s not a bad boy and he has a great sense of justice just like Lycian, and I assure you he’s the perfect host for him. Even if we have to run away from him when he gets angry, he is a good person with a big heart.
Hey, Ursoc, don’t tell me you’re still under his spell after so many years? Stay away from him, and I remind you that you have already found your destined partner, your mate.
So what? You’re not going to believe that you’re the only one who can hope while the others don’t have the right, hmm?
Were you happy to see me little runt, or were you just pretending?
But what does that have to do with seeing you? I’m just telling you that everyone has a right to hope, and you can’t help but love him anyway. He’s someone I care about a lot and I know no matter that I found my mate he will always be my first love, and you always were and you will be his only love even if he never expressed it.
But we know it, you know it and everyone knew it, which is why you were targeted and poisoned to death. I hope there will be no such problem this time because this little one is a real killing machine not to mention he has a bad temper. If someone has had the misfortune to touch your hosts, he loses all his reason, I don’t want this to happen again and again.
Hmm, so he hasn’t changed, he’s still the one I know, right? Lugh asks him in his deep, low soft voice. Yeah, he hasn’t changed but he may even be more dangerous than before. This must be our only fear, however, I hope he will have the opportunity to vent all his frustration on Fenrir when he dares to show up.
Fenrir? Why? But he...
Yeah, El cut him off they’ve been sealed, so when he manifests himself in the present world or whatever era he’s reincarnated in Lycian will follow him to stop him from bringing chaos and despair like he always did, and that’s why he’s here today.
So they don’t know, thinks Lugh without expressing his fears and the doubt that overwhelms him. Have there ever been any signs of... stop chatting El cut him off again, we have to help him what don’t you understand about the fact that he might stay there, huh? you’re still the same always reasoning and asking questions, so annoying.
Hmm yeah, we have to hurry, Lugh repeated softly and slowly, his mind elsewhere with a knot in his stomach. Wake up damn it, now is not the time to dream, if he died you would have come for nothing. That, I got it, Lugh said in a barely audible whisper.
I have already started feeding his vital energy, but he is not responding, something is blocking him, I will have to remove his hands from his belly but I wanted to protect his organs first before getting his hands out of there.
Which means he melted his guts, right? Exactly, it’s like you said, he melted them, that’s why he’s barely breathing but he’s there, he can’t hear us and can’t move. Where is your mate? I’m going to need his help, I need their wolf side to communicate.
Tch, I see you haven’t changed either, huh? You haven’t been here more than ten minutes, but you already have a general idea of who my partner is and all. He disguises the truth by saying that you’re sensitive to what’s going on in your surroundings, the truth my friend is that you are a nosy little runt, you poke your nose into other people’s business without being invited. Yet it is me who is called a busybody.
If you didn’t want me sticking my nose in your business buddy, you should have hidden that excitement that is running down your body, and your eyes are shining like two flying lanterns at the harvest festival in Yolpem, not to mention the smell that permeates this room when he’s not even here, you even drank his blood.
And he’s in heat, your wolf is in heat, my friend. The Rufus is known for their sexual prowess, rarity, and the many qualities that make them some kind of walking target. You did well to protect his territory and to mark him at the same time, it was a stroke of genius.
What? Stop reading my silly memories, it’s not polite to invade people’s private space like this. And I didn’t mark him, that’s bullshit, you got it wrong this time.
I don’t read your mind, it’s you who shouts them to me out loud as if you want the whole world to know that you have found your fated mate. You’re kidding me, I’m never wrong, you marked him and you have his blood in you. It’s so embarrassing, you still can’t behave properly. The both of you are going to go crazy if you didn’t find a way to work out your differences in the days to come. Now go get him for me.
No, no, slow down champion, I don’t understand, when did I mark him? You don’t know? Ouch, it’s you, nothing changed, it’s very embarrassing.
Are you going to tell me yes or no? Otherwise, you’ll have to go find him on your own, you already have all the information in hand so it won’t take you long to find him. So, good luck with your partner, if he ever will be, of course.
Hey, don’t sulk buddy, calm down! you created an emotional bond with him, just like the one I created with him by pointing Howie in his arms. During your fights like two real highwaymen, when you touched him when he was in that coma when you protected him from Lycian when you ran to help him not to leave DNA traces at the crime scene and the last thing that set it all up was when you talked to him and hugged him. Yes, that’s right, your fluffy teddy bear.
Hey! You shouldn’t read this, I alone have to call him that.
Of course, there will be only you if someone else hasn’t already arrived before you, Lugh told him. To return the sarcasm he used to talk to him when he cast doubt on his future couple with the lifeless body in his arms. But what will seal your meeting is when you have chosen to create that personalized protective barrier, you have marked them all. The rest of the pack has an even stronger bond than before with their alpha. But for him, it was rather this bond that you had conceived as you went along, which intensified, and that is how you accidentally marked him.
Don’t worry, there is one last step for it to be complete and you can always undo it if he doesn’t want you or if he’s already taken, but you can only be satisfied by him because you are connected forever. You drank his blood during your flight, in any misfortune, there is a good thing, at least my Lycian will be nothing but mine this time, you have another cat to whip now. I wish you good luck, my friend.
What is this madness again, what else have I gotten damn ass into? I haven’t even been able to touch anyone yet in my entire life and now I’m hand and fist tied with someone I don’t even know.
You know him, it’s only his feelings that are unknown to you and you got yourself in trouble without knowing what to expect. You should have courted him, teasing him to the point of getting him to look at you as something other than a simple friend or acquaintance. Even if you are destined to meet you cannot force his hand. Otherwise, it may be fatal for you. And I did something before I died, and today, I’m a little scared, it might not be the worst mistake of my life.
Yeah, now I’m crossing my fingers for what’s next, El replies with a hint of desperation in his voice. You? you made a mistake, that’s a first, huh? Want to discuss it?
No thanks, go get me your friend instead so we can get this over with and get him out of this coma. I knew it was way too good to be true, since when were you so friendly? You were only interested in Lycian after all.
Hmmm, glad you know that now hurry up bring me your mate to be real quick.
He left the room after looking Lugh up and down, to go in search of Theo, he activated his senses to better track him when he smelled him in the hallway. So he had followed us, he said smiling, he follows the smell at a pace that brings him to the door of the janitor’s tools where the smell intensifies.
Why is he hiding here? he wonders mentally, he must be scared for his life, but I’m here no one will hurt you my fluffy teddy bear, I’ll protect you against all odds and if you don’t like boys I’ll be ready to teach you to appreciate me and love me until you can’t live without me, I’m confident about that.
He put his hand on the wrist of the door to open it when the whispers of voices caught his attention behind the door, he paid attention to the voice he does not recognize the person talking but he knows that the other person with him is Theo.
Who he can talk to hiding in this crowded room, did he lose his mind while I was beating him up? Then a sentence caught his attention and the voice in question was no longer a whisper but firm and arrogant. Yeah, it’s that jerk, Hugg. He hurried to twist the door handle, and pull him away, to lead him away from that damn Hugg that was prowling around his pearl, but he dropped his hand limply to his side when a sentence drew his attention, especially.
...fuck me that we end it once and for all...
Um, did I hear what I just heard, or is my mind playing tricks on me? I know Lugh told me he’s horny, but I don’t think I’m so eager to do such dirty things to him as to hear such racy things. He intensifies his ability to listen over long distances to better grasp and understand what is happening inside the room.
He was seized with dread when he heard the actions of this film unfolding under his nose, the dull sounds of their bare skin moving back and forth, the muffled sound of the moans of this boy named Hugg that he swears never again to be forgiven for this act, and Theo...
Yeah, Theo what am I going to do with you in the end, he mutters between his teeth, he walked backward, from the door his eyes still riveted on the door, this door which is witness to his bad luck, that he can’t take his eyes off.
So that’s what he meant, by it’s complicated... so he’s gay and he has a lover who happens to be one of the most hated figures in this damn school of the shitty bourgeois. I’ll kill them both, I swear on their heads that I’ll kill them... you sexual degenerate.
Tears invade his cheeks which he wiped with the back of his hand, why am I crying exactly? After all, he’s nothing to me, he’s just a good quality opponent nothing more. He started running when Hugg’s cry of pleasure reached his ears. Since he heard them he couldn’t deactivate his hearing, he was as if obliged to listen to them.
He headed for an exit that leads to the hallway, where there are stairs. he let himself fall down the stairs to be tortured by the cries of pleasure of these lovers in heat, who fuck like wild beasts in the concierge’s room, completely forgetting where they were.
He has no ethics or shame, this Theo, he must be a real sick guy to fuck like that in broad daylight in the middle of a corridor, where people, not just any people, students thirsty for gossip and strong feelings are running down non-stop all day long, not to mention the teachers and the surveillance cameras that occupy all the walls of this building.
I think I was born to be unlucky in love in the end, and I was a fool to screw up too. So I’m gonna feel so bad every time I see him hanging out with someone else, So, is this love? Or is it just a special bond to punish creatures like me who are not part of this world?
If only I had someone to ask. Who will be able to answer me openly? Papa, Maman, there’s just you, he said sobbing. Howie dares to be able to bear all this, I thought it was easy, you’re just a sadist Howie, he sobbed more and more.
While in the infirmary Lugh did not miss any of the distress that seized El, he had followed him out of curiosity, he wanted to see how he was going to react after what he had just heard but now he regrets having done it. Seems that little shitty brat was right about one thing, I’m starting to pry my nose into things that don’t concern me. He closed his eyes and disconnected from El, leaving him alone with his grief.
I would love to help but, I can’t stand other people’s sadness it makes me anxious and I have to help this adorable boy I have in my arms, you are way too handsome for an earthly you, I hope you know it even if you are not human, you are too beautiful and your inner is also the most beautiful thing, person and phenomenon that I have ever seen. It seems I’m lucky to have a replica of his human form.
Enough talk, I imagine that I will have to take care of you alone my treasure, no way that we are separated a second time without mentioning this danger which awaits us, it is a pity that we cannot discuss it. It’s going to hurt, I didn’t want to go through this but I’m going to have to go, because the wolf is busy and your friend the bear is in pain, heartbroken without him even being able to start his story.
Hmmm, love! Love is a feeling that, if shared, takes on its full meaning, and allows access to ultimate happiness. But loving someone is also giving them the power to make us suffer. And for us other immortal and supernatural creatures it is an even more cruel and complicated punishment. Even our destined partners can cause us great suffering, isn’t it hilarious?
I hope you’ll forgive me when you find out what I did to you, I will die if you ever break my heart and this by any means.
With that he plunged his hand into Howie’s chest to give him a heart massage and reconstructed from the inside the tissues torn and the organs punctured by the brutality with which Howie disemboweled himself, plunging his hands armed with sharp claws like knife blades in his body under the impulse of sorrowful psychological pain. because of this grievous, he was ready to take his life away from me, that’s rueful and heartbreaking.
