No One Will Ever Hurt You Again I Promise-Chapter 72

Theo examines every muscle on El’s back as the other has a great time in front of his absolutely stunning wall cupboard wardrobe, leaning sexily on the door frame and admiring El in his infinite state of joy. It must be said that Marc and Howie are good hosts because El’s room is breathtakingly beautiful. Say he left home to discover who he is; if his parents saw how he is living, they will be almost dead because there is almost no difference between his life before he left home and his life now. Marc and Howie offer him a luxurious home full of love on top of that, while his older brothers have taken the journey to discover their real selves seriously, living on their own resources.

"So he sometimes knows how to have a little fun and acts crazy," the Rufus Alpha mumbled, giving El an admiring look, "I who thought he was always on edge, ready to blow up a wire at any time of day and smashing everything he can get his hands on, pff it’s almost disappointing seeing him like that" he grumbled slightly, which caught El’s attention.

Theo quickly straightened out his nonchalant posture and stared uneasily at his toes. El turned to him, grinning broadly from ear to ear with a pair of designer tracksuits in hand, which he leaped before his eyes. "I wanted to cover you with something that goes with your eyes but I don’t think I have any so I’m giving you these, next time you come here I’ll make sure I have something that matches your eyes, I like them."

" What nerve!" Theo grumbles through gritted teeth, ’but what makes him think I’m coming back here.’ Then he pauses in his drivel to pay more attention to what El said other than he has the nerve to think he’s going to come back here... and that’s when a candy pink cloud comes to cover his cheeks, and continues to take more extension covering his neck and his ears, then he becomes as red as a tomato while he repeats, "he likes my eyes".

El smiles more and more, if three weeks ago someone would have told him that Theo can be cute when he wants, he would have cleaned that person’s eyes with some chlorine and acid if necessary so that she could see which Theo he was talking about. There is nothing cute about Theo, certainly, he is handsome and all but it remains there.

But today he would have praised that person for having an expert eye. It’s true that he is cute, it’s not only short or petite boys without muscles who are cute, those with muscles are sometimes too. He doesn’t have big bulky exaggerated muscles but when you see him it’s obvious that he is someone who does a lot of sports and he is well drawn all over like Howie and El. They are all muscular without big exaggerated muscles that hurt your eyes just by looking at them, they’re not getting ready for a fitness contest or whatever they just want to stay fit and healthy.

"Come on, come get dressed before you catch a cold or explode from blushing," he approaches Theo gently, while talking to him he grabs his forearm in midair before Theo finishes his action and ran away to lock himself in the bathroom. It’s way too much fun seeing Theo like this so there’s no way El will let him hide from him.

And that’s when the clear but panicked voice of H echoed in El’s head, this time he can’t miss the call for help or confuse the voice in his head with his wild imagination. And then on the one hand there is this urgency in H’s words that can’t go unnoticed and his voice betrays the eternal calm and composed person that he normally is.

"El, can you hear me, tell me you can hear me I need you... you need to come and get me from here, please. The sobs hidden behind those simple but painful words split El’s soul almost in half, he almost fell to his knees, he was struck by the distress hidden behind those "I need you and please."

It’s true anyone and everyone can vouch for Howie and certify that He is not a badly educated child, but no one has ever heard him use these words to address anyone. He does everything by himself and he says thank you for those things he does not do himself, he does not need to beg for help, on the contrary people always come running to beg him to let them help him, tell him they are here if he needs a hand even if they all sometimes looking for a way to get his attention.

Theo felt the change in El’s body language, and as his grip tightened on his forearm he caught the latter before El fell to his knees at his feet, the look of terror he read on El’s face stabbed him in the heart and guts.

"What’s wrong?" he cried out, alarmed and on the verge of collapse himself. He had never been so attached or emotionally connected with a person in his entire life before he met El. But what exactly is happening to him with El, what is happening between them to make El’s actions and gestures disturb and pained him so much? those are questions, he is asking himself while helping El up.

He stammered something incomprehensible almost cursing his meeting with the latter as an answer to his own questions. He didn’t know the thing that we can love and cherish at the height of our lives, maybe also the thing that makes us suffer the core too, we must say everything has a price, huh? like what nature never gives without asking in return, even there you have to understand nothing has ever been free and without consequences. It was necessary that the only person who makes him see red is also the person he desires the most, that he wants to see every day even if he has to fight against him at the end of his life. Isn’t that hilarious, hm?

El doesn’t answer, he’s far too busy listening to the voice in his head as if he’s just got his hands on a forbidden item that shouldn’t be discovered. "He said please something bad happened, the twins have a problem" EL stammered as his eyes widened in terror.

"What are you talking about," Theo asks him who doesn’t understand what he’s telling him. "Who said what and what twins," there’s no one in the house and he hasn’t heard anything at all, so it’s hard for him to grasp at the first attempt to understand El’s words which seem to make no sense to him.

So what exactly is El talking about?

The fact that Howie never asks anyone for help, especially not like he just did, made El assume the worst. If Howie must be in such a state it must only be the twins Aike and Ayke and in a word Lugh. There is only one and only one person who makes him lose all his self-control, who makes him go out of his way, who makes him act like a rabid beast devoid of sense and reason, who makes him fragile and vulnerable, it can only be Lugh of course and in this world, it is the Morgenstern twins.

It’s true, El is totall right to assume the worst since he knows his friend well, his habits, his dark side, the shadow, and darkness that hides in him, patiently waiting for the right moment to unfold itself.

So yeah, if H’s voice is so desperate asking El for help right now it’s not just because of his fear of losing Kaeli, although he doesn’t want her to die so miserably if there was any way he could help her stay alive. But his despair is a result of these different images of torture that parade through his head as if he were watching the film of his life written and directed by his guardian angels and his creator himself because surely no human director can produce such a work, that person must have been endowed with twisted spiritual gifts far more complex than those known to men.

Reliving those moments is worse than getting chopped alive into small pieces by a cannibal while leaving you the pleasure of witnessing your impending death on the front lines as a courtesy. He relives his past life, Lugh’s death, or rather the days he spent suffering as a slow poison eats his organs from the inside and boils him down as he spits them out through his mouth.

It was a cruel death and he will never forgive anyone who participated in this ambush and concocted this violent poison. If he had to do again what he inflicted on that repulsive, off-putting being of Yolpem and the inhabitants of the cities he protected he would do it without hesitation again and again until they could no longer be reborn. And the pain remains the same, even worse now since his sensitivity is multiplied by three souls in a single body, not to mention that each of them has a level of sensitivity above all living beings combined.

No sooner had he finished delivering the message to El than he passed out on the side of the road Holding Kaeli well secure in his arms. If by any chance someone should separate them, he had to be woken up first, no one will take Kaeli from him if he is not awake. A precautionary measure if the hound ever wants to come back and finish his job, he will eat them both or not at all, that remains to be seen.

El looked up at Theo and whispered with death in his soul, the gleam and excitement he had in his aluminum placid gray eyes died to give way to a cloud of sadness sprinkled with terror "something happened to Howie, something terrible even and he needs help, the twins need help and when it comes to them Howie sucks on his abilities. He won’t be able to help them on his own" Theo watches El speak to him as if he were absent, while a fear he does not know invades his body the very moment he realizes the involvement of his words.

He knows Howie has little control over himself when it comes to the twins and if the way El presents the picture to him is true, the town has a problem. This time, he is very happy not to be involved in all this shit directly, the last time served as a lesson to him already.

"So shake yourself up, being like this won’t help your friend, if he called you he has a reason. Pull yourself together El, shit, we’re all in danger" Theo shouted in a horse voice, El snapped out of his torpor at Theo’s words, Theo is right about that they’re all in danger. "We’re all in danger," he muttered to himself, if what he thinks is exactly what happened, then it must be said that the hour is serious. And he has someone to protect now, just like he has Howie to support and accompany throughout his life.

"Get dressed quick, we need to get out of here real quick" El growled at Theo when he realized what he’d lose if he didn’t pull himself together right away. Without waiting he grabbed the towel around the latter’s waist, and sent it rolled up somewhere on the shiny floor of his room uncared of dirtied his room for the first time, he opened a package of new boxers which he put on Theo as if he were taking care of his little brother or something, ignoring Theo’s stunned, questioned look on him.

As El was off to put them on him, so Theo lifted one foot which he slipped into the underwear one after another with a slight blush on his cheeks. As he put on the long pants of the tracksuit, El put a t-shirt on him before putting the sweatshirt over the T-shirt. Theo lived with his father all his life, he doesn’t remember one day his father bothered to dress him from his childhood until his teenage years, he was always too busy with his various business trips which doesn’t give him much time with his only son, but he never lacks anything.

When he finished, El pulled out a pair of socks, he crouched down in front of Theo pushing him onto the bed where the latter fell on his bottom with a small chuckle. El got to work right away, still ignoring Theo’s intense gaze on him.

Theo couldn’t take his eyes off El as a wild urge to run his hands through his hair grew inside him more and more violent, he swallowed a mouth full of saliva moistened his lips, and looked away to drive away this mad need, "this really isn’t the time."

It all seems pretty unreal to him already, so there’s no need to ruin it all with his urge to touch the latter’s hair. He played with his itchy fingers, keeping his head to one side avoiding eye contact with El’s pretty white locks while trying to think of something else, like the fact that he’s never dressed so fast in his entire life.

He didn’t realize that El was already done as he watched him fight the urge to run his fingers through his hair, with a small smile tugged at the corner of his lips. The boy-bear grabbed his lover-to-be hand which startled Theo to the core and put them on his head, "touch them, I give you permission," he muttered as he stood up slowly his back bent over Theo. Theo doesn’t say anything but El keeps surprising him it’s like he can read his mind.

When El came up to his mouth, he placed a chaste kiss on the Rufus Alpha’s lips as he kept Theo’s hands in his hair. The fingers of the latter take the freedom to venture a little further on the bear boy’s scalp. "Come on, we have to go now," El whispered softly feeling chills invade his body as Theo’s fingers stroked his head. He needs to get out of the room before he loses all control of himself, he has things very urgent to do now and he promises not long ago to take his time with his lover-to-be. He quickly places a last kiss on Theo’s offered lips and grabs his hand to pull him onto his feet.

Theo lets himself go with happy smiling eyes while his face is unbothered, he has never been unhappy in the relationships he had had before since he himself had chosen this way of life that suited him. He indeed wanted to move on to a higher level with Hugg but he rather wanted the bugger to feel loved and to come to love who he is instead. Besides, Hugg was not a bad boy, he is just scared of the world.

But with El, it is completely insane and different from anything he had experienced before. The worst thing is that he couldn’t even do much to feel this good since he is the one who received everything without giving anything back today.