Rebirth: Solely Cherished by the Devoted Commander-Chapter 587 - 615: The Troubled Matters of the Child 7

Junjun naturally understands all these issues better than anyone else. He really likes Jin Xia, but unfortunately, Jin Xia has always been avoiding and rejecting him, for very obvious reasons. The fact that she's older than him is secondary; with a family background like hers, she couldn't possibly have no thoughts about it.

Nannan smiled at Junjun and said, "Being in love is something that makes people very happy. It makes you forget yourself, and not care about anything, just wanting to be with her. You don't consider anything else, but can you do that?" Nannan's mother is very gentle and also a very beautiful woman. Nannan inherited her beauty, and has been liked by many since she was young, but her personality is completely different.

Since middle school, she has received countless letters, but she remains calm and mature, indifferent to these young boys' courtships. Since her mother remarried and her grandmother didn't like her, she has been through a lot since she was young.

She is calm and mature, choosing partners who are very mature. She has only had one relationship in her life, which is with her current husband, who is well-bred and highly cultured, so she lives very happily.

Nannan said, "I'm the kind of person who knows what I want, so I live clearly. Do you know what you want? Do you want to be a saint, helping her whole family out of poverty, or do you want to cultivate yourself spiritually? To the point of dragging your parents to cultivate with you? If you do that, I think it's not very good, what do you think?"

Junjun bitterly nodded. Of course, he couldn't implicate his parents!

He also understood what his sister meant. He had to think clearly about whether this was love. His parents have been married for many years, and are still so sweet, often holding hands and walking in the park, chatting.

Even though his father is very cold to his subordinates, he can be like a child joking in front of his mother. This is what true love looks like. He felt he couldn't achieve that feeling with Jin Xia.

"Look at you, you say you like her, yet you look like you've eaten a bitter melon, I feel sad just looking at you! Is this the state you should be in when in love? Do you want your first love to be so painful? That's missing the true meaning of love, isn't it? It's like you've suddenly entered the phase of just getting by, how miserable."

"Hehe, maybe."

"So, you don't have love; it's more like admiration and pity, isn't it?" She thought for a moment and said, "It's like saying, 'You're so good, you can do this,' but I don't think that's love."

"Let me think about it."

"Yes, don't tell your parents before you figure it out. I always feel like that girl doesn't seem to like you that much."

"Got it." Junjun agreed and didn't go home but went to Jin Xia's rented place. He wanted to see her.

Jin Xia didn't know Junjun was downstairs. He hesitated until the streetlights came on, then decided to go home. Before leaving, he called Jin Xia.

"I'm downstairs at your place. Do you know that the sunset is beautiful right now?"

Jin Xia's voice was hurried: "Really? But I'm not there! I went back home! The cow at my brother's house was hit by a motorcycle, and the family didn't know what to do, so I went back."

"What? But aren't your sister and younger sister adults? Why do you have to go back personally?"

"They don't even speak proper Mandarin. The police station can't understand them and doesn't care, so I had to go back. Is there anything you need? I'm very busy here."

Junjun had so much to say, but Jin Xia wasn't in the mood: "I'm very busy, let's talk when I get back."

"Do you... do you like me?"

Jin Xia paused and then laughed, "Sir, I'm busy now, let's not talk about this." She hung up the phone.

It was at that moment that Junjun gave up on continuing with Jin Xia.

He felt the issue was not about money. Before making the call, he wanted to say he was willing to work hard with her, but Jin Xia is like a woman who has prematurely entered middle age; she has no time for romance. Her life is a spinning top, revolving around her parents, sisters, and brothers. She doesn't love him much, which was the hardest blow.

Later, when Jin Xia came back, they went out for a meal. Jin Xia's phone kept ringing, with calls from company leaders, people from the village, and various part-time messages; she was always very busy.

Jin Xia looked at him apologetically: "I left too abruptly, many things haven't been settled."

"Will you throw everything down and go back again when something happens next time?"

Jin Xia thought for a moment and nodded: "Yes, I think I will. They are burdens I cannot let go of in my lifetime."

"Have you ever thought about yourself? Living a happy life? What kind of man would accept you as you are now?"

Jin Xia was wearing washed-out blue jeans and a plaid shirt, her thin face devoid of any rosy hue. She held her drink cup, remaining silent for a long time.

She bowed her head and said, "Isn't it said, if you love me, you love everything about me? You're also such a selfish person."

"Love requires interaction and giving; you don't even want to give love a chance, how can you love? I just wanted to watch the sunset with you, but I said it six times, and you never came out once." Junjun said.

Jin Xia looked at Junjun and then nodded, "It's indeed like that. For someone like me, love is too extravagant."

"You don't have to live like this; your sisters aren't fools. They are already in their twenties and married. It doesn't have to be you who handles everything for them."

"They've never seen the world..."

"They seem to manage their own affairs quite well; it's just that they're used to you taking the lead."

Jin Xia didn't speak. Yes, her sisters have their own families, not rich but no longer unable to have enough to eat. The youngest brother is also engaged and will soon marry. She maxed out her credit card and borrowed money to build him a two-story house, and she wasn't even eligible to stay, not even in a small room.

This time when she went back, her parents still asked her to bring money - to get a shop in town for her brother.

Nobody cares when she'll get married or when she can have her own life. They all think, since she's the first college graduate to leave, she should give her family a good life.

Jin Xia smiled painfully and said, "I just think that once they stand on their own, I can consider my own affairs. Now I seem to regret it a bit."

Junjun said, "I'm leaving. I think you should really think more about yourself."

"Okay."

Jin Xia watched Junjun walk away, looked at the drink in front of her, and smiled. She didn't actually like Junjun that much, but it was rare for someone to care so much about her, which she found hard to let go of.

Junjun never saw her again. Later he heard that she got married quickly, to a man also known as a phoenix man, who, like him, had countless people waiting for him to dedicate himself.

This caused her to almost break ties with her family because she refused to keep sacrificing so much, refusing to continue bleeding for that family.