Tangled Hearts - The Alpha's Baby Mama-Chapter 172: My time with this body is almost up...

Selene POV

Kragen walked up to me and took both of my hands, our gazes met and held. The body of the woman he was in had blue eyes... not the bluest eyes I’ve ever seen but with him inside of her... it felt creepy.

"Listen to me, Selene..." he sighed squatting in front of me "You cannot bail out of me, now...that day I gave you the option to choose and believe me if you had chosen to have your babies who had barely formed as pups go, we would not be here having this conversation. You’ll find a perfect man, have tons of babies with him and everything will be alright. You choose this path, Selene and that’s because of that maternal instinct to protect your pup,".

"Don’t blame me for your shortcomings, Kragen," I hissed "You sold this idea to me and you fucking didn’t tell me how difficult it was going to be. This... since I met you there’s never a day I’ve rested. Everything is working against me... you... time... every fucking thing. Now, I am tired and I’m sorry I failed and couldn’t keep the end of the bargain. Just kill me and let the pact be settled,".

"You mean kill Maeve and Vina?" he asked slowly rising "They’re the reasons I turned the tide for you... I committed a grave sin against nature by sparing their life and killing another in their stead. I unbalanced the natural order of the universe and the only way to balance it is to kill them and not you. So," he shrugged "If that’s what you want.... I can...".

"Stop...stop..." I cried "Fine... I’ll do what you want but I cannot compete with Brooke now that she’s pregnant. Noah has wanted a baby for the longest time and would not pay attention to me now that she is with his child. It’ll not be easy to get him to do what I want again. So, I don’t know,".

"I did have a conception dream," Kragen placed a hand on his jaw as his eyes dimmed in thought "It’s just that I couldn’t see who the woman was. Anyways, you have to confirm if she’s truly pregnant. There are lots of ways to forge pregnancy tests these days and it’s disturbing. Our world is slowly copying all the evils done by humans or I could make the baby die and...".

"No!" I shook my head giving him a hard stare "That baby is innocent. Its only crime is to be mothered by someone like Brooke. It’s not at fault, so please leave the baby alone. I’ll think of something else. But what you could help me do is brainstorm ideas on how to be in favour of Noah. I agree I let my emotions get the better of me today and now that I see it, I shot myself in the leg again. But I’ll look for a way,".

"Yes," he nodded "And one of those ways is not to get Brooke fired. Noah still has a thing for Brooke in his heart... a weakness because she was his first and was a good first. So, he doesn’t love her nearly as much as he does you but he could if you keep putting the spotlight on her. You need to learn to control your emotions better, Selene. For you to conquer this family, you need to make them be on their toes around you and that means, not reacting to everything they say. Your silence is your power,".

"My silence is my power?" I scoffed "Do you have any idea what I put up with that family day after day? The amount of abuse you want me to endure and play some cold, unfeeling queen? I can’t do that Kragen. Maybe I am not cut out for this but I can’t do this, so please...".

"You can and you must!" Kragen rolled his eyes. "Right now, the family do not have a lot of goodwill towards you and you need it for the future. You cannot be fighting with your father-in-law to the extent you go physical. I know how these people work but believe me, everything they do is to take you down piece by piece. When the pack can no longer put up with you... when Noah can no longer cover you and would have to make the ultimate decision... that’s exactly what they want,".

I exhaled, hating that everything he was saying was the truth. "So, what do you suggest? What do you want me to do?"

"First, you will go to Noah and tell him that you’re sorry for overreacting today and you know say some sweet words about not wanting to lose him and stuff... maybe shed a tear or two. In Noah’s eyes, you have to be defenceless, and fragile... men love women who are in touch with their feminine side. Not everything should be a war,".

"Got it!" I rolled my eyes.

"Second, you look for your Leonard Carrell – your father-in-law and apologize. Tell him you were tired and wasn’t thinking and a lot of sweet things he’d want to hear and...".

"You think he would believe me?" I interrupted with a scoff "Leonard Carrell has had suspicions about me from the very first day. He knows I don’t give a damn about him and would take my apology with a grain of salt,".

"Just do it anyways!" Kragen sighed "It’s all for formality’s sake and to act like you’ve been broken else these people will make your life a living hell because everyone would try to break you. After that, you reach out to the Pack Elders and Officials... Selene you must ace your acting skills with these people... they’re the pillar of every pack and if you need to be in charge one day, they’re the first people you should disarm,".

"So, what are you suggesting?"

"You’ll meet them and apologize and then ask for punishment. I’ll do my best to make sure the punishment is light and bearable but you must ask for punishment. That way, they’ll feel like you want to be in their good books and they’ll reveal their true nature so it will be easy for us to deal with them last, you need to mend your relationship with your in-laws and no communication with Xavier for the mean-time. The girls have their phones... you could call them and chat but not Xavier and by the way, great move sending the girls with their father,".

"Why don’t you want me to communicate with Xavier?"

"Because we do not need distractions right now. I told you that he’s bent on making you, his Luna. I don’t know what he’s planning or his thoughts but going back with the twins was a big win for him. He’s your one and true mate... he’ll lure you and do it with ease so we need to stay away from him, at least until we need to advance to the third stage of our plan but for now, the aim is to appear righteous to everyone and use Noah against them. The more unstable their family is, the easier it’ll be for you to get close to each of the members. Thankfully, communication is not a thing there so no one will be telling on each other and be comparing events or stuff,".

"Okay!" I said flatly. I was sad... but I will do anything it takes to keep my children alive. "I’ll go see Noah, I don’t want Brooke beating me to him now that he’s still remorseful for yesterday,".

"Yeah," Kragen nodded "And Selene..." he looked at me wistfully "I wish it could be done another way but it’s just this. I promise to do my part and protect you of course but this path... the decisions... all the choices you make from this moment will on be on you so you need to make the right ones, okay? See me as a guide,".

"Wait!" I turned to him curiously "What are you talking about? You promised to do this with me,".

"Yes, but I cannot always be taking the forms of people whenever I need to speak to you. It wears me out and weakens me and I need all the energy I can get. I need to preserve it for the big shift and I’ve been getting a lot of sanctions lately... I need to be careful for both our sakes,".

"Then how will you be my guide?" I stared at him incredulously "When you’re leaving,".

"I am not leaving, Selene..." he ran a finger on my cheeks, staring at me intently "I am going to be here. I’ll be in your head... in your thoughts but not physically anymore, I’m sorry," he sighed "But it won’t change anything okay... I just need you to open up to me and you know let me in for a few minutes... don’t be so rigid and block me out,". freewebnøvel.coɱ

My heart sank as I stared at him, wondering if it was a joke but Kragen does not joke with things like this. "A-Are you serious?" I asked fighting the panic I could feel rising. "You do know all these occasional visits and conversations boost my confidence, right?"

"Nothing will change, Selene!" he tried to touch my cheek again but I took a step away from him.

"You want me alone to take on the Carrells’ and the Steeles’...It’s difficult with you here... imagine how it will be when you’re not here. I’m going to miss you, Kragen... you’re the only friend I have. Please... there must be a way,".

"Selene!" he tried to reach for me but I evaded him.

"What’s so bad about you just being yourself?" I was crying now. "I don’t care if you look like a worm or something, I promise I won’t be scared. You can’t leave me. I won’t accept it,".

"You have to!" he said firmly "And... snap out of it, Selene Thorne... you’re stronger than you let on. So, you’ll be fine. I have to go now... okay! My time with this body is almost up. Open your mind... I’ll always be around,".