Tangled Hearts - The Alpha's Baby Mama-Chapter 174: They’re grown men, time will heal them all...

Selene POV

There is something no one tells you about revenge – it turns you into a loner.

I fought the angry tears at the corner of my eyes as I marched towards Noah’s room. I hated that I was doing this but if I had another way to save my children, I would choose it. Why do women have to be silent about cheating mates? Be the first one to reach out or ignore for peace to reign? If it was me in Noah’s shoes, everyone would be acting as if I killed someone.

What is more, this thing feels like a natural order of things around here. But not for long...something needs to be changed and I know that if I can change more than a century-old curse, I could do this too. When I got to his door, I took a deep breath, trying to control my emotions as I stood there. As I was about to knock on the door, I felt someone’s presence beside me.

Startled, I turned and saw it was Brooke. She had a satisfied smile as she turned to face me too.

"I must thank you for the little stunt you pulled today... it was so satisfying to see you show the people how unstable and emotional you are and it benefits me in the end, Selene. Do you think you can be a Luna... if you don’t have a lid over your emotions? Nobody wants a weakling to rule over them. The people always want to be bossed around, commanded... you... forceful things... I don’t know if it’s a thing with werewolves but Lycans are not the same,".

She was trying to rile me... even though she was right in everything she was saying but I was going to starve her of the attention she was seeking. Ignoring her, I raised my hand and knocked firmly on the door. Some seconds later, Noah appeared. He tensed when he saw both of us together as his eyes travelled from one person to another.

"Can we talk?" I asked, my voice above a whisper.

"There’s something I need to tell you about too, Noah," Brooke said also sounding less like the vicious woman she was a while ago. More than anything, she sounded as if I had just beaten her. "It’s about the other thing that day and..." she paused as her eyes trailed to me as if she was worried that I wasn’t supposed to hear something.

"Let’s talk about that, later. Let me see Selene first," Noah replied and stood to one side of the door, ushering me in.

"It cannot wait!" Brooke said with agitation "I must tell you everything now... do you want everyone to find out that I am carrying your baby and..." she trailed off again. From the corner of my eyes, I saw her looking at me triumphantly, expecting a reaction but not even a glance towards her. "I’m sorry, I know I am not supposed to say a word about it," she continued to Noah "But this is important,".

"Not now, Brooke!" Noah sighed "I’ll call for you when I’m done talking to my Luna, okay?" Without waiting for a response, he turned and closed the door behind us.

I moved past him to the couch in the sitting area and dropped on it, waiting for him to settle too. I was trying to rehearse everything I wanted to say to him.

"Do you want anything? Tea, coffee...".

"I’m fine, Noah," I said quietly "Can you come sit for a few minutes, this won’t take time,".

He nodded and dropped into the space beside me. We spent another minute without saying anything before I finally cleared my throat and he looked up.

"When you first cheated on me with Brooke, I made up my mind that I was going to try and work it out with you. I was willing to forgive those weak moments but you’ve been with her more than once now and I seriously don’t know what has come over you or if you’re the man I married and now a baby..."

"I’m sorry, Selene," he sighed "I have no idea what has come over me and...".

"That’s enough, Noah," I interrupted him "I didn’t come here to listen to your countless excuses. I realized that I let my emotions get the best of me today. I should have considered your position and your place in my life before selling you cheap before the people and it’s because..." tears welled up in my eyes. I was already a nervous wreck, so the tears came easily. "I don’t want to lose you, Noah... with each passing day, it seems you’re leaving my grasp and I’m afraid that I may not be able to keep up one day and you’ll finally leave,".

I pressed a hand on my chest, as sobs racked my frame. I could see guilt on Noah’s face as he drew closer and gathered me into his hands, trying to rock me to calm. As he murmured and crooned sweet words to me, I sobbed harder. I wasn’t crying because of him; I was crying because of everything I’ve had to pass through all these years.

No friend to talk to, not even a confidante... how I have struggled all these years trying not to compare myself with other women and question why men always cheated. Right now, it was all I could think of. If Noah so loves me as he claims..., why does he have to be with Brooke? Love is a unilateral thing... when you love someone, they become your world.

"You won’t lose me, Selene, I promise," he murmured in my hair "I’m so sorry for every pain I’ve caused up until now and I am willing to do anything you tell me regarding, Brooke,".

That was my cue.

I raised my head, looking at him with soulful eyes. "I can’t tell you what to do, Noah. Brooke is ... you’re involved with her; you should know how best to deal with the whole thing and now that she’s with child. I’m sure...".

"She’s not going to birth that child," Noah stopped me mid-sentence. "I don’t even believe that the child is mine or that she’s pregnant to start with but I can’t ruin my family and cause strife amongst my children when I’m not here. So... until I confirm that the child, she’s carrying is mine... I cannot accept her and I think it’s a good idea for Brooke to leave the pack at least for a while,".

"That won’t be necessary, Noah," I sighed and rested my head on his shoulder.

"That won’t be necessary?" he repeated staring at me with surprise "What are you talking about?"

"Well..." I traced a finger from the base of his neck down to his chest, with my eyes fixed on his "I think I’ve caused enough problem already and the people are growing weary... the pack officials, the elders; and you’re always in the spotlight for taking sides with me...".

"That’s because I love you, Selene. You’re my wife and my mate... if you say the sky is blue... then the sky is fucking blue. C’mon, I told you that I will always be in your corner no matter what and somehow, it’s my fault that everything is going like this, I should have taken care of these tiny matters before our wedding. I’m sorry,".

"It’s fine, Noah!" I sighed giving him a sweet smile "Let Brooke still be my Beta. I’ll release a public statement apologizing to her and...".

"You won’t do that, darling," he shook his head pressing a kiss on the tip of my nose "For the fact that you’re willing to work with her again is enough. But are you sure about that? I won’t get mad if you want me to ask her to leave,".

"No!" I sighed and combed his hair with my hand "At the end of the day, Noah...you know where your heart lies. I think I will stop bothering you if you want to keep sleeping with her or not. Right now, I am going to try to live in the moment, be happy... be healthy and thank goddess, there’s more than enough distraction already, that comes with the office. So, I should channel my energy there and make the most of it,".

His eyes searched my eyes before he sighed and dropped another kiss on my forehead. "I think there’s a way to solve this issue because Rio... My wolf goes berserk when he sees her ... he’s still very much attracted to her and I know it sounds like an excuse but I am very disciplined okay... it’s just different with Brooke,".

"I understand," I nodded running a hand on his jaw "So, what you were going to suggest a solution. Go ahead dear, I am all ears,".

"We should always be together. Well..." he shrugged "Not at every time in the day but during the nights... we could stay in one bedroom together until the next day. She wouldn’t dare it with you beside me, I am so sure of that,".

"Wonderful idea," I chuckled sadly knowing I was wasting my time. Noah was just saying anything he could think of to make me happy. He wasn’t ready to let Brooke go and that was okay...

"Next, can you schedule a meeting with me and the Grand Lycan... I need to meet with him and apologize for my behaviour the other day and also the pack elders and officials?"

"My dad?" his eyes widened with surprise "Really? Are you sure Selene? You know you’re not obligated to make these apologies. They’re grown men, time will heal them all,".