The Crazed Little Darling: Pampered by the Possesive Commander!-Chapter 382: You Truly Deserve to Go to Hell
Lu Zhiya observed Su Ruan’s expression and replied, "Yes, I knew from it."
After a pause, she continued, "Does Xiao Nian know that you are reborn?"
Having brought up the topic, she just came out with it and said "reborn" directly.
Su Ruan nodded, "He knows."
Lu Zhiya’s expression became complicated, "What was his reaction?"
Speaking of reincarnation, there was a lot that could be said.
But Su Ruan did not bring up those complicated matters and instead asked, "Why does Star Lord Lu care so much about this?"
Lu Zhiya fell silent for two seconds before sighing, "I saw an explosion in the Evil Beast’s memory."
Su Ruan straightened her posture.
The explosion she spoke of was likely the one that destroyed the Original World.
The explosion personally orchestrated by Lu Shinian.
"Yes." Su Ruan responded softly.
"In the image, you were floating in the air." Lu Zhiya looked resolutely at Su Ruan, "At that time, you were already in a spiritual body state." 𝐟𝕣𝕖𝐞𝐰𝕖𝚋𝐧𝗼𝚟𝐞𝕝.𝗰𝐨𝐦
Her tone was firm, clearly very certain of this matter.
Su Ruan returned Lu Zhiya’s gaze.
"Yes." She did not conceal it, "At that time, I was already dead."
"So that explosion, it wasn’t caused by you." Lu Zhiya continued her words.
"I saw a corner of the throne in the image, and sitting there, it was Xiao Nian, right?"
Su Ruan nodded again.
After receiving a definite answer, Lu Zhiya’s expression grew even more complex.
"So..." She almost couldn’t produce a sound, her throat seeming blocked, and only after a long pause did she utter the next part, "That explosion, was it caused by Xiao Nian?"
In other words, the person who destroyed the Original World was Lu Shinian.
Seeing that Lu Zhiya’s expression was a bit off, Su Ruan, with a hint of concern, asked, "Are you okay?"
After all, Lu Zhiya was Lu Shinian’s mother, and although Lu Shinian no longer acknowledged her, no matter what, she was still his mother.
Su Ruan, though she didn’t delve into Lu Zhiya’s affairs, couldn’t just ignore seeing her face turning pale, especially since she had taken care of them recently.
Lu Zhiya’s face was white to the point of near transparency.
Under the light, you could almost see the faintly flowing blood vessels under her skin.
"I’m okay." Lu Zhiya smiled, but the smile looked so forced, "I just didn’t expect he would go to such an extent."
"Back then..." Lu Zhiya’s voice was very low, almost inaudible.
"Back then, I did many wrong things."
She began to recount the past slowly.
This was the first time Su Ruan learned that seemingly invincible Lu Shinian actually had such a cruel past.
Back then, there was a stand-in love affair between Lu Zhiya and Qin Cheng, even though it was just a misunderstanding, or perhaps it was because the young and reckless Qin Cheng couldn’t tell the difference between adoration and affection, mistaking his admiration for Su Hanjing as love, which led to the white moonlight and the so-called stand-in.
And at that time, Lu Zhiya also didn’t understand what liking meant, or rather, the phrase "liking" didn’t exist in the Empire people’s heart.
When she was young, Lu Zhiya simply thought Qin Cheng was great, so she wanted to have him, both body and heart.
But people’s hearts change, and she didn’t believe in the Federation people’s "love conquers all", so she played many small tricks to make Qin Cheng deeply mired in guilt and remorse.
After discovering she was pregnant, Lu Zhiya left Qin Cheng and went to live on another planet.
But she couldn’t forget Qin Cheng, she wanted him to remember her forever, so she always babbled to young Lu Shinian, saying "liking is possession" and "love is coercion".
The young and inexperienced Lu Shinian engraved these sayings in his heart.
When Lu Shinian was about eight years old, and Lu Zhiya twenty-eight, she received a message from the Empire. She needed to return to inherit Wanling Star and become its Star Lord.
But she still hadn’t got Qin Cheng’s heart, how could she be willing to return?
So she used Lu Shinian.
Under that blood moon, she used her talent to split into a stand-in.
In front of Lu Shinian’s eyes, she turned into a bloody mist and vanished before him.
She wanted him to remember how his mother "died", and he would hate his father for his mother’s death, and as he grew, he would go avenge his father.
And his father, that man named Qin Cheng, would always remember her whenever he saw Lu Shinian’s face.
Qin Cheng would remember her forever, forever.
So obsessive, so mad, cruel, and unreasonable, destroying so much that should have been beautiful.
Listening to Lu Zhiya’s account, Su Ruan suddenly thought of a phrase from ancient culture.
[Some people spend their whole lives healing from childhood, while others spend their whole lives healing their childhood]
Lu Shinian, indoctrinated by Lu Zhiya, understood love as possessive compulsion, with madness and obsession in his bones.
Witnessing his mother’s cruel death in front of him, he could never truly enjoy a father’s love without feeling restless for the rest of his life.
For a child, it was just too cruel.
Even though Lu Shinian now seemed capable of handling things on his own, these memories would always linger in his mind, never to be erased, and never to be reconciled.
Su Ruan’s long lashes fluttered, and for the first time, she spoke harshly to the Lu Zhiya she had always respected.
"You really deserve to go to hell."
She did not look at her again, walking quickly past and out.
Watching her retreating figure, a bit of blood seeped from Lu Zhiya’s originally pale lips.
A small ball of light drifted out from behind her, worriedly saying, "Ya Ya, your body..."
"Why would Ruan Ruan say that about you? Ya Ya, you are clearly very good."
Lu Zhiya smiled and shook her head, her voice so soft it was almost inaudible.
"I have made too many mistakes."
"It’s right to be punished."
Perhaps, the fact that the cores of the five major stars were polluted, but only Wanling Star’s core could maintain vitality by consuming her heart blood, was her punishment.
"Lingling, I regret a little." She said softly, "I regret loving him."
The word "love" is too heavy, not something that she could bear.
Lingling tilted its head in confusion, "Lingling doesn’t understand, but I know Ya Ya is the best Ya Ya in the world."
Lu Zhiya chuckled softly, reaching out her hand to touch Lingling.
When her fingertips were only a centimeter away from Lingling, darkness suddenly struck.
Consciousness seemed to be swallowed by an unknown darkness, that darkness like a ferocious beast, wanting to consume her completely.
In the last moment before consciousness faded, in a daze, Lu Zhiya heard Lingling’s worried voice.
"Ya Ya!"
Then, the world fell silent, leaving nothing behind.
