The Lycan king-Chapter 124

I just want it to be us. I don’t want you to leave me. We need you." I said as the tears fell. There was no way I would have been able to control it.

"Okay, I’ll figure out something with Beth." He said as he rubbed my back. "Let me put him on the bed. Then we can spend some time together." He suggested and I nodded. Jax carefully took Xander away from me. He stepped out of the bath and walked to the room. It didn’t take a long time for him to come back.

"I’m a mess." I admitted as he climbed back into the bathtub. He held his arms open and I crawled into them like a baby. "I’m so sorry. I just need time to get over it." 𝕗𝐫𝐞𝕖𝕨𝐞𝗯𝚗𝕠𝘃𝐞𝚕.𝐜𝗼𝚖

"I understand. I think I’m trying so hard to make you happy when I should just wait a bit and let everything die down for a second." He said as he kissed my head. "Let’s take a shower. You’ve been in the water too long. After that, I’ll get some food and we can get some rest."

"Thank you." I mumbled. I was thankful that I had someone that would listen to me.

"I still didn’t give you your wedding gift."

*Leonora*

I munched on the pasta and chicken salad Jax had brought earlier. It was when I began eating, I realized how hungry and starved I was. Jax chucked a bit when he saw how I ate quickly. I knew he was trying to lighten the mode and distract me from all that I went through these past few weeks and I was a bit grateful for it.

"So what is my wedding gift?" I asked as I paused from eating and leaned back on the chair. He looked up from his plate with a small smile.

"Won’t you prefer if I give it to you?" He asked me and I shrugged. I wasn’t so curious as to what he got me besides our wedding was a long time ago. Time had already passed.

"If you can get everything I need for this baby, that will be the best wedding gift ever." I said curtly and he nodded. "I’m so sorry. I shouldn’t have spoken to you like that. We kind of need things for Xander. We didn’t have any opportunity to get anything."

He gave me a look. "I’ll forgive you if you come here." He said and I got up from my seat, making my way over to him. He quickly pulled me onto his thigh and I smiled a little. "I know we need things for Xander and I also know you don’t want us to be apart so I spoke to Micah. He’s going back to his pack. He, Beth and Dev will go shopping for us."

"Did you miss me? I mean did you search for me everyday?" I asked and he frowned. I looked at him and this time, I took in all his features. He had dark circles and eye bags. I lifted my hand to his face and cupped his cheek.

"I never stopped looking. Even when everyone said I should rest for a minute. I don’t think there’s a life without you in it." He said as I swiped my thumb over his eye bags. He looked tired and stressed out. I brushed his hair away from his face and leaned up, giving him a kiss on his forehead.

"My baby." I whispered against his forehead. I pulled away and I hugged him. "I’ll take care of you, okay? I’m here now and you can finally get some sleep."

"No!" He sternly said. "We both need to rest and be present for Xander. I don’t want you to focus on me when our baby is right there."

"I can take care of you both." I urged and he sighed. "I promise I can do it. I don’t like seeing you like this. If I can’t, I’ll let you know."

"Leonora, I don’t want to fight with you about this. You haven’t even given yourself time to rest and you’re already bothered about me. You literally had to heal yourself and Meredith said the whole process was excruciating. I think that is enough to know that you and Xander need time. Time to just get over the last few weeks." Jax said and I pursed my lips.

In a way he was right but I was so close to losing the little life I built and I was scared of it happening again. I didn’t want to wake up and find that he had gone out. I didn’t think I’ll be able to handle him being away from us again.

"I want to sleep." I muttered and he sighed as I got off him. I walked over to the bed and smiled at the sight of Xander in the middle of the bed, wrapped in a cloth, most likely Jax’s shirt. I got underneath the duvet and placed a hand at the other side of Xander.

He had the same eyes as Jax with a very small cute nose. I wanted to kiss his cheek but I could still remember all those videos about kissing babies that I had come across while scrolling on my phone.

"Leo, I’m not fighting you. I told you, we are in this together whether we like it or not. I’m your husband, your mate and I want to do the right thing. I can’t let you take care of our little family and burn yourself out." I heard Jax say and I sighed. I really didn’t want to listen to him anymore. I wished there was a way I could make him shut his mouth without actually making him leave me.

"Jax, finish eating." I ordered as I lightly traced Xander’s eyebrows. He looked so angelic and beautiful as he slept. He moved a bit and I gave him a bit of space. I didn’t want him to wake up and cry again. As much as I loved him, his cries were really loud and deafening.

"Leo, you have to agree with me on this. I don’t want anything to happen to you and our baby. He needs you to care for him and you need me to care for you. Let me do my part. I’m okay. After a day’s rest I will be good." Jax said but I closed my eyes in response. I didn’t want to listen to any other thing he had to say. I hummed as slowly rocked myself to sleep. It was something I started doing in the dark hut whenever I needed to sleep.

"I love you, Leo. I love you and I want to take care of us. Let me do the right thing." He said but I could feel myself getting sleepy. "Please say something. I hate that we aren’t on the same side right now." I heard his voice get closer. I felt the bed dip and then his arm around my waist. "Let me take care of you. Let me protect you."

"Please let’s just go to sleep. My head is aching me. I just want to sleep and forget everything happened. Can you do that for me?"

*Jax*

I shook Leonora as I bounced Xander in my arms. Leonora was thrashing on the bed and Xander was crying profusely. I could see tears streaming down her eyes and I tried to wake her up without startling her.

"Baby, please." I tapped her and she finally shot out of the bed. She cried louder and she looked at the bed, tapping around. It was night time and I had turned off the light for us to sleep.

"Where is my baby?" She cried as she frantically searched around the bed. I took a step back as I wasn’t sure if it was right for me to hand Xander over to her as she was freaking out.

"Leo, baby. Let’s go have some warm milk." I suggested and she turned to me. A frown formed on her face as she stretched out her hands and her eyes zeroed in on Xander.

"Give me my baby." She said with so much anger in her tone. "Give me my baby." She screamed causing Xander’s cries to get louder. I reluctantly handed Xander over to her and he quieted down. She carried him and got off the bed, going over to the corner of the room. The same spot she used to stay in when she first slept her. "My sweet angel. Mummy’s here. Mummy will never ever leave you." She cooed as she cried. I walked over to her and knelt in front of her.

"My love." I called as I tried to touch her and she screamed. I quickly got up and moved away from her. She kept humming, singing and whispering to Xander and this act scared me. I didn’t know what to do or how to pacify the situation.