The Lycan king-Chapter 19

*Leonora*

I walked back to the kitchen with my shoulders held high. The small little rebellion was enough to keep me going. Immediately I opened the door, I coughed at the sight of Bethany and the head of the mansion staff exchanging saliva, aka kissing. They both pulled away from each other as he quickly walked out of the kitchen. I knew that there was so much that I had missed and it was evident that I didn’t know everything.

"So." I sang out while she blushed in the corner. I had never seen Bethany all flustered before. She looked like a baby caught stealing sweets. "Is he your mate?" I asked as her face turned redder than usual.

"He is not. I enjoy his company a lot." She said as she looked around the room trying not to make eye contact with me. I know things are still weird with us but I wanted her to know that she was still my best friend no matter what. I trusted her with my life. Well, she was the only person I could trust and the only person who knows of my predicament. "So, what happened with Jax?" She asked and I smiled to myself.

"He said he didn’t punish me for entering his room yesterday, which I think it’s a lie. He also gave me a bottle for my back. I think because of the severity of last night, it might have triggered our mate bond." I said as I walked over to her. I pulled her in for a hug and flinched slightly as the pain had subsided a lot. I don’t know what Shirley did but she was a life saver.

"Why didn’t you take it?" She asked me with a quizzical look on her face.

"Because I am not going to give him the satisfaction he’s looking for. He is a monster. He has done a lot for me and his conscience needs to eat him up." I explained to her. I don’t think she would get it. She wouldn’t understand. She wasn’t the one that had to move to another pack for two weeks during heat. The restless night I had to face as I slept in a dimly lit room, in the slave quarters. It was a nightmare. She wasn’t the one that ad to watch her soulmate tell her that she was not worthy to be by his side. 𝙛𝓻𝒆𝓮𝒘𝙚𝙗𝒏𝙤𝙫𝓮𝒍.𝓬𝒐𝙢

The part that hurt the most was that he never gave me a chance. He immediately decided I wasn’t good enough and stuck by it. If he had given me a chance, none of this would have happened to me. Noah would still be here, I would still be the old Leonora who believed in love. Who craved to be held by someone, to be cherished and treated with respect. Instead I was now becoming this broken, cold and rejected person. If I saw myself in a mirror, I wouldn’t even tell how I looked like.

"Nora, I think you should just get it over with. Accept his rejection and move on. I overheard people talking and they think you’re just trying to get his attention and become one of his play things." Bethany advised. "I love you, Nora but I can’t stand to see you in so much pain. You deserve better."

"Noah deserved better too! I can never let Noah’s death be in vain. He protected me when we were being attacked and this is my way of paying him back. I would sacrifice myself over and over until Jax feels the pain he put Noah and I through. Or have you forgotten how he locked us up in the dungeon for days?"

"I kept screaming for help and he only came back when he felt we had spent the deserved time. Beth, he can’t go scot free. Not on my watch!" I ended my rant. It felt nice getting it out of my chest. I didn’t have anyone to talk to when I was in the human world so I stuck to myself. It was so lonely but those two years made me stronger. It gave me my sense of determination and willpower.

"Who won’t go scot free?" I heard Jax ask behind me and I froze. Was he listening to our conversation? I closed my eyes and said a silent prayer, hoping he would leave instead, I heard him walk into the kitchen. Bethany looked like a deer caught in the headlights with her big doe eyes opened widely. "Pretend that I’m not here." He said as he rummaged around the kitchen. I held myself from looking behind me or even offering any form of support.

"Bethany, could you excuse us for a brief second?" Bethany ran out of the room and I turned around to look at him. "You know, I really don’t want to put you through so much. It’s better you accept my rejection before it gets worse." He said smugly and I scoffed.

"Look at you threatening me. I don’t even know why I’m surprised. You have shown me the terrible parts of you." I said as I turned around not wanting to look at him anymore. He didn’t deserve much from me. He didn’t deserve my time or energy.

"Leonora, I’m trying to help you. No one is ever going to look at you like a queen. How do you think they would react when they find out you’re my mate?" He asked as I felt tears beginning to gather in my eyes.

"You never gave me a chance so why would they? You sent me off to sleep in a slave quarters in another pack, how would they view me as your queen? You caused this! And I would never reject you. I don’t care whatever you do to me." I said with so much pride. I wanted to turn around and see the look on his face but I didn’t. I heard his footsteps come closer to me but they stop midway and walk away.

I was going to have the last laugh. Whether he likes it or not!