The Lycan king-Chapter 58

* Leonora*

"You’re so self centered." I laughed and he pouted. "I honestly cannot believe that you never knew Claire likes you. She’s been all over you and everyone in the pack knows."

"Is that why you weren’t happy when I told you that I wanted her to be my queen?" He asked me and I sighed. There was still so much that we didn’t know about each other and we haven’t even had the time. I took a step back causing his hands to fall of my body. "Come on, you have to tell me and I’ll tell you something."

"Yes and that’s why I tried to run away. I thought if I ran, it would take a while before you would find me and it would make it harder for you to pick Claire as your Queen." I explained, feeling the heat rise to my cheeks. "I was stupid then."

Jax cleared his throat. "Now that we’re spilling secrets. Promise me you won’t get mad at me." He said and I scoffed. If he told me something that would annoy me, I would definite angry at him. There was no two ways about it.

"Fine." I forced out a lie.

"I was jealous of you and Noah. I hated seeing the both of you together and that was even before I knew you were my mate." He confessed and I walked over to sit beside him. "That morning when I saw you in bed with him, I was so angry. I wanted to scream at you. Fuck! I was so jealous for a very long time and I don’t know if I have gotten over my jealousy."

"It still doesn’t explain why you didn’t give me a listening ear. It was at that moment I started hating you." I admitted. Up until that point, I never looked at Jax like a monster. I understood why he didn’t want to be with me but when he punished Noah and I, I just took it that he was a monster and I should hate him.

"I don’t know. Claire said some things to me and I just went with it. I’m really sorry and I promise you that I wouldn’t let anyone talk me into anything. That’s why I had to say that during my address." He muttered and I sighed. I didn’t know where Jax and I were heading but it was nice seeing that he was willing to listen to me for once.

"But you know she’s right. I’m a traitor. I should be punished for what I did." I said as I bowed my head. If I had just spoken to Jax from the onset maybe I wouldn’t have gone to find refuge in The Cave. I wouldn’t have met Luke and he wouldn’t have choked me by the tree.

"Claire and I are the ones to blame. If we were nicer to you, you wouldn’t have left the pack in the first place. It was my own fault." He shot at me. "And it’s not your fault that I have a messed up brother."

"What happened with the both of you?" I asked and Jax tensed up. There was silence for a couple of minutes and I didn’t know if I had said the wrong or right thing.

"He is my half brother. My father had a girlfriend before he met my mother. The had a child together before he became the king. He found out my mother was his mate and he ended things with his girlfriend because at that time he had become king and from what I heard, he was always acting out when my mother wasn’t around." He narrated. "So when they had me, it was only natural that I would take over since I was the rightful heir but Luke was angry because he was the first child of my father. I let him compete with me and I won."

"That’s not what he told me. He said you cheated." I said and Jax forced out a chuckle. It seemed like he was forcing himself.

"Obviously I didn’t cheat. I won and he didn’t like that. Threatened to kill me on several occasions. I even got this scar." He lifted the hair covering his eyebrow and there was a scar there, just like the one on Luke’s. "Claire knew and she helped me so many times. That’s why we got so close. I never told anyone except the council and I just opted to banish him instead."

"I’m so sorry you had to go through that. I’m so sorry that I brought him back into your life." I apologized as I dropped down from the podium and walked in front of him. I held out my arms for him and he smiled before wrapping his arms around me and resting his head on my shoulder. I rubbed his back as a way to comfort him. I felt really guilty for bringing him back past drama.

"It’s not your fault. He would have attacked me any way. I should even be thanking you for stabbing him. Don’t say killing. You didn’t kill him. You only stabbed him and he’s in the dungeon." Jax explained to me and I nodded. It was so scary because I saw him bleed. "Please come back home to me. Please. I don’t want to let you go this time around." 𝒇𝓻𝓮𝓮𝙬𝙚𝒃𝒏𝓸𝙫𝒆𝙡.𝓬𝓸𝒎

"Jax. You know I can’t. I understand that you want to see where this thing can take us but I’m not your plaything. I can’t just hop into bed with you. I haven’t really had the chance to just do my own thing in this pack and I’m happy that you’re giving us one week off so I can use that to rest and gather myself." I explained to him and he sighed loudly.

"I understand." He said as he pulled away, still holding onto me. I heard footsteps coming so I stepped away from him, not wanting anyone to see us in an intimate position. I wasn’t used to being his mate or even being friendly with him and this felt so new.

"Sir, the council is waiting."