The Lycan king-Chapter 83

*Jax*

Being in a relationship was work. No one had told me earlier and maybe I wouldn’t prepared or at least know what I was getting myself into. I didn’t know that I was going to have to be a shoulder for someone to lean on or a therapist for someone to rant to and I certainly didn’t know I had to calm someone down and also make them feel good about themselves.

Maybe Leonora could see that I wasn’t so skilled in the dating world but why is she still with me? Why did she choose to stick around after all I had done? I definitely wouldn’t have stayed with myself. Just thinking about everything I had done was enough to make me hate myself.

If I had just tried to get to know her or at least talk to her, maybe our relationship would have been different. I knew that our last was still dangling over our heads like a piano held by a tiny string. I was scared every moment that maybe that piano would fall and she would realize I wasn’t worth it.

"Baby." I heard her mutter in her sleep. She rolled around trying to feel some sort of warmth from me but I was seated on my chair watching her. I had placed a pillow for her to cuddle on and as she continued to move around, her hands found the pillow and she cuddled up to it.

Everything she had told me yesterday were still fresh on my mind and I knew I couldn’t let it out. I couldn’t even tell Claire. I wanted Leonora all to myself and I didn’t want to put her in a position where I would be offering her up on a silver platter to the council. They would jump for joy and that might most likely be the last time I would hear from her.

My mind was conflicted. As a king, I was meant to tell the council about this new development but as her partner, I couldn’t do that. I liked her so much and I didn’t want to let go of her.

How can I let go of someone who had seen me and all my ugly sides and still chose me? How can I let go of someone liked me as much as I liked her? How can I let go of someone who cooked for me? It may have seemed like a little gesture for peace but it meant a lot to me. Having someone that wanted to make sure I was well fed. It was like a blessing. The moon goddess knew that I needed someone like Leonora.

She was perfect.

"J-Jax." She called as she stretched and sat up straight. She had a little frown which made me get up and walk over to the bed. I slid in underneath the covers and she quickly latched herself onto me. I liked how clingy she could get and if there was a way for me to keep her glued on my body, I would do it.

I laid down on the bed and pulled her over me.

"Good morning my love." I said as she hummed and adjusted herself over me until she was straddling me. I wanted to pulled her off me and tell her how much she was turning me on but I didn’t want to let go of her. I could feel blood rushing down to my dick as she adjusted herself, slightly rubbing over my dick.

"Morning." She mumbled with her eyes closed and I placed a kiss on her forehead. I slightly pulled her upwards so that she wouldn’t tempt me as much as she did. I loved how easy it was that she could turn me into a mushy mess. I haven’t ever been with someone who made me feel so good.

When she left, my wolf was craving intimacy and she wasn’t around so I sought out ways to please myself and my wolf but nothing could satisfy my wolf. Sexually, I was a bit satisfied but there was just something else about being with your mate. That was why after Leonora and I finally had sex, it was like all my emotions were regulated. I felt like a different person. It made me think I was on heat throughout the whole time Leonora was away, which I found quite funny.

"What do you want for breakfast?" She asked me as she adjusted herself again, rubbing against me. Was she purposely trying to seduce me? I regretted getting into bed. I should have just stayed in my seat and lied that I was doing something important.

"Nothing yet. I just want to stay here with you." I said before I could realize. She moved again and a small groan erupted from my throat. I felt her mouth on my neck as she breathed lightly. I was getting hyper aware of everything and it was making it hard for me to enjoy this rest time. She began to place little kisses on my neck as she slowly rubbed her herself on me. She kissed up to my ear and she just stayed there lightly breathing as she rode her hips over mine.

I could feel myself getting harder each passing second and my hands quickly found her hips. I wrapped one hand on her back, holding her tightly against me while the other was on her hip, assisting her.

"I want you." She whispered in my ear as a moan forced it’s way out of my mouth. She moaned in my ear as I held her hips tightly against me and harshly pressed myself against her. "Please." She begged and went back to kissing my neck. I could tell that she was going to leave love bites over my neck and at that moment, I didn’t care. I flipped us over so that I could take control.

"If I do this, there is no going back." I whispered in her ear and she nodded frantically.