The Lycan king-Chapter 92

*Leonora*

How long was I going to stare at the pregnancy sticks for the result to change?

I had been seated on the floor with my knees to my chest and my arms wrapped around my knees for support as I stared at the damned sticks. Bethany had gone to the nurse to get the sticks and she left to stay over at Devon to give me space to process everything first before I did anything. I wanted to tell her that she should stay with me but I knew how I also needed this space. I knew I needed to be on my own and deal with this by myself.

I didn’t even know if I should tell Jax. This baby was ours but after everything that had happened, I didn’t know if I wanted to be in the same space as him. My mind ran with different scenarios of me telling Jax I was pregnant. Would he believe me or would he think I’m just trying to get his attention? I didn’t even know what to expect from him anymore.

He had shown me that he doesn’t trust me and probably never will. What angered me was that I never gave him a reason to doubt me. I had stayed by his side even after everything and I was now paying for it. Like they always said, a zebra can never change its stripes and I was learning it the hard way.

There was a knock on the door and I kicked the test under the bed, not wanting anyone to know what was going on. The door opened and I looked up from the floor and Jax walked in.

"Is everything okay?" He asked me as I got up from the floor. I quickly wiped my face and ran my fingers through my hair, shaking it up so that I could look presentable.

"Yeah." My voice hoarse as I hadn’t spoken for hours and I had cried myself to sleep. I cleared my throat. "Do you want anything?"

"There was another council meeting." He announced and my brows furrowed. No one told me. "The council is agitated. I think we really need to start trying for a child."

I blinked at him. I don’t even know why I was surprised. Would he want to admit to himself and to me that there wasn’t any reason for him to be jealous? For him to treat me the way I did? For him making me walk back home that night? For acting so cold to me?

""Earth to Leonora." He said as he sat on the bed. "You haven’t said anything."

"I’m not ready." I admitted. I’m not ready to move into that phase of life with Jax. He has shown me that he wasn’t ready to be a loving father and husband to me. "I don’t even know if I’m ready to go on with the coronation." My voice came out smaller than I expected.

"Leonora? Where is this coming from? I told you that if we mated there was no going back. You can’t take it back. It’s already happening." He ordered and I sighed, looking down at the floor. I didn’t want to have this conversation anymore so I walked over to the door and opened it. I gestured for him to leave but he didn’t move. "We’re not done talking!"

"I’ve heard what you said. Just let me know when you need me to warm your bed like a prostitute that I am." I said as I rolled my eyes and gestured for him to leave but he still didn’t move. I squared my shoulders as I stared at him. He got up and walked up to me.

He slammed the door shut and I flinched at the impact of the door and the harsh sound. "You don’t have the right to talk to me like that."

"Jax, please just leave me alone. I’ve heard what you have to say. I can come to your room this night. I just need my space right now." I said dismissing him from saying anything. I glanced over at the bed and his eyes followed mine with a frown on his face.

"What are you hiding?" He asked as he turned back to look at me.

"Nothing, please just leave me alone." I begged but he walked towards the bed. He knelt down and peeked underneath the bed. "Jax, there’s nothing there." I called immediately and he stood up. I released the breath lodged in my throat. "I just want to get back in bed. I’m tired."

"Have you been sleeping with someone else?" He asked me and I frowned. Why would he think that? Did he see the tests? I prayed he didn’t.

"Please don’t insult me." I said and he looked over at me, this time eyeing me up.

"You look like you just had sex." He said and I rolled my eyes. I looked like a mess. My hair was all over the place, there were tear stains on my cheek, my nose was red and maybe my eyes were too. There was no way he would think I looked like I just had sex.

"Jax, there is no reason for you to be here anymore. Just leave me alone. I’m so tired of all of this. We are not friends. We are not in a relationship anymore. The coronation will take place and I’ll give birth to your child and that is it." I explained to him and he nodded. That was exactly what he wanted from me. I always knew us mating was fully for his benefit but I didn’t know I would be used like a sponge or a rag. I would give and not receive anything.

"You’re smarter than I thought." He said as he walked towards the door. I held it open and he walked out. I felt a lump in my throat as I closed the door behind him.

My heart was breaking all over again.