The No.1 Undercover in the Immortal World-Chapter 180: Your Heart Is In Turmoil (5th Update)
Practitioners of the Way view life and death with both great importance and great casualness.
This contradictory sentiment is almost universal among cultivators.
The initial motivation for most to begin cultivation is the hope for eternal life.
Many cultivators can achieve longevity, but none can achieve true immortality.
Therefore, after enduring the long passage of time and growing accustomed to the world’s joys and sorrows, its meetings and partings, most cultivators gradually come to view life and death with detachment.
If possible, nobody wishes to die, but if death is inevitable, cultivators do not fear it.
"You will remember me, won’t you?"
Lin Yu echoed the words of the Flower Fairy, who immediately put on a look of deep resentment.
"You can’t bear to see Lin Yun heartbroken, but you can bear to see me heartbroken?"
"Of course not, I just know that among all those I have met, only your dedication to the path is most steadfast. You will remember me, and you will be sad for a while, but you will certainly continue to firmly follow your own path."
"You are wrong, if you die, I won’t be sad at all."
The Flower Fairy said haughtily, and Lin Yu couldn’t help but pinch her face, leading to a playful scuffle between them.
As the night fell, the Flower Fairy and Lin Yu lay down side by side, seemingly with endless conversations.
Thunder occasionally flashed across the night sky of Purple Cloud Mountain.
Fang Yu stood in the courtyard, looking at the familiar scenery with complex emotions.
After stepping out from Purple Cloud Cave, she shut her doors and secluded herself to adjust her state of mind.
As an Upper Realm Cultivator, she had noticed something unusual about herself.
Cultivators are expected to clear their minds of desires. Although she had a quick temper, she usually practiced abstinence. Now, she could restrain even her anger, let alone lust.
Besides, Lin Yun was her disciple; it was completely impossible for her to have inappropriate thoughts about him.
Yet, the reality was extremely unreasonable.
Eventually, Fang Yu had a realization.
Lin Yun was her tribulation.
Even at her level, she was not exempt from undergoing tribulations, and to reclaim her Heavenly Soul from the birth star, she naturally had to face numerous trials.
On the path of cultivation, one might encounter killing tribulations, heart tribulations, destiny tribulations, and all sorts of other trials. What Fang Yu feared most was the tribulation of the heart.
This was also what her master used to say while alive—that she was an excellent cultivator but too attached to her emotions, which was a fatal flaw.
At the time, she did not agree. Shouldn’t being loyal and caring be seen as virtues? How could they be her flaws?
Her master then asked her, "If, to pass the trial of emotion, you must personally kill a loved one, what would you choose?"
"To kill others for personal gain is not the way of the Righteous Path."
"But if you do not undergo the tribulation, your cultivation will not progress. If there were a great disaster in the Mortal Realm requiring sufficient cultivation to address, and by killing one person, you could save countless lives, what choice would you make?"
This question once made Fang Yu’s scalp tingle.
The Shenxiao Sect took it upon itself to protect the world, and she was raised on these values. But to harm an innocent person violated the moral code, not to mention if that person was her beloved.
Back then, Fang Yu did not understand love. The mere choice, in terms of right and wrong, left her deeply troubled, so much that she evasively said, "If I simply never fall in love with anyone, then I won’t have to face the tribulation of the heart, right?"
Such a clever resolution.
But her master just laughed.
"In this world, the more you try to escape something, the less you’re able to avoid it. Destiny is there, and one day, you will have to make your choice."
Reflecting on those words from back then, Fang Yu’s mood grew even heavier.
Destiny, had her master already foreseen her destiny at that time?
Over the years, Fang Yu had always been diligently cultivating herself, precisely to be prepared for today.
Yet, she had let her guard down with a single kiss from Lin Yun, though it was partly because he had touched her inappropriately, she should have been angry. Why couldn’t she get Lin Yun’s image out of her head? 𝙛𝒓𝒆𝙚𝒘𝒆𝓫𝙣𝓸𝙫𝓮𝒍.𝒄𝒐𝓶
Realizing she might be facing Heart Tribulation, Fang Yu was already panicked and anxious. Thinking back to her master’s words from before, her heart felt even heavier.
Everything seemed to be moving towards the direction of the prophecy. Now, the Mortal Realm was undergoing a great calamity, and if what her master said was true, to save more people, she must kill her beloved...
Fang Yu’s mind was once again flooded with all the moments she had shared with Lin Yun since they met.
"I wish I had a master as good as you."
"The disciple simply wants to live."
"If I do achieve success in my cultivation, then there are four things I want to do."
"Because Master is beautiful."
"The disciple knows her fault, yet has no regrets."
Each word Lin Yun had said echoed in her mind, recalling the way he looked at her with respect and admiration, that slightly bashful and shy manner, sent another wave of emotion through Fang Yu.
"Why does it have to be you..."
Fang Yu even thought, if only her Heart Tribulation did not involve Lin Yun, maybe she wouldn’t be so tormented.
But then, she thought that she was actually considering killing someone who wasn’t Lin Yun to overcome her tribulation, which clearly went against her principles.
"Sect Master?"
Fang Yu’s mind was in a mess when she suddenly heard someone calling her. She turned her head to see that it was Hu Yuling.
"Elder Hu? What brings you here so late?"
"I will be going to Yu Ling Sect early tomorrow, and there are some matters I want to discuss with the Sect Master."
Fang Yu nodded, "Then come in with me!"
After leading Hu Yuling into the house, Fang Yu sat down and started to brew some tea.
At first, Hu Yuling was quite silent, but when Fang Yu reached for the tea leaves, suddenly said, "Your heart is in turmoil."
Fang Yu’s hand trembled, inadvertently adding too much tea, but she didn’t object, simply handing the teacup to Hu Yuling and saying, "A lot happened today, you must be amused."
"Are you worried about the unrest that Daoist Master Huang Long’s death might cause?"
Fang Yu nodded.
Hu Yuling immediately understood that it was a lie.
Fang Yu, being a person of straightforward character, wasn’t very good at lying. There must be something else that had disturbed Fang Yu’s composure.
Considering Lin Yun’s interest in her, Hu Yuling tentatively asked, "I heard that today you punished your nephew apprentice Lin Yun to reflect on his mistakes, what did he do wrong?"
Fang Yu’s hand shook again, she feigned calm and replied, "I saw that he was unruly and his Dao heart was not firm, so I sent him to reflect upon himself."
Hu Yuling knew in her heart, seeing Fang Yu’s response, Lin Yun must have been exceptionally "unruly."
The story was becoming interesting.
Thinking of how Lin Yun had tricked her before and now that he seemed to have seen through the trap of being sent down the mountain, an opportunity had indeed arisen.
"I think he is still young, it’s normal for his Dao heart not to be firm. Don’t be too harsh on him, as the saying goes, it is better to travel ten thousand miles than to read ten thousand books. Being sheltered will not do, perhaps it’s better to send him down the mountain for some experience?"
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