This Life, I Will Be the Protagonist-Chapter 1137 Divine Game: Quiet Mountain 20
Quiet Mountain Year 6786, Month 14, Day 2
They have always been curious about what my nightmare is.
They say there is no pattern, that after all these years they still cannot understand it.
How am I supposed to explain it?
Perhaps it is that whatever I want, I cannot get. Whatever I want to do, I cannot accomplish. I am forever forced to settle for second best, forever manipulated by the Demon Game.
I often question the version of myself in the mirror. Do you still belong to yourself?
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Quiet Mountain Year 6787, Month 13, Day 20
So gods and demons really do exist outside the Demon Game.
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Quiet Mountain Year 6788, Month 1, Day 7
Among demons there are Oak Owls, Vineborne, and elves.
How do they view our pain?
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Quiet Mountain Year 6789, Month 11, Day 19
Frost Deer guessed my nightmare. She asked why I am always so calm.
I told her that any form of pain is a reward granted to the observer.
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Quiet Mountain Year 6790, Month 15, Day 16
I have not comprehended a god level skill from pain for a very long time.
I heard other Apostles are the same.
But honestly, being able to stay sane is already impressive. Why ask for god level skills on top of that?
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Quiet Mountain Year 6792, Month 4, Day 20
So long. So boring. So painful.
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Quiet Mountain Year 6793, Month 14, Day 10
Can we get something new for once?
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Quiet Mountain Year 6794, Month 16, Day 21
Winterveil. Mistblade brought something called mahjong.
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Quiet Mountain Year 6795, Month 1, Day 20
This is all Mistblade’s fault. We played mahjong for almost twenty one days straight. Frost Deer, Mojie, and I nearly missed the Demon Game.
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Quiet Mountain Year 6795, Month 15, Day 11
Mahjong is ten thousand times more fun than the Demon Game.
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Quiet Mountain Year 6795, Month 16, Day 14
Feels like I can survive one more day in Quiet Mountain only because of mahjong.
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Quiet Mountain Year 6796, Month 2, Day 11
Mistblade does not understand mahjong at all.
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Quiet Mountain Year 6796, Month 3, Day 14
I heard a new Apostle has arrived in the Demon Game.
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Quiet Mountain Year 6796, Month 3, Day 16
Frost Deer, Mojie, and I taught her how to play mahjong. She actually teared up and said we were really nice.
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Quiet Mountain Year 6796, Month 5, Day 3
They all discovered my secret.
Why is it that I can no longer perceive pain, yet the Demon Game has not increased my difficulty as a roundabout execution?
I set a rule. Whoever deals me a direct hit one hundred times at the mahjong table, I will tell them this secret.
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Quiet Mountain Year 6796, Month 6, Day 20
I am tired of playing.
I told them that I can store all the pain I perceive mentally into my owl feathers, converting it into physical pain. On a daily basis, it stimulates and reforges my body, increasing my strength and constitution. When I need it, those feathers can also erupt with tremendous destructive power.
Perhaps the Demon Game does not actually care whether we suffer. What it wants is for us to keep growing stronger.
It just happens to believe that pain is the source of power.
So anyone who cannot gain strength from pain is, to it, useless trash that should lose the right to grow.
Psychotic.
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Quiet Mountain Year 6796, Month 7, Day 9
QM Rita.
So strange.
Every time, whether it is my optional tasks or something I personally want to accomplish, it always gets derailed by other Apostles or simulated players.
But ever since she appeared, whenever we enter a game at the same time, the key factor leading to my failure is always her.
And whenever we participate together, I almost always receive a forced task to betray her.
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Quiet Mountain Year 6796, Month 8, Day 21
Should I praise her sharpness, or her excessive attention toward me?
She actually guessed my nightmare.
Of course, it might also be because she plays the Demon Game too often. Every time I enter, she is already there.
Or perhaps... she noticed it too, right?
She always ends up causing my failure by coincidence, and I always have to betray her at the critical moment.
It is as if we are a pair of destined rivals.
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Quiet Mountain Year 6796, Month 10, Day 2
She said I am like a character in a role playing game.
I asked what she meant.
She said someone is holding a controller, and the person holding it decides how this game is played.
She is so annoying.
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Quiet Mountain Year 6796, Month 15, Day 2
When she lifted Mistblade’s chin with her sword tip and told her, "You should cry," she looked at me.
Was she provoking me?
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Quiet Mountain Year 6797, Month 1, Day 18
To survive the Demon Game, the best way is to turn yourself into a demon.
She discovered this secret.
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Quiet Mountain Year 6797, Month 2, Day 1
Unforgivable.
She actually used a time skill to play mahjong!!!
A crime beyond redemption!
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Quiet Mountain Year 6797, Month 3, Day 9
Frost Deer and I decided to kill QM Rita.
For the purity and sanctity of mahjong!
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Quiet Mountain Year 6797, Month 4, Day 1
Mojie joined our plan.
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Quiet Mountain Year 6797, Month 5, Day 13
Mistblade and Cicada dragged me into swearing to kill QM Rita together.
It was only when I got home to play mahjong that I remembered I already had a team.
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Quiet Mountain Year 6797, Month 5, Day 20
Kessa asked to join the plan on her own initiative.
Because QM Rita stole the demon relic she had never managed to awaken.
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Quiet Mountain Year 6797, Month 7, Day 2
JE joined as well.
Such a childish way to form a grudge.
He and QM Rita argued. No matter what he said, she always replied, "My pain is greater than yours."
I do not understand it, but it is definitely infuriating.
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Quiet Mountain Year 6797, Month 9, Day 6
With my covert matchmaking, Mistblade finally discovered the Kill QM Rita Alliance on Frost Deer, Mojie, Kessa, and JE’s side.
The two alliances merged.
I no longer have to run between both sides.
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Quiet Mountain Year 6797, Month 12, Day 5
Twenty eight SSS tier survival skills. Five escape type god level skills.
The only way QM Rita might die is of old age.
Fortunately, Oak Owls are long lived. I plan to outlive her.
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Quiet Mountain Year 6797, Month 13, Day 4
I drew the betrayal task again.
I do not understand. If betrayal is already known in advance, does it still count as betrayal?
Probably yes. Maybe the Demon Game just enjoys making her feel like there is no being in all of Quiet Mountain she can trust.
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Quiet Mountain Year 6797, Month 16, Day 19
She came knocking today to settle accounts. She asked if I had anything to say about betraying her so many times.
Seventeenth tier and already this arrogant?
She left with a bruised and battered face.
I am fine. I am okay. No big issue. Everything is under control.
Mistblade is right. The Demon Game really should enable an anti addiction system for her.
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Quiet Mountain Year 6798, Month 1, Day 1
"Who is the most hated player among the Apostles?"
QM Rita received nine votes.
Was I the only one who did not vote for her?
