Use Me Like A Drug (omegaverse bl)-Chapter 206: Can’t feel it...

Yujun’s POV

The fight outside is intense, I can hear every grunt, every blow being landed and every painful noise as body hits floor.

I remain standing at the door, heart caught in my throat as I am frozen with my hand at the handle.

Jaehyun can handle it...right? My heart is still racing for him, and I can feel the pure rage of his alpha, it’s silent but killing at the same time, like the rage of a king.

I shudder as another wave of pain gets to me through the bond, one part of me wants to yank the door open and fight with him against the mad doctor, but another part of me is worried for our pup.

The groan that rips through my throat is as a result of the confusing mix of pains, a tight and dull pull in my head and a strong throbbing in my heart.

Chan and Jaehyun. Two alphas, one is born alpha, and the other is one of the strongest alphas I have ever come across.

I bend my knees and head as nausea rises in my throat and I force myself to swallow it down, it feels painful and hard to be here like this, every noise and hit hurts like hell.

"Please..." I whisper, I don’t even know what for, maybe I’m begging the moon goddess to be kind to me, to show me some sort of kindness...to make Chan leave us alone.

The door swings opens, and I get up to my feet so fast that the world tilts on its axis. Is it over yet?

As my blurred sight clears, I find Chan standing at the door, his chest is rising and falling with every breath he takes and his body is covered in blood, his white shirt has a hole on the shoulder, and I can see the freshly healed injury right there.

No.

I step forward before I can argue or say anything, the alpha looks angry, I have never seen this look on him before as he is always wearing a soft look and smile.

Always the actor, always good at pretending to be who he is not, I shake my head in rejection of my own actions, but my legs keep moving and my omega keeps howling in rage.

’We don’t want this, we don’t want him...’ my omega says in rebellion even as he is forced to take a bowing position.

"Don’t be sacred" Chan says, his face melting from angry to relaxed and soft, his lying face and I growl at him, "why are you doing this?" I ask him in frustration, and he sighs tiredly as he meets me halfway.

"Doing what? Loving you? protecting you?" he asks and I hiss at him, growling protectively the closer he gets to me.

"I’m not a bad person" he whispers as he stands directly in front of me, he locks his warm brown eyes with mine and if I didn’t know better...I would have sworn he is being honest.

"You’re right...you are not a bad person, you are worse" I spit at him, and he turns his head to the side, his eyes don’t change, his scent doesn’t spike...as always, he remains in control.

"I saved you from suicide" he says..

"I didn’t ask you to" I snap at him.

"I saved you from your family" he says, softer this time.

"I didn’t ask you to!"

"Can’t you see, I’m good for you! I’m better for you than anyone else" he says, face turning desperate as he holds my arms.

"I can...I can smell your pup, I can tell you how your pup is doing" he says and rubs his hands up my arms, eliciting a gag of irritation from me, "get the fuck off me" I say.

I want to land a punch on his already broken nose and ruin his already stained shirt, but I can’t move, my body feels like they belong to him and whatever words he would say next.

"FUCK" Jaehyun’s voice comes from outside and my omega whimpers as I wince from the pain, "let’s go home now" he says to me and I shake my head again, it’s the only action I can do.

He turns around and leaves for the door, I forcefully plant my feet in the floor but it’s not effective, nothing can save me from Chan...nothing can save me...

I follow him outside and I see Jaehyun on the floor, the alpha is clawing at his chest and his throat, crying out in pain as he bends on the floor.

"What did you do to him?" I whisper to Chan, scared for myself and for my alpha, it’s terrifying the way he is struggling to breathe, "what did you do to him?" I yell but Chan ignores me as he walks to the door of his car and opens it for me to get in.

"Get in Yujun-ssi" he says and I try to break out of the alpha voice control.

Jaehyun’s shouts get more panicked and his breathing gets harder, he looks like he’s locked in a burning room, I want to get out of this and help Jaehyun.

"Jaehyun" I call his name, but he doesn’t respond, he’s too busy fighting invisible enemies, too busy in his own head, in the trap that Chan put him in.

"Yujun, get in" he says and I get into the car, he shuts the door and slides into the driver side.

"You’d see that I care about you" he says and I sob quietly, I don’t want to cry in front of this monster, I don’t want to fall apart in front of this beast.

"You’ll see, you’ll see soon, I promise" he says as he starts the car, he looks like he’s being sorry for me, like he’s not the one making my life hell right now...what did I do to deserve this?

"Chan. I’m begging you...let us go" I say and he steps on the gas, making my entire body lurch forward, "you’re acting like I’ve only ever been a bad guy" Chan says in a soft voice,, keeping his hands on the wheel, as his face is forward.

"Aren’t you?" I ask.

"Haven’t you? you took me away from my family" I hiss at him, "I saved you from your abusers!" he yells, breaking character and making me growl back at him in anger.

"You are a worse abuser than them" I snarl at him and his knucks turn white with how hard he is gripping the wheels, I smell his scent getting stronger with his rage, "I never hit you" he says.

"I never hit you; I never locked you up, I never gave you to be used as a fancy fleshlight for business gains" he says and I wince at the crude words.

"Your pack of monsters came to me!" I yell back at him, and he turns his head to look at me, "what did you say?" he asks, "didn’t you send your bastard dog? Huh?" I yell, fighting to open the door and his eye lids twitch.

"Kang Sihyuk...he came for you?" he asks and a chill falls over me at the way his eyes turn pure gold, "ask him yourself, let me go!" I hiss, fighting to unlock the door.

"Sihyuk came for you..." Chan says and I reach to unlock the door on his side, the act is careless and Chan loses his hold of the car as it swerves out of control, I push at my door and it doesn’t open still.

"Hell!" Chan yells as he gets the car back on track and hits the brake to bring us to a hard stop, I push my door one more time and jump out of the car.

I haven’t run three steps before the born alpha grabs my body and holds me to himself.

"Yujun, why are you acting this way?" he asks and I let out a pained scream through my teeth, the pain is getting unbearable.

"My mate!" I yell in his face and the alpha forces me to stay, "make him stop hurting!" I yell and thrash around, "your pup can be hurt if you keep acting this way" he says in my ear.

"Make him stop hurting! It’s too much" I sob and Chan growls in his chest.

"Kang Chan!" I yell, "make it stop, I’ll do whatever you want" I say and the alpha’s sigh follows, "Yujun, my beautiful Yujun...you will do what I want anyway" he says and I feel a flash of strength as I jab him in the rib.

"You’re going to kill him!" I yell and suddenly, all the pain I have been feeling through our bond goes silent and I can’t feel a thing.

I stop for a second.

Is this the bond thing? Is this how it goes silent?

"Why..." I start to talk but nothing comes out.

"Why can’t I feel him?" I ask in a broken whisper...

Why can’t I feel my mate anymore?