Use Me Like A Drug (omegaverse bl)-Chapter 214: Do not grieve

Lord Hwang’s POV

I kiss my husband’s cracked lips as soon as we get home to silence the pain.

The weight of being Lord is heavier on days like these, I can’t mourn with him in this sacred moment, as a leader of one of the most attacked packs, my guards are to be constantly held up.

The circles I have seen in the last thirty years of ruling tell me; news of a dead son might lead to the news of dead clan, and I can’t permit it.

I still have children in the pack that haven’t lived their dreams, parents that haven’t enjoyed the joy of having a grown child and young lovers who haven’t reached the fullest of their bond.

Mourning will never be in the option for me, and my husband has been holding himself up a bit too strongly for the clan and I want to ease him up a bit, it kills me to see my love hurt like this, but this is for a greater cause.

If newness must come, sacrifices have to be made, things have to be displaced and as much as it hurts me to admit to it.

The kiss we share is achingly slow and soft, I give my alpha the free rein to touch his Luna through our bond, and I pull back to see his eyes, they are still shining with tears.

Even at this age, he remains the most elegant man I have seen, I will die a hundred deaths if it means I would be with him again.

"I’m sorry my love, forgive me" I say and he squeezes his eyes shut as the corner of his lips droop slightly, he is about to cry.

I haven’t seen him cry in a very long time, I wipe the tear that slips through his lid and he sniffles softly, the heart break of a mother is crushing.

Years of oneness with him never prepared me for the tightness I feel in my chest or for the way his tears are eating me up. The last time I saw him cry was when the little girl was raped and killed by the Kangs carelessly, he was crushed but not like this.

I take him to bed and take off his clothes one by one to help him get ready for bed.

A knock on the door makes me growl as my head snaps up and I go to open it, "what?" I ask carefully, voice leveled to not upset my luna.

"The elders want to send their condolences" the young man at the door, Jisung’s new love interest, says and I already know what to expect, this will be weeding out of the remaining rebels and make my pack a sanctuary again.

"Tell them to wait" I say and the young one bows to me before leaving, "and" I say, making the man pauses in his tracks with his head bowed.

"Ask Jisung to ready my gun, we have a cleansing to attend to" I say and he nods again before leaving. Young, passionate and loyal to my family.

I go back into my husband, and I meet him folded on the bed, his face wet with fresh tears and I take off my cloth to slide in with him, his body is warm to my touch as I nuzzle his neck.

"I’m sorry my luna" I whisper and he turns around to look at me.

"What happens to Yujun? He can’t be alone in these times" my husband says, always worried about others even though he’s in pain, he is the most perfect luna there will ever be for me.

"I will take care of him, I promise my love, forgive me" I repeat myself, never too ashamed to beg his mercy, he leans in closer to me and shudders as he cries more.

I rub my hand up and down his back till he falls asleep from exhaustion and from inhaling my comforting pheromones.

Once he is asleep, I get up and put on my clothes, the dark suit that frames my tall build perfectly.

My eyes are already red with silent rage, alpha calmly positioned to take out betrayers, poised and claws drawn.

My right-hand man is at the door waiting for me with his lover, the young boy who came looking for me, next to him.

I walk past them without looking and go into the silent room where my inner council men are seated waiting for me.

The hush is reverent as I take my seat and Jisung stands by my side, hunting gun in hand and face straight.

"Speak" I say and the first elder comes out.

"My lord, we as a council are sending our deep condolences for the loss of our heir" the first elder who stood up to speak says, and I nod in acknowledgement, waiting for him to speak evil but he doesn’t.

The next man stands up.

"The death of an heir is something painful in every clan, there is no exception, we loved Jaehyun as if he was our own son" he says and gives a deep bow in respect.

Without waiting for approval, another stands up, "although he’s dead and it is sad, this shows that karma is real" he says and Jisung growls lowly.

"The death of elder Ki shocked this clan, but no one did anything, especially when he died in the hand of our own ruler to be" he continues and another elder gets up to counter him up, "your opinion is uncalled for, our heir is deserving of honor even in his death"

"Well yes, he does but this the truth" another alpha says, he is one of the few ones I brought out of oppression in their old packs.

"This is a pack built on freedom, Jaehyun is- was a risky heir, and the way he kept wanting to murder someone? That is barbaric" he says.

"Do you know that he’s my son and there is a saying that goes...like father like son" I speak for the first time, and I watch the horror flash on their faces as they realize what I mean.

"Jisung" I say and hold out my hand, the cold shot gun in placed in my hand and I aim at their heads one by one.

The headline might read; calm Lord of Hwang clan loses his mind tomorrow but today...today, justice will be served.

The sound of gun firing fills the room loud and clear, wiping out the enemies...after this, on to the next plan, to the chained man in my warehouse.