Use Me Like A Drug (omegaverse bl)-Chapter 223: Choose not violence.

Jaehyun’s POV

I hear footsteps approaching and I don’t look up at first, my alpha is already taking control of me...why do I smell ocean?

The smell of the peaceful ocean grows stronger with every step, and I finally lift my eyes, it’s the man I need to kill the most that is standing there with a wide smile on his face.

His hands are behind his back, giving an illusion of politeness but the blood dripping out of his eye gives a different image.

I growl at him, and he slowly tilts his head to the side and lifts his brow, mocking me. He’s fucking mocking me.

My body prepares to lunge at him before I realize the weight on me, it’s my mate, dying and bleeding out on this fucker’s territory.

I have never felt the urge to kill this strongly before.

’Kill him, hurt him, break him’ my alpha’s bloodthirsty snarls bounce in my head, and I almost take Yujun off me to fight when I feel a hand stopping me.

"Think!" doctor says harshly.

Think? Think about what? Did this fucker think before he came for what’s mine?

"Yujun is still breathing but he’s bleeding, if you put him down to fight, he might die!" doctor says and gives me a slap across my face, my head whips to the side.

My alpha snarls angrily at the hit and I turn my head back to look at him, eyes flashing a murderous red, ’maybe I should start with him.

"FUCK" I yell and force myself to come back to my senses, this is exactly why I was chained for months.

"Let’s go" doctor says, unmoved by my threatening growls and my predatory expression.

"Let’s go" he says again with more force in his voice, and I hiss before lifting Yujun, carrying him like the precious jewel he is while the other alpha stands there.

He isn’t saying anything, but he is wearing a smile of madness and one of his eyes looks like it has been stabbed...I hope my omega did that because I am coming for the second eye soon.

I carry Yujun bridal style into the backseat of the car and sit with him on my lap, his weight on me is warm, it’s familiar...it’s mine.

I feel my throat close up with emotion as the madness slowly fades away, he’s with me again, that’s all that matters.

"Junnah" I say softly and prop him up to press my nose to his neck again, there’s still nothing, no jasmine, no milk.

"Please...my precious, I’m here now" I say as I pet his hair, white and soft under my touch, his face is beautiful but without the liveliness, it hurts to look at him like this.

The doctor drives as quickly as possible but it doesn’t reduce how far away Hwangyeon is from this place, I cradle my mate’s head on my lap, praying to and begging the goddess for his life.

If anything happens to him, I will never be able to forgive myself or anyone else if any harm comes to him,

"His breathing, how is it?" doctor asks without looking back and I bring my ear to his nose to listen to his breathing.

"Shallow, he’s breathing but it’s so light" I say, already afraid of how hard it is to catch the rhythm of his breathing.

"You are so stupid" doctor says and I feel his anger, "the one minute you spend struggling with your sanity could cost Yujun his life, do you see what you were willing to lose?" he scolds and I cover my face with my hand, ashamed of myself.

This only proves them right, chaining me for so long was a good idea.

"And attacking him in his own territory, Jaehyun that was a death sentence you were asking for!"

I growl at the word territory. He had what’s mine in his territory, are there no rules about that too?

"Control your scent, you fool, he will need you even if he’s unconscious" the older man says and I draw a sharp breath, willing to make sure I don’t fail him again.

Doctor doesn’t address me again all through our ride back but he keeps muttering under his breath about reckless alphas of this generation.

Calm and back to his senses, my alpha lays on his belly and whines in pain, regretting the careless action we carried out instead of tending to Yujun first.

I place my hand on his stomach and almost start to cry at how much I have missed out of his pregnancy, his belly is so round, and he looks so big yet so small...do I deserve to be in his life when I’m this much of a mess?

"Jaehyun" doctor calls and my head snaps up, I catch a glimpse of my eyes in the mirror and I see that my eyes are still red.

"Don’t blame yourself for anything, I can hear your whimpers, you saved him and I believe you two will be fine" doctor says and I nod, still holding my mate close to me.

I don’t lift my head from his neck even if it’s only sweat I smell, I just need him to be okay, the car drives into the familiar line of Hwangyeon after almost three hours.

The car reeks of blood and Yujun is pale white, like a person approaching death’s door.

"Prepare the hospital!" doctor yells as he gets out of the hospital and someone takes Yujun from me, I growl at them before I feel a stab of needle in my neck.

Not again.

I turn around to find people looking at me with open mouth and shock...oh, that’s right they thought I was dead.

I grab the neck of the beta that stabbed me with the needle, "Jaehyun, I need you out so that I can work on Yujun, okay?" doctor says to me and one of the nurses that had taken Yujun away returns.

"Doctor, it’s an emergency, we need to deliver the baby now!" he says and I faint into the hand on the beta waiting to catch me.