You Think I Won't Talk?-Chapter 516
’What was I thinking...’ — The crown prince questioned himself while thinking of the dazed eyes of a woman requesting his stay and aid for breathing... even while aware he was supposed to prevent such chances from happening. — ’Telling such a thing... promising that I would make it so we could have time like that even while hiding... It’s simply idiotic... self-destructive...’
— When agreeing to this courtship, all I wanted was to become closer to you... I thought we could spend more time together without as many worries as before. —
"..."
— Your Highness, friendship... was not truly what we ever had... so at least settling this courtship amends such ambiguity... —
"Eff*ng hell..." — *Bang*
"?? What the...?" — More confused at the mumblings of the prince, Biel blinked stupefied as he was not sure of what was going on in the silent man grieving over love matters who had let himself fall on his desk allowing his forehead to hit its surface.
’Having her talk to me and tell these things is not helping my reigns to stay focused much less controlled... all I want is to lose my senses and dive into the sweetness she offers with such pure gaze... and yet...’ — "urgh... I cannot."
"Uh... I think... I think you need some time on your own, mate. I’ll be coming back later..." — Given the indifference the crown prince continued to give his presence, Biel decided to leave Zeleskiaz’s surroundings, who, so lost in thought, did not spare a moment to lose track of his worries at the departure of his friend.
"Cursed fate... I am sure she cannot imagine what a little graze from her hand does to me... kisses she asks and surely I would die simply to give them... but I..."
— Lend myself your cheek my prince... this little graze will have to suffice until your hand may craft another chance for an escape like this. —
"..." — At the recall of a small goodbye his everything shook to the delight in silence the little action instilled. Feeling it as if new while her seductive eyelashes looked at him dearly as his hand was released with a soft caress.
— Until later... Your Highness... —
"Huff... I’m a beast... I cannot keep myself sane when she acts like this... the difference from stealing those lips and now being permitted to have her blessed flesh is abysmal and maddening in comparison...! The way she makes my heart falter... and what is more... my love has yet to even be told fully!! A month of patience I ought to have and yet this first day is already being maddeningly torturous!" — Zeleskiaz held his head desperate to the racing heart that recalled every lovely moment of their afternoon. Feeling as though his hands and mind were numb and useless, as all they could recall was the touch gained as well as the whispers of his love showing shyness, loveliness and innocent allure while with him.
’!! I need to do something... I cannot mess this up... and yet I also cannot bring myself as the true reason behind the caution we need to have...’
"I cannot tell her... that it’s because I love her to the point my lust is dangerous... that I could do the unforgivable if she gives as little an opportunity for me to take it... I cannot let her know how desire is what I suffer the most when she’s this welcoming to my cunning being..."
— Will you come to meet me later? Perhaps we could talk more tonight... I take it you will not cease to visit at night for my voice’s development... —
"..... D*mn it... it is a first to thank someone for interrupting us...!" — Zeleskiaz thought as he recalled the distress of his senses that needed to answer differently from what his heart wished. Thanking the Duke... who he knew was the true reason for him to tell the lady to turn back as he could feel the aura of a father who on purpose was making himself visible to any in the palace. — "Had the Duke not arrived at the Dining hall as we returned... I would have promised I would go every night as usual..."
— ... You have been here since lunch, sweetie. It would be best for you to return to your chambers so you may rest properly. We cannot abuse your health... Isn’t that right... prince? —
’... Her father knew we were not there the whole time.’ — The crown prince accepted closing his eyes ashamed as he could tell in the glare Orland granted upon him once he came back for Marianne. — "Sigh... it’s not only because I love and want to respect her that I need to keep sane... He’s bigger a concern now... He will not allow anything to stain my lady’s honour and it is him I also need to prove myself worthy..."
Drained from energy, aware of what he must do and also of what a heart and a young body wants, Zeleskiaz’s hands supported his lowered head with knowledge of the difficulties ahead...
His hands that ached to do what only marriage allowed felt burning to the acknowledgement of the patience needed after conversing with the parents that showed new sides he was reticent to look at before learning love... and again... his thoughts went back to think of the Lady owning his every sensation, smiling at the reminiscence of the smiles and shy blush she portrayed while her delicate hand held onto his timidly.
"A wonder you are... my love..." — He said in the loneliness of his bureau, intertwining his fingers together in hopes to revive the emotions the graze of their heat allowed. — "I swear... the more I know and see of you... the more entranced I fall into this love..."
As if miraculous, a speck of her scent felt anew in his senses while the words were whispered to praying hands... and a heartbeat made his ultramarine of deeper colour... while determination was grasped again by the man. 𝚏𝗿𝗲𝐞𝚠𝕖𝐛𝗻𝗼𝐯𝕖𝚕.𝚌𝗼𝗺
"I will lose sanity... and it does not matter... I will lose it all as long as I can do things right to assure you by my side, my Lady... I am to lose everything and anything... as long as I win your and love in return..."
