Taesan’s POV

Tick. Tock. Tick. Tock.

Time is a bother.

Killing three men in less than a day hasn’t done anything good to satisfy my thirst for control.

I feel like I’m on a sinking ship, I have the title as captain, but I can’t fucking do anything.

I can’t do anything but want the man I asked to get out of my life, the man who’s parents ended my life before it even started.

The white sheet of paper in front of me has been staring blankly at me.

I should work, I should be fucking working, I still have an empire to rule and a daughter to take care of.

My hand is gripping the pen but it just won’t work, not a line, not even a single curve has worked since I held it.

I just sit there and feel the pain in my neck, it’s eating me up, fuck, it’s burning, but right now it’s the only thing that I can feel and know that I’m still alive.

I’m alive...I’m in control.

The door opens as a wild person barges into my office with a baseball bat and I just stare at him.

His mouth moves as he shouts unintelligible words at me, I can’t make sense of any of them, but he’s irritating.

His pink on pink pajamas and his pink headband, who the fuck let him through my doors?

Why the fuck does he deem himself fit to yell at me?

Those eyes are pissing me off, why are they blue like the omega I kicked out yesterday?

Without a word of reply, I pick up my gun and cock it, pointing it at the stranger and his eyes widen.

When I put my finger on the trigger, Junho pushes himself forward, hiding the pink stranger behind him.

"You’ve gone fucking mad" Junho growls at me, and I keep my finger on the trigger.

I will shoot.

I’m going to teach this person manners and make him realize that there are men you don’t fuck with, and I am one of those men.

I am captain!

"Junho" I growl, my voice hasn’t left this level in hours, it’s low and rough, close to sounding like an animal is speaking.

And I...I’m an animal.

"Get out of my way" I snarl at my righthand man and the man behind him starts to yell again, talking to me and calling me names.

I don’t know who the hell he is, but I know, I just know he’s begging for death at my hand and I will give it to him.

"Are you going to hurt a pregnant omega?" Junho asks, visibly restraining the omega behind him and I drop the gun.

I throw it to the table after putting on the safety, and I let it skid away from me, sliding across the table and stopping at the edge.

"I will not hurt a pregnant omega, but I will not have mercy, I need that person gone" I say and fall back into my seat.

I let the chair carry the weight of me and the weight of me falling under madness again.

Junho lets out a hard sigh and turn around to talk to the omega while I stare at the ceiling.

There’s nothing up there, just like there’s nothing waiting in my bed for me to come home, and just like there will be nothing that will make me fall in love again.

"Look, motherfucker, I know you’re not going to listen to me but Seoha will lose touch with his humanity if he stays in omega space longer" the omega pushes past Junho and slaps his palms against my table.

I don’t interpret what he said but the name...Seoha catches my attention.

My alpha growls protectively and I push him down, reminding him that Seoha means nothing to us, that we don’t want him.

"Omega space?" I ask and the man sighs.

"You put my best friend in omega space, and you’re going to take responsibility for it" he says and tears slide down his face.

He’s crying because...that man is in omega space?

I lean back further in my seat, thinking how long he has until he dies like my mother did.

Mom was shot and even after the shooters left, he was dangling on the edge of life and death, before I could crawl out of my hiding and scream for help...he died with my sister’s name on his tongue.

Seoha is in omega space and so fucking what?

"Are you even listening to me? I said your mate is in omega space! He’s going to-" the omega starts to yell again and I stand up abruptly.

He gasps and stumbles backwards into Junho’s chest, he stares up at me with his mouth open and I growl at him.

"Shut...the...fuck up" I sneer at him and he shakes his head.

"How did someone as pure as Seoha end up with a beast like you? I thought Daeshin was an asshole but you’re worse!" the omega raises his fist to hit me but Junho grabs his hand.

Comparing me to Daeshin has to be the most irritating thing I have ever heard in my fucking life, how dare him?

"Minjae, that’s enough, okay" Junho says when he notices the restrains breaking, and instead of calming down, the omega pushes him off.

"Don’t touch me! You’re also like him, goddess" the pregnant man says and wipes his tears with the back of his sleeve, sniffling to hold back his anger.

"I hope the goddess punishes you" he says and I bark a short cold laughter, taking off my jacket by popping the buttons one by one.

"I don’t believe in the goddess" I says and throw the jacket at them.

I know if Seoha has something of mine to hold on to, his omega will calm down...I don’t care.

Fuck, I don’t want to care, I want to hate him for his parents sins...

"Take that and get out of my office before I end your life" I say and Junho drags the raging omega out.

Leaving me to fall into my seat and feeling empty.

’What about us...what will ease our pain?’ my alpha asks and I shut my eyes.