I never knew that there would be so much sorrow, a bit of sadness, I feel very sorry for everyone who loves me.

"Now you want to talk to me about fair treatment, don’t you think it’s a bit late? Are the things you’ve done worthy of fair treatment from me? You never thought about how expensive daily necessities are, how many people in this world don’t have enough to eat, the world is cruel, many people are running around tirelessly for money, only to choose to leave this world because they can’t earn enough money. You never experienced such a painful life, what makes you say such things?

Because I was sincere to you, when you were with me, I made it possible for your parents to go abroad, to live a life they never dreamed of, are you still not satisfied? All of your parents’ expenses abroad are covered by me alone, when did you ever help me share the burden? Including every penny spent on everything you did in this home, when wasn’t it my money? Did you ever go out and earn money? You just stayed home peacefully taking care of our son, yet you still chose to betray me in the end, how could you be so heartless?

The world is truly fair, since it gave you such a great husband and family, your life is relatively balanced, but I never despised you for being a commoner, I admired you greatly, because your actions made me feel differently. Besides, we have known each other since childhood, I waited for so many years, every word you said to me as a child often comes back to me, do you know? How much I long to return to childhood, when I would definitely bring you back home without hesitation, so you wouldn’t suffer so much.

Perhaps you think I never stood in your shoes to think for you, but do you know since the day we separated as children, every moment I’ve woken from nightmares, each time in my dreams, you’re there reaching out to me, bringing me to a happy haven. Do you know how much I regretted it then, regretting that I left the forest alone without bringing you along? If I had taken you with me then, maybe things wouldn’t have been so tough for you.

Everything I did was only for the happiness of our family, but in your eyes, it’s so worthless, I don’t understand what I need to do to prove clearly to you, I sincerely treat you as my wife, I truly wish to spend my life with you, I don’t want to continue searching for another woman, this life the woman I respect is you, that will never change, but your actions have completely broken my heart, I never expected the woman I love would ultimately hurt me, make me unable to lift my head.

And I still have to suppress things forcefully for the sake of family dignity, do you know how much it hurts while doing these things? You’re my wife, you gave me a green hat, but I can’t voice my grievances, I can only swallow all the tears through silent endurance, have you considered my feelings? If it were another woman, I wouldn’t care so much, but you’re my wife, how can you be so heartless to do these things, how can you so heartlessly hide them from me, leaving me in the dark, making me smile foolishly at you, loving you dearly, do you think I’m very silly? Too foolish to the point where I’m a toy you can casually manipulate?"

Zhang Yichen took a step forward with each word, driving his wife back to the wall, leaving her nowhere to retreat.

"I never felt you’re foolish, on the contrary, I think you’re very financially savvy, so I never dared to play tricks before you, similarly I just wish to live simply before you, I don’t want to live such a complicated life, life already doesn’t have many years, why live a life full of schemes, leaving everyone uneasy every day?

I’m just an ordinary woman, I need my husband’s understanding, trust, and affection, over the years you’ve indeed showered me with love, but do you understand me? Do you trust me? Ultimately you never trusted me, never understood me, you never knew why I acted this way, you want every action of mine only to please you, that’s why you’re generous enough to love me dearly, right?

Every time you spoke to me, I memorized, I felt one day I would warm your heart, though at that time you truly loved me, but later I realized my own actions hurt you, made your heart cold, but I believe sincerity moves mountains, no difficulty is insurmountable, as long as I genuinely stay by your side, one day you will see my goodness, open your heart to me once more, and then I will undoubtedly reveal all my secrets to you, but in the end, did you give me a chance?"

"What you say sounds nice, but opening your heart takes time, and needs more years, does it? As long as you’re willing to open your heart to me, anytime is fine, seems like you have a lot of secrets I don’t know, how much have you concealed from me, can you honestly tell me, don’t treat me as a fool and keep me in the dark, it would be embarrassing, I’d feel like my wife has been using me all along, I don’t know what you’ve hidden from me, don’t use flowery words to soothe me, please prove with your actions, truly treat me as your husband, not just talk, can you?

Everyone can say nice words, but how difficult it is to do something, especially proving this to your husband, with no mistakes whatsoever, you want me to trust you, then please use your actions to tell me, that all you did have nothing to do with you, everything that happened you knew nothing about, if you can prove that, then I swear I will let you live a good life, never suspecting you again!"

Maybe I’ve grown numb, unable to feel your deep love for me.