My Kaiju Parasite Revived Me, But a Yandere Bought My Streaming Rights
Chapter 155: The Hollow
Caleb asked Kim to set it up the morning after the basement.
[Hacker]: You want to talk to Theo.
"I held the silver steady yesterday and I felt the eleven reach back. He’s the only one who’s on the far side of that and still talking. I need to know what I felt."
[Hacker]: He is hard to move. He is the size of a man made of slate, he is hunted, and he does not fit in a car. But he has wanted to talk to you for a while. I will arrange it.
[Hacker]: Tonight. You go alone. You do not tell your father. Marcus has feelings about Theo that would get in the way, and Theo knows it, and it hurts him, so we keep it simple.
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The place was a shuttered cold-storage warehouse two sectors east, a building the city forgot to demolish. Kim’s people had the block. Caleb went in through a loading door that someone had left unlocked for him.
Theo was waiting in the dark at the back, where the freezers used to run.
Caleb had seen him once before, from a distance, during the containment. Up close was different.
He was the height of a man, and shaped like one, slate where skin should be. Under the slate of his forearms and his face there were silver lines, the same silver Caleb carried, lit faint from the inside. The face was mostly Theo’s. Mostly.
"Mercer," Theo said.
The voice came in two. A man’s voice, tired, with a working accent like Caleb’s own. And under it, lower, a second thing that wasn’t a voice at all, more like the warehouse itself had decided to speak. The two were almost in time with each other. Almost.
"Theo." Caleb stopped a few feet off. "Thanks for seeing me."
"You felt us," Theo said, and it was not a question. "Yesterday, late afternoon. The ten felt something open up and lean toward them, and then close. That was you."
"That was me."
Theo nodded, slow, the slate of his neck shifting. "They didn’t know what to make of it. Neither did I, at first. Then I did." He tilted his head. "You’re the twelfth, aren’t you. Or you’re turning into it. The thing the other eleven are pieces of."
Caleb’s mouth went dry.
"I don’t know what I am," he said. "That’s why I’m here."
"Sit. You’re going to want to be sitting."
There was an overturned crate. Caleb sat on it.
"I’ll tell you what I know," Theo said, "and then I’ll tell you the thing nobody else will, because nobody else has stood where I’m standing."
He lowered himself against the wall, the slate grinding.
"I went to work one morning. There was a leak. I don’t remember dying. I remember a cold that went on a long time, and then a thing in the cold that started asking me questions."
"The four exits."
"The four. It asked, and I answered, and I chose the last one. The one your father hates." A pause.
"I merged. I let the thing and what was left of me become one thing. Everybody who knows your father’s doctrine will tell you that’s the door where the person dies. That the merged are just kaiju wearing a memory."
"Are they wrong?"
Theo was quiet a moment. The silver under his face pulsed, once.
"Look at me, Mercer. Really look. I remember my kids’ birthdays. I remember Mary hates cilantro and sleeps on the left. I remember the exact weight of my daughter falling asleep on my chest." The man’s voice cracked under the other one.
"I am Theo. I am also the Hollow. Both are true at once, and neither one ate the other."
"So no. They are not all wrong. But they are not all right either. And that is the thing I needed you to hear from someone, before you decide what you are."
Caleb sat with that.
"Everybody keeps telling me what I’m becoming is going to eat me," he said. "Marek said it. Aldric said it. The thing that owns my feed told me to stop before I burned out. They all talk like the silver and me are two things and one of us has to win."
"Marek’s was forced into him. He never chose it, so it was always at war with him. And a thing at war with you for twenty years will win." Theo said it gently, the gentleness strange coming through the slate.
"Yours you chose. On day eight, before you understood it, you chose it. That changes everything."
"A thing you invited in doesn’t have to be the thing that empties you out. It can be the thing that fills the empty up instead." The lower voice rose under the words.
"I am proof. I am a man and a piece of a god welded together on purpose, and I still set the bowl down. As your brother would say."
Caleb looked up sharply. "How do you know what my brother says."
"I hear a lot, from in here." A sound that might have been a laugh. "The ten talk. And the ten have started talking about you, Mercer. That’s the part you came for, so here it is."
He leaned forward.
"They know there’s a twelfth thing waking up in the city. They felt you reach."
"Some are glad. Eleven pieces have spent a long time incomplete, and a long time hunted, and a twelfth means the set is near whole. And some are afraid, because the last time the set was whole, the thing it added up to was bad enough that people sealed it under a city and burned the maps."
The silver flared along his arms.
"You’re being welcomed and feared by the same eleven voices, and you don’t get to pick which. That’s what you felt. That’s what’s leaning toward you in the dark."
"And the petition," Caleb said. "Three days. If the magistrate grants it, they crate the eleven. Without the asking."
"I know." The two voices went flat together. "We all know. An asset doesn’t get asked."
"They put us in boxes and ship us to whoever holds the paper, and we stay awake in the dark forever, never offered a door, because the door is a courtesy and you don’t extend courtesy to property."
He looked at Caleb.
"Your father spent forty-six years making sure the taken got asked. The petition undoes all of it in an afternoon. And it does it to you too, the day they decide a twelfth thing counts as recoverable."
"So we stop the petition."
"You’d better." Theo stood, the slate sliding. "Because here’s the last thing, the thing nobody will say."
"The eleven have been incomplete and asleep and contained for a hundred years. That was survivable. A twelfth thing, awake, walking around a city, learning to hold itself steady in a basement?" The lower voice filled the warehouse.
"That’s not the edge of the board anymore, Mercer. Marek told you the eleven are the edge of the board. You’re not the edge. You’re the piece that finishes the game, one way or the other."
"And everybody who knows what you are is about to start fighting over which way."
Caleb stood too. His heart was going and the silver was warm and leaning, here, toward the man of slate in front of him, kin to kin.
"Then I’d better learn fast," he said.
"You’d better learn right." Theo’s man-voice came back up over the other one, just for a second, tired and human and kind.
"Go home. Hold the bowl. Stay the part of you that keeps setting it down. Whatever else you become, stay that, and you’ll be all right. And so will everybody you’d have crated."
He moved back into the dark of the dead freezers.
"Tell your father I’m not angry he can’t look at me. Tell him I understand. And tell him his doctrine is the best thing any of these people will ever be offered, and he should fight like hell to keep them able to be offered it."
Caleb went out the loading door into the night with three days on the clock, a man of slate at his back who had stayed himself through the worst door there was, and the silver under his ribs warm and certain, and for once not something to be afraid of.