Return to the Day When My Pregnant Wife Jumped Off the Building-Chapter 437: Surpassing Everything_1

"I would go mad, and I would take revenge for you in the most brutal and cruel way I could think of!"

Xiao Ming calmly responded, or rather elucidated, "Then I would go to prison, and in the midst of scoundrels, I would strive to learn all the means of survival I could, transforming into a complete bastard.

Shameless, unprincipled, stooping to any level to achieve my aims, stopping at nothing except willingly harming good people.

I would indulge in luxury and debauchery, enjoying riches and honor while desperately searching for thrills and danger to fill the void inside of me.

In the end, I would bring about my own demise.

Without relatives or a lover, I would die as lonely as a stray dog."

Jiang Xue’s eyes reddened but she smiled reproachfully, "You’re just trying to humor me. I’m alive and well, and you’ve surrounded yourself with so many women, how could you possibly be lonely?"

Xiao Ming shook his head: "Without you, this world would just be a game I could abandon at any time, utterly meaningless."

Jiang Xue looked directly into his eyes for a while before leaning into his embrace.

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The mature face of Zhou Qingyuan ten years later appeared before Xiao Ming’s eyes as he said, "Someone like me would not deserve happiness, nor would I be able to offer it to anyone else.

So liking is just liking, any substantial actions would only harm others."

"Would you meet Ding Jianwei again?"

"No."

"It sounds like your life would be so tragic without me!"

"That is both inevitable and unquestionable."

"But you don’t seem to cherish it at all." Jiang Xue lifted her face, her expression not overly sad, but her gaze scrutinized him, "Do you think that because I’m pregnant, I can’t leave you?"

Xiao Ming tightened his arms around his wife and after a moment of silence, said, "You have already heard the story from Ding Jianwei’s perspective, now I want to tell you what happened on my side, okay?"

Jiang Xue did not make a sound, but the arm hugging him squeezed tighter.

"Ding Jianwei’s initial impression on me was that of a typical consequentialist. To solve cases and punish the main culprits, she didn’t mind at all whether the process was regular and legal.

That was to my taste, and it’s also why I could extricate myself from the case of Cao Bangxi’s death.

Oh right, Cao Bangxi was killed by my design. I’ll tell you the details when you want to know more.

I met Ding Jianwei again on the gambling boat, her lone wolf-like readiness to embrace death touched me deeply.

Only then did I realize that she was merely unscrupulous about small matters, but possessed a courage and responsibility in the face of justice that was unrivaled, and we were not at all alike.

I respected her and could not stand by and watch her die, so I somewhat reluctantly accepted her plea for help.

It was also because of that incident that I discovered a very frightening fact—regarding places like the gambling boat, which are beyond the reach of the law, my heart not only lacked the slightest aversion but actually felt great pleasure and enjoyment.

Unconsciously, my methods became dark and cruel, even finding joy in toying with other people’s lives.

I thought leaving the gambling boat would improve the situation.

But after receiving Mengmeng’s distress call, the surging desire to kill and vent inside me told me that I am fundamentally a bastard who refuses to abide by rules and be content with my lot in life.

If it weren’t for you, none of it would matter, but the reality is I can’t be without you, and our child is about to be born; I can’t let the situation worsen.

So, I took the initiative to bring up the possibility of being an ’informant’ to Ding Jianwei, and she, always wanting to recruit me into the organization, immediately took the bait.

She thinks she is using me, little does she know, I am also using her, seeing her as a shackle, a Sword of Damocles suspended over my head, constantly alerting and restraining my desires.

Later on, I met Ye Jin’an and learned about my mother’s family history and her grudges.

Although I initially refused vehemently, I couldn’t lie to myself, I was furious and wanted the people who hurt my mother torn to pieces.

At the same time, I couldn’t do it, at least not just based on hatred and passion.

Because I have no right to drag you and the child, innocent, into this.

I needed to be calm, to restrain myself. Thus, without realizing it, Ding Jianwei’s importance in my heart steadily grew heavier and heavier.

Of course, all of these were subconscious actions, before going to Qingyang, I still believed I was loyal to you, until I met her again and was kissed by her.

I wasn’t angry, didn’t get a headache, and didn’t find it bothersome, only filled with joy; that’s when I suddenly realized."

At this point, Xiao Ming took a deep breath and slowly exhaled, kissing Jiang Xue’s head.

"I’ve said so much not to make excuses for myself, nor to suggest that what happened between us was an unforeseen fluke, but to hope you still believe: you mean everything to me!"

"What if I want you to leave her and never see her again?" Jiang Xue asked.

Xiao Ming hesitated for a few seconds, then nodded, "Okay! Give me some time to get rid of the trouble I’m dealing with.

After that, I will just be an ordinary businessman, spending an ordinary and peaceful life with you and our child."

"What about seeking revenge for our mother?"

"Mom didn’t want the grudges of the previous generation to continue, otherwise I wouldn’t have learned about it from Ye Jin’an’s words."

Jiang Xue sat up straight and looked at him with a bright smile, "Silly! You love me, so you don’t want to bring me danger; but I also love you and don’t want you to be unhappy because of regrets!"