The Lycan king-Chapter 30

*Leonora*

Jax had left me in bed for his morning meetings. At least that was what I was able to make out from what he said when I woke up in the morning. It was just me in the room and I didn’t know what else to do. I had sat down and stared at the bed for a few minutes remembering the events of last night. I couldn’t believe I cried- I cried because Jax brought another girl. The same girl he had been sleeping with. I know for the most part it was my wolf.

I don’t know what Jax was doing. One minute he was nice to me then the next minute he’s telling me to move back to the floor. I don’t even know why I laid on his bed in the first place. I guess I was just exhausted and I wanted something comfortable. It’s not fair that the beds at the staff quarters felt like wood whereas Jax’s was like laying on pillows. It truly wasn’t fair.

There was a knock on the door and I went over to open it. Bethany stood there with my box behind her. "Nora, is anything the problem?" She asked me and I gave her a small smile. I ushered her into the room and locked the door behind me. I didn’t want anyone to see me in Jax’s room wearing his shirt. "Oh my, you’re wearing Jax’s shirt. Did you two sleep together."

"Not in a million years. I needed to change and I couldn’t go to get my clothes." I explained as she handed me my box. I quickly dropped it down and opened it, pulling out an old dress. Everything that I needed was inside my box. My clothes, a few books to keep me company, a shower bag and I even noticed a few snacks. I got up and pulled Bethany for a hug. This was more than a lot. "Thank you. I don’t know what I would have done without you."

"If you want to thank me, come back home. I don’t like the way he treats you. I do not want to see you get hurt. Please come back." Bethany begged as she hugged me tighter. How would I explain that I was also at fault. How would I explain that I had been teasing Jax and that’s why he had to call another girl to please him. I was part of the problem. I wanted him to fall for me so bad that I didn’t think it would affect me.

I think there’s something wrong with me.

"Beth, I promise. I’m fine and Jax is actually not treating me badly. We shared his bed last night. It was the nicest thing ever." I said as I pulled away from her.

"What happened to the girl that wants to get her revenge?" She asked me and I paused. What happened to me? "You see what I’m saying? This is toxic. You’ve spent only two nights here and you have already lost the plot." She said as she folded her hands across her chest. She looked at me and I knew she wasn’t too happy with me. Who would be? I wasn’t even happy with myself. I didn’t know what I was doing.

But she would understand. She doesn’t know what being with Jax felt like.

It felt like I was a child again and I could be myself. I could be anything. It made me feel like life would be a little bit better.

"Beth, I don’t want us to argue because of Jax. Just trust that I’m smart and I know what I’m doing." I said to her and she sighed. I know how I sounded. I know she wouldn’t really trust me but she needed to believe me. I was not dumb and I knew what I was doing.

"Okay but just know that I am always here for you and I’ll tell Shirley. There’s no way I’m going to keep this from her. If you ever need help you can come to any one of us." She said and I nodded. I felt like a baby and it disgusted me. I was smart and I knew what I was doing. "Before you say anything, you’re not going to change my mind. I’m telling Shirley. I won’t be able to protect you myself. I’ll need help."

"I don’t mind. I’m not going to need protection, trust me." I said and she shrugged. "Don’t worry, I’m capable of taking care of myself."

"Okay then. I’m still going to tell her and I trust that you know what you’re doing." Bethany said before she hugged me and pulled away. She walked over to the door and unlocked it before leaving me in the room with myself.

I quickly went to the door and locked it. I headed back to my box and took out the necessary items for my shower alongside my dress. I took off Jax’s shirt and eyed it for a while before dropping it in his laundry basket. My stomach rumbled and I sighed. I should have told Bethany to get me breakfast or something. Those snacks she left in my bag were for emergencies and this was not an emergency.

I turned on the shower and waited until the water was warm. I carried my shower bag and stepped underneath the water. I place my shower bag beside Jax’s products.

Was this how it was going to be when we’re together? I shook my head. Jax and I were obviously not going to end up together. He had made that clear. I had the lowest rank and he would never be proud to take me out and show me off. He would never see me as an equal. He doesn’t think I’m smart enough to be his mate. He has made that clear enough. He even said it last night. As long as I’m an omega, he can never be with me.

So why was my mind conflicted? Why did I still want him?