The Lycan king-Chapter 40

*Jax*

"What do you mean you couldn’t find her?! She’s out there! I can feel it!" I screamed at the guards standing in front of me. How could Leonora be gone? That was not possible! I can still feel her. I could sense her. She was definitely alive. I didn’t know why these men were telling me she’s dead. Leonora wasn’t dead. Leonora was a fighter. There was no way she could have just let herself get killed off. There was no way. Not in a million years would she die like that!

"Jax! I went with them. I saw her blood and everything. I’m pretty sure she’s dead." Claire said as she rubbed my arm. I shrugged her hand off my body. The only person I wanted to touch me was Leonora. I couldn’t believe this. After everything that has happened with Leonora and I, was this how it was going to end for us?

That was impossible.

I walked towards one of the knight and grabbed his neck, squeezing it as hard as I could. He squeaked, pulling at my hands, trying to get me to release him. I watched as the colour on his face began to change. I heard Claire call out my name but it faded out as I glared at the man before me. I pulled him down until he was kneeling on the floor. I felt someone pulling at my clothes trying to distract me but my whole body and mind was transfixed on this man before me.

An image of Leonora smiling popped into my mind and I let go of the man. He fell to the floor gasping for air and grabbing his neck. He scrambled away from me in fear of what I might do next.

"Make sure you find Leonora or else, I will kill the both of you." I forced out and they rushed out of the conference room. I took a deep breath. I needed Leonora back. I needed her back in my arms. Back to where she was meant to be- with me. I couldn’t believe I let Claire hold me back from Leonora. I let her tell me how Leonora wasn’t worthy to be my queen. In a way, Claire was right. Leonora didn’t know anything about being a Queen but its something I can teach her. I can get the council to train her. We could work our way around this.

The door opened and the council walked into the conference room all taking their seat. Claire and I walked over to our designated seats, taking our seat. I knew what they were going to say. I could feel it. There was a sense of joy in their facial expression. They were finally getting what they want. For Leonora to be gone.

That wasn’t what I wanted. I wanted my mate back. I wanted Leonora. I wanted to hold her to me. I wanted to ease her from any form of pain. I wanted to apologize for the way I had treated her. I wanted to apologize to her for not believing her when she told me she didn’t sleep with Noah. I was so consumed with anger that I didn’t listen to her. I didn’t believe her until she was on my bed, almost crying from the pain when we had sex. It felt like a slap to my face. All this while, she had been telling the truth and I hurt her. I punished her. I treated her like thrash when all she wanted was for me to love and care for her.

Leonora was right. I was a terrible person and I didn’t deserve her. I didn’t deserve to have her as my mate.

"We have heard of the recent developments with your situation." One man stood up and spoke. "Now that the issue of your mate has been solved, we need to consult the moon goddess to grant you another mate. I think-’

"I’m not getting another mate!" I announced. There was no way I could get another mate when Leonora was out there. Who knows what was happening to her? They all looked at each other, a silent message passing around them. There was nothing they were going to say that would change my mind. I wanted my sweet Leo. I wanted her beside me. I wanted to hold her and watch her laugh. I wanted her to tease me like she usually does.

Fuck!

I missed her so much and I didn’t know how to go about our current situation. I felt a nudge on my arm and I turned to Claire. Her face had a slight frown and I knew this wasn’t what she wanted to hear. It wasn’t my business. She doesn’t know what I was feeling. She didn’t feel the sadness that consumed me and my wolf. It was unbearable.

"Jax, what are you doing? This is what we’ve been planning for years now." She whispered to me and I scoffed. Leonora was out there right now and I didn’t know what was happening to her. What if she was attacked by rogue wolves? What if she had been kidnapped? I didn’t want to think of any other bad thing that could happen to her. It was all my fault and I regret everything. I wish I could it back but it was too late. Too Too late. Too late to reconcile and start over. I wish I would have the opportunity to start over. To right my wrongs.

I could finally understand why she hated me. I would hate me too. I would hate my very existence. I wasn’t a good person and maybe that’s why she ran away. Maybe that’s why she ran away from me. She wanted nothing to do with me.

As this realization set in, I knew I may have lost Leonora for the second time an di don’t think I would be able to get her back. No matter how hard I tried.