The Lycan king-Chapter 43

*Jax*

I was waiting for the guards to get back. They still hadn’t gotten back to me. The longer Leonora stayed out there, the harder it was to find her. I needed Leonora back. I wanted her back. I don’t think I would be able to function without her beside me. That was how bad it was.

"Claire. I know you may not approve this but I really want to mate with Leonora." I admitted to her. She had a scowl on her face which was etched on her face since our meeting with the council. I didn’t know she would be this angry at me. I had thought she would be more understanding than this.

"Jax, I’m not even in the mood for this conversation. Call your play thing and tell her." She said and I frowned. How did she know about my play thing. I had been so careful about the whole thing. I made sure no one knew when she came to my room and when she left so I was baffled that Claire knew. I wasn’t ashamed of her but i just didn’t want Claire to know. I thought Claire would be angrier and throw a fit about how I was giving myself up to someone else that wasn’t my mate.

Claire was annoying strict. It was something we all knew and I was trying to avoid her reaction to it.

"I don’t have a plaything." I said. It was true. I’d didn’t have a play thing especially since I rejected her for Leonora. I knew how Leonora felt about that girl and I wanted to avoid the unnecessary drama. That’s why I ended things. I should have told Leonora earlier that I did it for her but I don’t know why I didn’t say something. I kept it to myself. It was such a wimp move and honestly I wish I had the opportunity to go back and change everything.

"Yeah right. You think we don’t know? Everyone knows. Everyone in this fucking holding knows that you’re a whore!" She spat at me and I was taken aback. I didn’t think anyone knew about it. I was so stupid. I thought I was smart. No wonder Leonora was so angry at me. Maybe she already knew of that girl before she met her leaving my room the first day she started working here.

There we’re so many questions to ask and so many answers I needed. I just wanted my Leonora back into my arms. Was it weird that my mind drifted off to our night to get her. I remembered how soft her body felt against mine and how she moaned lightly. The way she held me do so tightly as I rocked my hips into hers. I wish I could have a repeat of that night. Nothing could ever beat how that night made me feel. It was so special and spectacular. It made me feel like I had been missing out on something sooner.

I tried to side my mate bond to sense her but just felt nothing. Something was wrong. It wasn’t possible. I had been feeling Leonora all day but now it felt like I couldn’t sense anything. I didn’t think she was gone. Leonora couldn’t have gone like that. Something was up. I didn’t know what to do.

"Claire. I feel a certain type of way for Leo and I knew she wouldn’t want to have sex with me. That’s what it was all about." I explained to her. I don’t know why I was explaining to her. There was nothing to explain. Leonora was my mate and whatever I felt for her was my business. 𝗳𝚛𝗲𝕖𝚠𝚎𝚋𝗻𝗼𝕧𝗲𝐥.𝚌𝚘𝐦

"Jax you don’t need to explain it to me. I understand. You’re attracted to her. The issue is that you just made a fool of yourself in front of the council." She said and I sighed. It was true. After all our plans and coaching, I changed my mind at the last second.

"I don’t want to hide how I feel anymore. She means something to me. I don’t know how to explain it." I tried to tell her. There was so much emotions I felt when I was with Leonora. She brought out a part of me that I didn’t know existed and even thought it was for a short while, I was so happy i experienced it with her.

I wanted her back at all cost. I wanted to tell her I loved her again. I remembered when I blurted it out as she grinded on me. It was a spur of the moment thing but I knew that was how I felt couple with the fact that she was slowly riding me and whispering in my ear the things she wanted me to do to her. I stuffed my hand in my pocket hiding the growing bulge in my pants. How would I tell Claire that I was rock hard for Leonora and I want ed to go to the room to jerk off. It would seem insensitive since I was also trying to look for Leonora. Imagine how it would be if I told Leonora that I was so horny that I masturbated to the thought of her while everyone searched for her. It was so funny and I imaged the way she would laugh and throw her head backwards unable to control the laughter. I missed her so much. I missed holding her and I definitely missed kissing her. Why was it that the first time I get to kiss her, she runs away. I felt so bad.

I just wanted my Queen back. I wanted to hold her and tell her that I was sorry for annoying her and making her feel bad. I wanted to tell her I was sorry for insulting her and making her feel like she wasn’t worth it. She was definitely with all this stress and even more. She was worth everything I owned and I didn’t care anymore.

I was going to get Leonora back even if it costs me my life.