The Lycan king-Chapter 44

*Leonora*

"What I can do?" I asked and she turned around and began arranging little pots. There was something she wasn’t saying and I wanted to find out what it was. She couldn’t just drop a bomb like that and expect me to go about my day like nothing happened. "What can I do?"

"How do you feel now?" She asked me as she stood up, going over to the open shelves on the wall. She began touching bottles, pausing for a second. From what it looked like, it seemed like she was trying to get a feel of the bottles.

"I feel a lot better?" I said unsure of why she asked this question. I was as good as I could get. There were still lingering feelings of anger towards Jax but I was a lot better. I didn’t know that I had so much anger towards Jax and it scared me. "Please can you tell me what you were talking about?"

"The spirits will guide you in time." She said as she stopped touching the bottles. She picked one and opened it. "You love him but you confuse love for anger and anger for love. Its blocking the spirits and you’ll never be free unless you free yourself and your mind." She said as she finally turned to look at me. "If you ever want to talk, you can come to me. Time is up." She said as she pointed at the door. There was just so much I wanted to ask but I couldn’t pester her. She was a literal witch and I didn’t want to get on her bad side. I got up and dusted my clothes before stepping out of the hut. Luke was standing awkwardly, waiting for me to finish up with the witch. 𝒇𝓻𝓮𝓮𝙬𝙚𝒃𝒏𝓸𝙫𝒆𝙡.𝓬𝓸𝒎

"You were in there for an awfully long time." He said and I gave him a small smile. I didn’t want to tell him what the witch had said. Gift of healing? How was that possible? There was so much questions I had for her but I knew I wouldn’t be receiving any answer from her for a while. Maybe I just needed to free myself and I would get the answers I needed.

"Apparently I had too much baggage that was making it hard for the spirits to access my mind." I lied. I couldn’t tell him what she told me. She said people will look for me when they find out what I could do. That meant I couldn’t trust anyone with this secret. "So, what next?" I asked as he grabbed my hand. Lacing his fingers through mine. That warm feeling enveloped me and a smile threatened to force its way out. He started walking, pulling me, as he led me to another hut. As we entered, a sweet aroma filled my nose and my stomach grumbled making me realized I hadn’t eaten for more than twenty-four hours. Luke greeted the woman serving the food and said something to her. I was so hungry and I couldn’t concentrate.

After a few minutes, he passed a plate of food over to me. My stomach loudly grumbled causing Luke to chuckle as he collected a plate of food from the woman. Luke led me out of the hut back to his hut. All I could think about was eating. I was so hungry. Immediately we got to his hut, I sat down on his bed and ate as quickly as I could. I didn’t give myself a chance to enjoy the taste of the food. All I wanted was to eat.

"Was Jax that horrible?" He asked me and I stopped eating with my hand stopping mid-way as I held a spoon filled with rice. Hearing his name brought back the memories I thought were gone. I don’t know what it was about Jax that just kept me tied to him no matter how hard I wanted to let him go. This was me in another pack, a safer pack but I was still tied to Jax. Hell, I was having breakfast with his estranged older brother.

"Is it weird to be in love with someone that ruined you?" I asked, looking up. I noticed he was seated on the tree trunk, eating slowly. He paused and he dropped his plate on the floor beside him. There was a look on his face that I couldn’t make out. Was that a look of pity? I didn’t want him to pity me. I wasn’t damaged goods or anything. "I know Jax is your brother and all but I just need someone to vent to."

"Jax and I aren’t that related anymore. We stopped being related the day e banished me." He explained to me and I nodded in response. "You can talk to me. I’m not going to judge you. I mean, we all have our baggage."

"Okay." I responded. "I used to have a crush on Jax. That was before I found out he was my mate. I used to watch him all the time, steal glances whenever I served food and whatnot. I thought he liked me too because I used to catch him looking at me. I still remember when I realized her was my mate, I was so happy. I had all these ideas in my head for how things were going to change." A tear dropped out of my eyes and I dropped my plate beside me, quickly wiping my eyes. "It was like I just saw another side of him. He started punishing me like I was the reason why we were mates. He locked me up in the dungeon, exiled me, kidnapped me and beat me but yet I don’t totally hate him. I silently pray that he would just go back to the man I knew him to be. I don’t know why I just see him differently. Is something wrong with me?"

"There is absolutely nothing wrong with you. Sometimes you love someone too much that you excuse all the things they do to you."

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