The Web of Knightspur-Chapter 128

Princess Eleanor’s tone was soft but the meaning of her question was deep.

Princess Eleanor could not understand what was in Nia’s mind but now looking at her eyes, Princess Eleanor felt like she knew that answer somehow.

"Princess, I miss him. I will not lie to you. I like him but it is still not love. I just cannot love him. I was hurt when Duke Felix said that he would marry Princess Macy and I felt like it would be the end. Even after Duke Felix told me that he only had me in his mind I did not mind it." Nia said with a smile as if she was remembering something.

"But then now Duke Felix says that he is going to marry princess Macy in the end. They will be preparing their wedding plans and he will be marrying her in a week." Nia’s tone was soft.

"But Nia, make me understand. If you do not love him then why were you crying? Your whole mood was done and I really felt like something was bothering you." Princess Eleanor’s tone was filled with confusion.

"Princess, how do I explain it to you," Nia looked down as she took a deep breath. "Well, I was hurt. He simply said that he will be getting married and I should understand. He wrote it so simple as if he was informing it and expecting me to understand. I know that I did not love him, but I was still hurt. He did not even care for me and Lady Gisella’s words made me realize that it was time to let go."

"Lady Gisella?" Princess Eleanor’s eyes brightened as she looked at Nia.

Nia nodded her head. "I thought that I love Duke Felix after all. And I was feeling down when I knew it but then Lady Gisella saw me entering a carriage. It was when we were coming to the Grand duke’s mansion. It was a confusing tone when Lady Gisella asked me to ride with her saying that she was not feeling well and I made her feel relaxed. So I followed."

Nia took a deep breath. "Lady Gisella asked me and I couldn’t help but tell her how I was feeling. Maybe because she gave off a motherly feeling and I was comfortable with her. I thought with her experience in life I could get to understand and Lady Gisella did help me a lot.

"What did Lady Gisella say?" Princess Eleanor asked as she blinked innocently. She knew that her relationship with Lady Gisella had started to warm up and Princess Eleanor also knew that Lady Gisella had a kind heart.

"She said that I trusted Duke Felix. Maybe I felt betrayed, that’s why I had a burst of emotions," Nia’s tone was low as she looked at Princess Eleanor who nodded her head. "Lady Gisella said that I was in contact with Duke Felix so I had an attachment to him. Maybe writing to and fro really makes the relationship deeper and I expected him to stay on his word. But in his letter, he did not say anything about waiting for me. He simply informed me about his marriage and did not say any words of comfort. Lady Gisella advised that if a man does not know how to take care of you now, he might never take care of you."

"And you took the advice?" Princess Eleanor did not want to judge. She knew that it would be hard for Nia and Duke Felix to continue their relationship if her cousin, Princess Macy was involved in the situation.

Princess Eleanor knew that Princess Macy loved Duke Felix. Although she wanted to trust her childhood friend Duke Felix but somewhere she knew that it was his fault for not clarifying things. Princess Eleanor also knew that Duke Felix was well aware that Princess Macy would never allow him to marry anyone else or have a concubine. Then why would he still want to hang around Nia?

’I had told Nia to make it clear from the start,’ Princess Eleanor wanted to say but she could not say anything. If her memory serves her right she had long told Nia to think about her relationship with Duke Felix if she follows her to Roulux Empire. The Princess always felt like no matter how much in love they were, something cannot be forced.

"I took Lady Gisella’s advice. It made sense to me. During the whole journey, I was thinking about the time when we were together. All the small things started coming back to mind that made me decide to cut ties with him." Nia said as she smiled. "Sometimes things do not work as we want and when I analyze every conversation I had with Duke Felix I realized the main problem with it. He wanted to be with me but he did not care."

Nia smiled lightly as she continued, "You know those things you do when you love someone. There is care for someone which both the people show but I could not feel it. I knew that I did not love him, but it also made me realize that Duke Felix did not love me too. Maybe that’s why I cried. I was hurt by myself. How could I be so foolish? How could I misunderstand the meaning of the letters? How could I think that someone was brewing between us?"

Princess Eleanor saw that Nia was blaming herself but soon she saw her lady in waiting to shake her head as if she wanted to push all the things out of her memories. As if she did not want to do anything else with Duke Felix but forget about him.

"But Princess, when I was blaming myself for being ignorant I realized why I agreed to Duke Felix. The reason why I started to write to him under your name. I remembered it all and I still want to continue doing it but now the difference will be that I am more determined."

"And why did you agree with him? Princess Eleanor could not help but ask.

"Because of your brother, the Prince."