Use Me Like A Drug (omegaverse bl)-Chapter 138: Naked for him
Yujun’s POV
I walk down the hallway that now feels more familiar and more home-like to me than my own home with careful steps.
Yeon and Yunah’s words had boosted my confidence, but anxiety still gnaws at my heart and grows in my chest as I walk with my head down.
What if he doesn’t want me? What if he has realized that loving me isn’t worth it?
I arrive at the room that Yeon had described for me to be Jaehyun’s and I push open the door to walk in without knocking...a big mistake.
Jaehyun is freshly stepping out of the shower and holding a towel, the sight of him makes my mouth go dry.
He is bare-chested with water running down his neck, down his chest, past his abs and soaking the grey sweatpants that sit low on his hips.
He looks startled to see me stopping the hands that were lifted to rub the towel into his wet hair.
Both of us stand frozen, looking at each other like we did at the gate some minutes ago.
I shamelessly let my eyes drift down his body and his scent flares; the patchouli I miss, coming from the man I miss.
My body moves forward before I stop myself and I place my hand on his neck to pull him down and he bends for me.
I miss him, I can’t say it enough.
My omega whines as I press my nose into his neck, into his scent gland, he stays still as I breathe him in.
I sigh against his neck, and he steps back from just like he did at the gate. The step back hurts me so much that I bite down on my lip to stop from whining out loud.
"I’m sorry" I apologize to him and he groans as he turns his head away.
"You don’t have to be sorry for anything" he says and bow my head.
"I walked away for you...I..." I stop speaking, unsure of what to say next, it is all my fault.
I’m a mess.
"It’s not your fault" he says with a whisper.
"Then why won’t look at me?" I ask him in pain, and he turns his back to me.
"It’s hard to look at you with another alpha’s clothes on your body" he says and looks at me from over his shoulder.
"Yujun, I am hanging by the thread" he says.
"I understand" I say softly and I do the thoughtless...I pull the shirt off my body, and his jaw drops as I do.
I drop the shirt to the floor and stare at him, standing in his room bare-chested like him, my chest rises and falls as the cold air blows over me.
"Would you look at me now?" I ask, my voice cracking with the words.
"Fuck..." he says and surges forward with the towel to throw it over my shoulder.
"Junnah, don’t do things like that" he says and my body shakes from the proximity between us.
"I just want to show you I’m sorry..." I say in a small voice.
Showing apology is the only way I have known.
If father is disappointed in me, I have to do something grand to make up for it.
If a client is unsatisfied, I have to do something wonderful to show them I am sorry.
"You don’t have to be sorry for anything...I told you to use me like a drug...I still mean it till I die" he says and a sob slips past my lips.
That’s it? I don’t have to grovel?
"Please...don’t cry" he says, but I see the way his nostrils flare.
"You won’t touch me" I say pathetically and he shut his eyes tight.
"It will kill me if I touch you and you leave for him" he says and another sob follows.
My omega howls sadly and whines at the implication...do we dare try again when there are still barriers between us?
Do I dare ask? I want him to at least hold me.
"Please" I say and a tear slides down, it feels like there is an open wound in my chest, like my body knows what I need.
Jaehyun goes down to his knees slowly and like he did the day I chose my clan over him, he pulls me to himself by my hips.
My breath catches in my throat as he rests his head on the small swell of my stomach, where our pup is growing.
I rest my hands on his shoulder to keep myself from letting my knees give out.
"Ours..." he says and I nod even if he can’t see me.
He growls softly and presses his face into my stomach, his grip on my hips is strong, like he’s holding his dream come true.
"Yujun" he says and I hum, forcing myself to stay together.
He hooks his thumb on the waistband of Chan’s sweatpants I have on and tugs slightly.
"I want to take it off...please" he says and gave him my consent by tightening my hold on his shoulder.
He immediately tugs it all the way down and I lift my legs for him to take them off me completely, leaving me naked and covered only in his towel.
He doesn’t say anything else as he goes to his wardrobe to bring his clothes to me.
The air between us is unlike anything we’ve had before, it feels new, tender and beautiful as he dresses me up in his clothes.
"You should sleep warm" he says and I nod my head, "I should return" I say softly and his eyes flash red, but he shuts them immediately.
"Junnah, I’m not going to ask you to choose me...but I’m going to fight for you" he says and I look into his face, watching as a bead of water slides down from his hair.
"And for our pup" he adds.
"Okay" I say, giving him the go ahead.
I will return by morning, but I will come back to him...I will make sure I come back to him.
’Chan’ my omega says, and the simple word passes a message to me as his words come back to my mind.
"I will make you like me"
