Will of chaos-Chapter 1589: Cap 1587: I did a lot of things...
It has been 2 days since the end of the battles between the Gods, many Gods are still hiding, not wanting to be part of either side, those who supported Baldr were defeated in large part while a few managed to escape temporarily.
The Gods of War, the God of Beasts, the Goddess of Fairies and the God of Justice are hunting today, Justhos was enraged, his son was one of those who disappeared, but he was not taken like Baldr, but rather used an item to disappear, an item that carried the power of Law from what I heard.
I suffered for a while the consequences of creating that Divine World, not only me, the other Gods felt some retaliation, but since I was the core of that place the worst fell on me, it was as if my body was constantly at the bottom of a deep ocean being crushed to the point that just moving was already a test of effort.
Each step I took created cracks in the earth and in space itself as I walked to the point where I hid inside Okan where the effects were less.
Right now I was in a small floating garden where the Star Palace used to be. I wanted to build a new one in this place and this was just the beginning of it all.
The garden only had a few rare flowers that emanated the power of nature. I hadn’t started cultivating the crystal flowers that contain truly strong effects yet.
In the middle of this garden there was only a small hut made in the style of the one I once had in the Blood Forest. This one was also built by me and my wives in a few hours. Now all of them were not here since they had some responsibilities.
Since they had all become Goddesses, they needed to start their religions to root their Divinities in the universe and consolidate their identities as true Goddesses.
They went to the Communal Temple to create their Divine statues and their Sacred Books. Fortunately, it seems that they have their doctrine clear in their minds.
For a few more days I would be alone here while I recovered and waited for this retaliation from the universe to pass, but I have never been one to sit around doing nothing, my mind kept running through various subjects and the one I was focused on now were two things that had happened.
"Why did you interfere?" (me)
"It was the mother’s Wish, you know that." (Freya)
"Where are they?" (me)
"They haven’t emerged yet, their powers haven’t permeated all of Tarzor yet and their bodies haven’t formed yet." (Freya)
"..." (me)
In front of me there was no Freya, but rather a crystalline tree leaf that I could see through, she was beautiful, but her size was even bigger than me, Freya’s voice was coming out of that leaf while she was still with Tarzor.
It seems that my last attempt to do something improper implied her involvement in the end.
"Are you sure they don’t have a Soul?" (me)
"Yes, at least it’s nothing compared to the Souls of other Gods, it seems empty as if it were just the branch of a tree, not the tree itself." (Freya)
"More than once I’ve heard that they are just facets of a whole, they are parts not of an entity exactly but of fundamental concepts." (me)
"I still can’t quite understand these things..." (Freya)
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"I can only understand superficially, I don’t really understand their depths, I just don’t have the foundation for it." (me)
"(Don’t be an idiot kid, how can someone who has lived less than 100 years even begin to think about understanding the 2 foundations of existence?)" (Tarzor)
"I must agree with Tarzor, even though I am intrinsically connected to the foundation of Life, I am not able to fully understand it, I am not able to even estimate how far my understanding has reached." (Freya)
"I do not expect to understand these things, they have already rubbed it in my face that I am incapable of doing so." (me)
While talking to Freya who was temporarily unable to leave Tarzor, he could not help but stick his Dragon head out of my shadow as if mocking me.
I just look at him speaking briefly as the two Goddesses gave me fact-filled slaps in the face, then he returns to my shadow.
"It seems I have something else to do." (me)
"Yes, I hope I can be with you soon..." (Freya)
"Me too..." (me)
With that farewell the leaf disintegrates into pure energy that disperses into the surroundings, then I turn to look at that person who was still standing at the door of the hut.
"Come in, we both know it’s past time to have a talk." (me)
"..." (Niryna)
The one at the door was Niryna, she was looking at me hesitantly, concern written all over her face, but she still came in and sat in front of me.
Today she wasn’t accompanied by Callidora or her Demon Servants, I was sure Callidora must still be watching, but the simple fact that she didn’t show herself must be a request from Niryna, for her to be here alone and with that expression it wasn’t hard to imagine what she wanted to talk about.
I was silent the whole time, I tried to talk to her on several occasions since she was born, but she ran away from me every time and even when she stopped running away she still didn’t try to bring up the subject, something I clearly wanted to know.
After much insistence, I realized that she had to take the initiative to come to me. I had already shown my interest and concern, but I couldn’t force her to do something she wasn’t comfortable with, not about a subject that she was increasingly showing to be so delicate.
I could only wait for her to take the initiative to tell me, but no matter how much I waited, the world around me wouldn’t stop moving, the enemies wouldn’t stop attacking, and I couldn’t always be at her disposal.
"I’m glad you came." (me)
"I’ve wanted to come... I’ve wanted to meet you for so long... I have so much to tell you... so much to ask... but..." (Niryna)
"Don’t rush, speak at your own pace, I’m here to listen and I’m not leaving." (me)
"Close your eyes, calm your emotions, and organize your thoughts before you start talking." (me)
"..." (Niryna)
Sigh
Her expression was changing continuously and her Aura was a confused storm, I could see concern on her face and how much in her Aura anger, fear and insecurity were more clearly highlighted than other emotions.
She takes a few deep breaths, 10 times slowly, I see that she still remembers what I taught her about how to calm down.
Little by little her Aura becomes less turbulent, her emotions were still on the surface, but they were no longer out of control, her expression at the wells becomes less hesitant and in its place only calm or at least a facade of calm shows, she opens her eyes and I see a gleam of insecurity.
"You know, I missed you so much, while we worked together, there were few times I could be by your side as you spent your last years in that hospital." (Niryna)
"I knew as the years passed that your end was near, I didn’t want to accept it, but as the intervals between your comas became shorter and the time your eyes remained closed lengthened... I knew there was not much I could do..." (Niryna)
Tears
She looks at me, tears forming and falling as her unfocused eyes look at me as if she were looking at a memory.
"My comfort was often seeing what you built, the games you created with so much love, the company you built and that I helped build alongside you." (Niryna)
"Your games were beloved and your company was a landmark in the industry, all of this would become a memorial to you as well as a sweet memory for me." (Niryna)
Tears
"There was also the orphanage where we grew up, I could always go back there to continue taking care of other children like you did with me and like we did together after we grew up." (Niryna)
"But then..." (Niryna)
Tears
Tears Tears
Sigh
"Everything disappeared... the company... the games... the orphanage... you..." (Niryna)
Tears
"Everything disappeared... there’s nothing left for me..." (Niryna)
Tears
She began to cry more and more, her emotions becoming more turbulent and intense, that’s when something arose in her Aura, anger.
Her previously turbulent Aura began to burn with these emotions and the Infernal Power arising from within as if responding to these emotions.
Callidora’s power wasn’t controlling her, it was resonating with her along with her own Power, she was clearly in a moment of great emotion, but her eyes were red with pure murderous intent as if she were going to kill everything and everyone her eyes could see.
She was clearly remembering something, her eyes were on me, but it wasn’t me she was seeing, it seems she’s been through some really difficult situations since I died.
I don’t know exactly what she’s been through or what she’s done, but I won’t judge, I’m sure it wasn’t as bad as the things I’ve done since my rebirth, no matter how much I try to justify myself about how my victims were criminals or horrible people, I’ve killed more than I can count, I’ve memorized people, tortured people and even destroyed some Souls.
From how I’m seeing her reactions, it was clear that she’s been through bad things and hasn’t responded in a way she considers correct, I’m starting to see the reasons why Callidora chose her among the people associated with me.
"I’ve done things... I did a lot of things..." (Niryna)
