The Alpha Who Regrets Losing Me
Chapter 35 – The Questions That Refuse to Stay Hidden
The man did not introduce himself.
He did not step forward in a way that suggested urgency, nor did he react to our presence as if it required acknowledgment beyond what he had already given. Instead, he simply stood there, as though the forest itself had shaped around him, as though time had learned to move differently in his presence. 𝗳𝗿𝐞𝕖𝘄𝗲𝕓𝗻𝚘𝚟𝕖𝐥.𝚌𝕠𝕞
There was something unsettling about that kind of stillness.
Not because it felt dangerous, but because it felt certain.
Rowan did not speak immediately, and for a brief moment, neither did I. The silence stretched, but unlike the ones that had come before, this one did not feel heavy or unstable. It felt... intentional, as though it was part of something rather than the absence of it.
"You’ve been watching us," I said eventually, my voice steady, though I could feel the faint echo of that earlier sensation still lingering beneath my skin.
The man’s gaze shifted slightly, not in surprise, but in quiet acknowledgment.
"I’ve been aware of you," he replied, his voice calm, unhurried. "Watching implies interest. Awareness is... different."
"That sounds like avoidance," I said.
"It sounds like accuracy," he corrected gently.
Rowan stepped slightly forward then, his posture composed, though there was a subtle tension in him that hadn’t been there before.
"We were told you could help," he said.
The man’s gaze flickered briefly toward him, then returned to me.
"Help," he repeated, as though testing the word rather than accepting it. "That depends on what you think you need."
"I need answers," I said.
A faint shift crossed his expression, something that might have been amusement if it had lasted longer.
"No," he said quietly. "You need the right questions."
The words landed in a way that felt frustratingly familiar.
"I’m not here for riddles," I replied.
"Everything worth understanding sounds like one at first," he said.
I exhaled slowly, forcing myself not to react to the tone, because something about him made it clear that pushing too hard would not lead to anything useful.
"Then let me try again," I said. "Something is happening to me. Something that doesn’t follow what I’ve been taught. I need to know what it is."
He studied me for a long moment, his gaze steady but not intrusive, as though he were observing something beyond what I could see myself.
"It is not what you are," he said finally. "It is what you are connected to."
The words settled into me slowly.
"That doesn’t explain anything," I said.
"It explains more than you realize," he replied.
Rowan shifted slightly beside me, and I felt his attention sharpen, though he still said nothing.
"What am I connected to?" I asked.
The man did not answer immediately. Instead, he asked something else.
"When you feel it," he said, "does it come from within you, or does it feel like something reaching toward you?"
The question caught me off guard.
I hesitated.
"It feels..." I paused, searching for the right way to describe it. "It feels like both. Like something inside me reacts, but not because it started there."
The man nodded slightly, as though that answer confirmed something he had already suspected.
"That is because it did not begin with you," he said.
A quiet tension settled in my chest.
"What does that mean?"
"It means you are part of something that existed before your choices," he replied. "And before theirs."
His gaze flickered briefly toward Rowan. Rowan finally spoke.
"You’ve seen this before," he said.
"Yes."
The answer was immediate.
"Where?" Rowan asked.
The man looked at him, and for the first time, there was something sharper in his expression.
"In a place you were not meant to reach," he said.
That answer didn’t just feel incomplete. It felt intentional. I stepped slightly forward, my focus returning to him.
"Then tell me this," I said. "Why now? Why is it happening now?"
The man’s gaze returned to me, and this time, there was no trace of amusement in it.
"Because something has shifted," he said. "And whatever was dormant no longer has reason to remain that way."
"What shifted?" I pressed.
This time, the silence stretched longer. And when he spoke again, his voice was quieter.
"You did."
The answer hit differently than I expected. Not as confusion. As resistance.
"That doesn’t make sense," I said. "This started before I even knew what was happening."
"Yes," he agreed. "But recognition is not the same as origin."
I frowned slightly, trying to follow the meaning behind the words rather than the words themselves.
"So I triggered it?" I asked.
"No," he said. "You aligned with it."
That word again.
Alignment.
My thoughts flickered back to Kael, to the way he had used the same word, the same certainty, and for a moment, something uneasy settled into place.
"You’re both saying the same thing," I said slowly. "But neither of you are explaining it."
"Because explanation requires perspective," the man replied. "And yours is still too narrow."
I exhaled, frustration rising despite my effort to keep it steady.
"Then widen it."
For a moment, he said nothing.
Then—
"You have stood between two Alphas," he said. "And neither of them were able to claim or define what you are."
I felt Rowan’s attention shift beside me.
"That should not be possible," the man continued. "And yet, it is."
The silence that followed felt different. Not confusing or uncertain.
Just heavy.
"What happens next?" I asked quietly.
The man looked at me for a long moment, as though considering whether that was a question I was ready to hear answered.
"That depends," he said, "on whether you continue trying to belong... or accept that you were never meant to."
The words didn’t feel like comfort. They felt like a turning point. I glanced briefly at Rowan, then back at the man.
"And if I choose neither?" I asked.
For the first time, something almost like approval touched his expression.
"Then," he said softly, "you begin to understand."
The forest seemed to shift around us, not physically, but in a way that made the moment feel larger than it should have been. And for the first time since all of this had begun—
I realized something that settled deeper than fear ever could.
This wasn’t about discovering what I was.
It was about deciding what I would become.