The Alpha Who Regrets Losing Me
Chapter 68 – The Escape Begins
Elara knew she had woken up to another day in the same room. That was why she didn’t even bother to open her eyes. The same cold metal, the same rhythmic beeping sounds, the same artificial reflection of red and white lights... This unchanging order that had gone on for days was no longer just boring, it had started to feel humiliating. This mechanical system that measured when her body woke up, when it got tired, when it collapsed, treated her not like a human, but like an equation to be solved. Even with her eyes closed, she knew almost the entire room by heart. She could feel exactly at what intervals the light on the ceiling flickered, when the energy flowing through the walls intensified, at what frequency the sensors in front of the door operated, without needing to see them anymore. And the worst part was, she was getting used to it.
She was tired of fighting the World Government outside and the Moon Spirit inside. One side was trying to examine her and bring her under control, while the other was trying to make space for itself without tearing her apart. The thing left in between them was Elara’s own consciousness. She had lived with this tension for days. She had tried to distinguish what belonged to her and what belonged to it for days. But now, even that effort had started to consume her. She was tired. Not only physically, but tired of making decisions, resisting, constantly staying alert. And this exhaustion eventually turned into a clear thought inside her. It was time to get out of this room. Or more precisely, the reality that staying here was no longer an option had finally settled in her mind.
The Moon Spirit noticed the moment this thought formed before she did. It had already started noticing everything before her lately. And that was one of the things Elara hated. Thinking a thought belonged to her, only to realize it had already been shared, was disturbing. Even making a plan was no longer something that could be done alone. That was why Elara first tried to suppress this thought. But the moment she did, the Moon Spirit spoke from within her silence.
"I can help you. There are still thirty minutes before they enter the room and the experiments begin with a new day." Elara still hadn’t opened her eyes. But the slight tension in her jaw was obvious. "I didn’t ask for help," she thought. The answer didn’t come out loud, but that didn’t matter for the Moon Spirit to hear it. "You don’t need to ask," said the Moon Spirit. "We are in the same body. We are trapped in the same place. You want to get out. So do I."
This answer silenced Elara. Because it wasn’t lying. The Moon Spirit didn’t always act like a dark, manipulative, or forceful entity. In some moments, it was almost more honest than she was. And that was exactly the problem. Just because her enemy was open didn’t make it any less dangerous. Elara slowly opened her eyes. There was still a slight distortion at the edges of the light on the ceiling. This sight no longer scared her. Sometimes, it even helped her. Because she had learned to understand the weak points of the system from these small fluctuations.
"What happens if we escape?" she finally asked. "The body is mine but the power belongs to both of us. If control slips, they’ll kill both of us outside." There was a short silence before the Moon Spirit answered. This silence wasn’t empty. It was as if it was considering the question seriously as well. "If you stay here, you will die slowly anyway," it said at last. "Just in a more organized way."
This sentence cut sharper than the cold of the room. Elara straightened up and leaned her back against the wall. The fear inside her hadn’t disappeared. It had only changed shape. Before, she was afraid of stopping the Moon Spirit. Now, she was afraid of having to accept its help. Because the line between help and surrender was very thin. But that line had started to feel like a luxury discussion now. To survive, the comfort of theoretical boundaries was being left behind.
At the same minutes, Adrian was standing in front of the screen in the dark meeting room on the upper floors of the facility. There were no clear faces in front of him, only silhouettes and shifting shadows. The people at the very top of the World Government preferred to remain unseen rather than visible, like a shadow that made decisions. The atmosphere in this room was different from the sterility of the laboratory. There was no metallic smell here, but the scent of power. Adrian liked this. Because this room reminded him not only of the system he was bound to, but also of the steps he could climb.
"The latest report," said one of the voices from the screen. Its tone was short and commanding. "What is the subject’s condition?" Adrian slightly lowered his head. "Not stable, but not collapsing," he said. "The separation we anticipated did not occur. Instead, a dual-layered consciousness structure is forming. At first, we thought it was a conflict, but now we believe it could be a controlled displacement process."
There was a brief silence. Adrian knew how valuable these silences were. In this room, silence meant weighing rather than thinking. Another voice intervened. "Displacement? Elaborate."
Adrian did not take his eyes off the screen. "The Moon Spirit is not taking over the body by force. It interferes with her cognitive decision processes. It started like an echo at first. Now some actions are directly shared. If the process continues this way, at some point it will become difficult to distinguish which is Elara and which is the other entity."
"How much does this align with the prophecy?" said a third voice.
Adrian had expected this question. "More than we anticipated," he said. "So far, there has been no other host in the records that has come this close. They either collapsed, went insane, or their bodies couldn’t withstand the power. But Elara... is still standing."
One of the silhouettes on the screen leaned forward slightly. "So she might be the right one."
When Adrian heard this sentence, a familiar excitement rose within him. "She might," he said in a controlled tone. "But we need to be sure before we lose her."
"What do you mean by losing her?" asked the same voice.
Adrian understood the hidden threat in the question. "Losing control," he said. "Or completely becoming the other entity."
This time, the silence was heavier. Then the first voice spoke again. "The experiments will continue. But this time, the only goal is not data. If necessary, the separation protocol will be accelerated."
Adrian raised his head. "If we accelerate it, we might lose the body."
"The body is secondary," said the voice. "We want what confirms the prophecy."
This sentence did not create a visible reaction on Adrian’s face. But something tightened inside him. Because for the first time, he thought he might be the only one who did not see Elara purely as a subject. This feeling was not mercy. It was something more dangerous. Possession.
Near the facility, another tension was unfolding, far more primal yet equally dangerous. Rowan and Kael stood on the rocky ground near the outer perimeter of the facility, having entered the same argument for the third time. The issue between them was no longer just a difference in methods. They both wanted Elara. Only their reasons were different. And this difference, hidden beneath male ego, was putting the rescue plan at risk with every passing minute.
"If we go in directly, they will kill her," said Rowan, pointing at a specific spot with his finger. "We don’t know what we’ll face inside. We need to learn the entry systems first." Kael’s gaze was hard. "How much more time are we going to waste while you learn?" "I’m not wasting time," said Rowan. "I’m trying to hold you back."
This sentence immediately tensed Kael. He stepped forward. "Every second you hold me back, the bond weakens. I can feel it." Rowan lifted his head. The anger in his eyes was visible for the first time. "I can feel it too."
Kael stayed silent for a few seconds. Because he did not expect that answer. He already knew Rowan could feel Elara, but hearing it this openly disturbed him. The sense of possession rising inside him was almost looking for an excuse to turn into anger. "The thing between you and her..." he began.
"What’s between me and her doesn’t concern you," said Rowan without raising his voice. This calmness disturbed Kael even more. Because men who didn’t shout were men who had already decided. "It does concern me," said Kael. "Because she is my mate."
This word hung in the air like a heavy stone. A brief but clear change passed over Rowan’s face. "She’s a person," he said. "Not a prize."
Kael’s lips tightened. "Don’t lecture me."
"I’m not lecturing you," said Rowan. "I’m trying to save Elara. But you still want to claim her."
This sentence silenced Kael. Because it was true. Saving Elara and taking her back were not the same thing. And no matter how much Kael tried to deny it within himself, he knew the difference. This knowledge made him feel weak, which only made him angrier.
Meanwhile, Elara had stood up and was walking toward the narrow window in the room. She couldn’t see outside, but she could feel the energy flow behind it. The Moon Spirit was moving with her silently. In the past, moments like this would have turned into a struggle between them. Now, there was a strange harmony. This harmony should have disturbed her. But it didn’t. That was the most dangerous part.
"What do you want me to do?" she asked internally. "It’s not about wanting," said the Moon Spirit. "You’re learning to see. Wherever the system touches you, you can touch it back from there."
As Elara approached the window, she raised her hand. The faint vibrations passing through the glass spread to her fingertips. This was not an ordinary window. It was connected to the room’s security network. She had never been able to feel this before. But now she could. Because while this place was studying her, she was also learning it.
"What if I do it wrong?" she asked. The Moon Spirit paused briefly. "Then we both pay the price." This answer was honest. Elara didn’t like it, but she found it reliable. She slowly pressed her fingers against the glass. The current flowing beneath the metal did not remain just something felt this time. It turned into a visual. Thin orange lines appeared and disappeared deep within the glass like a network. Elara watched without narrowing her eyes. She could feel the system breathing.
"Now," said the Moon Spirit. Elara did not pull back. The fear rising inside her was not strong enough to break the plan this time. Because something else had taken its place. Exhaustion. And exhaustion can sometimes be sharper than courage.