Chapter 84: 084: Conversations And Bloody Memories

Kai stayed up all night.

He couldn’t sleep if he tried. Not with Anna curled up against his chest, fast asleep, peaceful as an undisturbed flower.

He also couldn’t look away from her.

In the past four hours, he’d memorized every angle of her face. Down to the very tiny birthmark under her left eye which he’d never noticed before. He noticed for the first time, how lovely she was.

Maybe it’s because he never got this close to the old princess. Maybe it’s because he never cared. But something about Anna made him want to stare at her forever.

She looked at peace. Happy to be with him. Kai knew she was different the very first time he gave her his teeth and she looked like he’d punched her.

He would never punch her.

He couldn’t even imagine hurting her.

Somehow, that terrified him. He worried he was losing his predatory instincts. But then he realized he had no problem imaging Leon as his dinner.

Right now, he wanted to touch her face. Feel her soft skin under his hands. Touch her lips...

But he didn’t move. He couldn’t move. He feared he’d wake her up and ruin her sleep.

Her skin glowed, different from the violent flush that had consumed her cheeks mere hours ago. And now her spores were a gentle pink, a stark difference to the white that wrapped around him like vines.

Kai was used to her spores. He believed he liked her red ones the most.

He was lying.

He liked her white spores the most. Princess Orchid never used her white spores. Kai wondered if she did with Drax, and he found that he didn’t care.

The Anna he wanted was right beside him.

Kai forced himself to look away, shifting ever so slightly, his gaze turned to the ceiling. In turn, she moved, her grip on his arm and chest tightening. It made him chuckle.

"I’m not going anywhere, cutie." He whispered.

Thoughts of last night filled his head. He knew he shouldn’t have enjoyed it as much as he did. It was an emergency, nothing more.

But the memories wouldn’t leave his head. If anything they stuck on harder, sending heat through his body.

The weight of her hips riding his thighs, the warmth and scent of her body, and above all, those sounds she made. Those high, breathless whimpers that made his vision blur and drove him half mad with lust.

Kai liked it.

More than he would ever admit out loud.

Last night, it took a lot of his self control, possibly all the self control he ever had, to remain still

He didn’t know he had it in him to be so careful with another person. Careful not to push her, not to chase his own selfish release, or make a wrong move.

Kai was terrified he’d scare her away. He knew this Anna was gentle. Different. He wouldn’t say soft, because if she was soft she wouldn’t have slapped Leon and told him of.

Kai didn’t want to hurt her.

Sometimes, he thought about hurting Princess Orchid. Nothing usually serious, he wanted to bite her hard sometimes. See what color she’d bleed. See if her cold efficient calm would remain when she was bleeding from missing a chunk of her neck.

Kai imagined hurting Anna and his own chest began to hurt.

Then, without any warning, another memoity clawed its way out of his mind.

It felt like he’d been plunged back into those times. The heavy, rough hand forcing him down. The mocking laughter echoing around him. The pain, blood. The sound of his own screams tapering out because he had no more energy left. The suffocating feeling of being owned, being touched, being fucked.

A sudden, violent wave of fury rushed through his blood. He jaw clenched so hard his teeth nearly shattered. Instinct rushed through him, the desire to bite into that skull again. Over and over. While the man was still alive. Red bled over his vision and he slowly forgot where he was.

Beside him, Anna stirred.

Her eyelids opened and she looked around, confused at first before realization set in. "Kai?" Her voice was low, still sleepy. She blinked back the haze, her eyes tracking up his face. "Are you okay? You feel...angry,"

In a flash, the darkness around Kai vanished. He turns to her and grinned, his signature flippant smile. "Angry? Me? Of course not! I’m just you know, admiring the lovely view."

Anna sat up, frowning lightly. He followed suit, watching her with keen eyes.

She looked around, down at her clothes before his. Her clothes had been changed, same with his. The previous out came rushing back and her face turned bright crimson.

Oh my...oh my goodness! I had my first orgasm in this world...wait...that was actually my first orgasm in my entire life but

Wait!

Wait!!! What the fuck?!

She let out a loud scream, slapping her hands over her flaming cheeks. "I’ve become a woman!"

"Cutie? Was I that terrible?" Kai asked, his tone playful and light.

Anna’s head shot up. "What?! Bad? You?! Hell no! You were fantastic! And I mean...um...I liked it very much but you..." her gaze dropped to his crotch and shot up back to his face just as fast. "Last night. You didnt...you didn’t finish so...I..."

Kai stared at her with expectant, stupidly beautiful eyes. "Yes! Go on, don’t be shy." He prompted.

This crazy shark!

She cleared her throat, turning her head to the side. "You didn’t finish...don’t you have, you know...blue balls?"

Kai let out a low, utterly pleased chuckle. Anna’s heart skipped a beat. "What’s blue balls?"

She looked back at him. Sometimes she forgot that certain phrases were lost and buried. "Does it hurt?" She gestured vaguely.

Kai looked down. "No. Why would it?"

Anna chewed her lower lip. In welcomed memories came rushing to her mind.

You’re tired? So what, you’ll just leave me hanging?

Come on babe, I haven’t come yet. Don’t be a selfish bitch. 𝒇𝓻𝓮𝓮𝙬𝙚𝒃𝒏𝓸𝙫𝒆𝙡.𝓬𝓸𝒎

Babe, you know it hurts when I don’t come. Why can’t you care about me too? I’m in pain right now but yeah, whine about your fucking headache.

Anna shook her head, hoping to shake off the memories. Not now. Fuck please, not now.

"Cutie?" Kai’s voice drew her back to reality.

She slapped on a bright smile. "I...it’s when...you know your um...do you derive some sort of twisted joy seeing me tremble all over my words?!" she snapped.

"Oh yes, yes. I do. I enjoy it very much, Cutie." He shifted smoothly, cutting through the air like it was water till he was looking directly over her, caging her body between his arms. "I think I understand what you mean."

Anna gasped, her body heating up even though her heat had passed. "What..."

"You’re the one that had the heat, cutie. Not me. I was merely being your charitable gentlemanly husband."

He leaned down, his eyes glinting with a playful and seductive light that made Anna forget how to breath. "But, if you want to help me feel better, who am I to refuse?"

Oh my goodness he does read dark romance!

Anna’s breath hitched and her heart raced a million miles, much so that she feared she’d burst a blood vessel and die!

Kai was so effortlessly charming. The way his hair draped down his shoulder. The way he smiled at her. The look in his eyes that said "I want to eat you out for breakfast". The sudden proximity that made her heart compose love melodies. She didn’t dare look at his crotch but when she did, she wanted to touch it. Feel it without the clothes between them.

He’s so fucking hot! Jackpot, Anna!

Her cheeks burned hotter. But she didn’t push him away. She raised her hand, pressing her fingers into his bare chest. Slowly, with her breath caught firmly in her throat, she trailed her fingertips over the defined ridges of his muscles, marveling at how smooth his skin felt.

His smirk faltered, and a low hiss escaped his teeth as his body reacted to her touch. Her hands were warm, a stark contrast to his cool skin. And where she touched, she left fire. The heavy ache he’d been suppressing all night roared back to life, pressing firmly against the front of his pants.

"Cutie..." he said in a loaded tone.

Anna gasped, feeling the sudden hardness shifting against her thigh. She blinked up at him, swallowing thickly, her eyes wavering. "Kai...is this really okay? I...we don’t really know each other that much yet. And I’m just a stranger wearing your wife’s face."

Kai didn’t answer immediately. The playful aura around him slowly dimmed and silence settled over them like a heavy blanket.

He looked at her, actually looked at her. And he understood her worries. Deep down, he was panicked too.

Do I want this? Am I ready for this? He asked himself.