Chapter 285: Jisung’s story 10: Feel used...

Sehwa’s POV

I don’t wait for the alpha to fall asleep before I slide out of his bed.

I feel used.

Like he just made me a personal cum bucket, and he left me there; ’you are free to go’

Am I a prostitute? Is this how he treats all the men he has fucked?

I put my clothes back on slowly, and leave the apartment with my head down, I can still feel his cum sliding down my legs, slow and thick.

There has never been a time when I felt more humiliated, I wipe off tears with the back of my hand as I make my way home, stumbling over nothing and aching to return to my place.

"Sehwa?" Keeho calls sleepily when I open the door.

"Yes, go back to sleep, it’s just me" I say sadly before going to the bathroom. I strip off my clothes and stand under the shower.

Maybe the cold water will wash the filth off my body; I know he said it’s just pleasure, but it still hurts.

It still hurts that he sent me out like that.

Is this why he has been alone for so long? I just want to help.

Once the sobs start, they don’t stop, I cry until Keeho forces the door open and take me out.

"What’s wrong?" he asks as he wraps me in a towel, rubbing his hand up and down my back, his voice is soft as he comforts me.

"You’re right, I should have stayed away" I sob and my roommate hugs me, pressing my wet face into his neck.

"It’s okay, it’s okay..." he murmurs and holds me like that till I fall asleep.

When morning comes, Keeho doesn’t wake me up, but I see him preparing to leave for training.

"Why didn’t you wake me up?" I ask with a sleepy voice, rubbing my eyes to wake myself up, and he presses his lips together, giving me a sorry look.

"Well...I’m not sure you would want to attend" he says honestly and I lay back in bed.

I’m not sure I want to attend too...

Going means seeing Jisung again, and I don’t want that, not when I’m high off emotions.

"I’ll join...tomorrow" I say.

Tomorrow comes, and I don’t go. The next day follows, and I still stay in my room. Even the day after that, I remain hidden. 𝚏𝗿𝗲𝐞𝐰𝚎𝕓𝐧𝚘𝘃𝗲𝐥.𝐜𝚘𝕞

But on the fourth day, Keeho drags me to training room, insisting that I need to get my act together.

"You came to Hwangyeon to fight, not to mope over some...older man" he says and I sigh.

"Whatever" I say like a stubborn and saucy teenager.

The first two hours of training goes well, I’m still at the top of my form, and Keeho keeps making silly jokes to keep me lively.

Eventually, the door opens and the Lord Hwang’s righthand man joins the training room.

My eyes drop to the floor at his arrival.

I don’t know if it’s because I haven’t seen him in days, but he looks even more...rugged, like he hasn’t slept well.

His hair seems to have more grey strands, and his shoulders seem broader,

"Carry on" he orders and training resumes, the man stays by the wall, watching us fight and I make up my mind.

I won’t look at him...I won’t pity the look in his eyes, he looks like his heart was broken...

"That will be all for today" the teacher announces the end of training and Keeho hugs me immediately.

"Yah, what are you doing?" I ask but don’t struggle against him, maybe I do need a hug, lying alone is starting to tell on me.

"Act cute, Jisung hasn’t taken his eyes off you since he came in" Keeho says and I scoff, resting my head against his shoulder.

"Don’t get my feelings hurt" I mutter and he chckles.

"Wow, he looks very mad right" he says and I turn my head, meeting Jisung’s eyes directly.

The older man’s eyes are brown, but I can see a hint of his alpha eyes peeking through, red and dangerous.

"He is notorious for not giving his conquests a second glance" Keeho says and hold my face, rubbing his thumbs in circle like we’re romantically involved and I wince.

"He’s coming here" Keeho sings and I roll my eyes, it’s impossible.

"Sehwa-ssi" Jisung says behind me and my body stiffens, fear is coursing through me as I start to panic, wondering why he’s here.

"Shall we talk?" he says stiffly and I nod, giving Keeho one last look before following the older man.

"You didn’t come to training for three days, did I hurt you?" he asks directly and I look up in surprise.

I didn’t expect him to worry about me...I expected being threatened to not tell anyone about our night.

"No, you didn’t hurt me" I say and he sighs.

"That’s a relief" he says and I nod, looking at the floor stubbornly, and he lifts my chin.

"Why did you leave like that? I woke up and the bed was cold, like you didn’t spend a second after I fell asleep" he says and I refuse to look in his eyes.

"You said I was free to leave" I whisper, and the alpha drops his hand, "yes, I did, but I didn’t mean it to kick you out"

"I should have at least cleaned you up" he adds and I feel heat creeping up my cheek.

Oh...he must have been really tired.

"I misunderstood" I say and he nods, "and I did wrongly, I’m sorry" he says, bowing his head slightly.

The act makes me blink, I have never seen an alpha bow his head to another alpha, but here is a man of high status apologizing to a beta.

"Next time-" he starts.

"Next time?" I ask, interrupting him and he meets my eyes, "you don’t have to accept, but if you want, no miscommunication next time, pleasure only" he says and I want to disagree.

I want to tell him that I want him beyond pleasure, but I don’t, I just nod.

At least I get to have him...right?

"Fine...just, don’t treat me like a dog again" I say and it’s his turn to nod.

Deal...I smile even if it’s not what I really want.

I want him beyond pleasure.