I will be the perfect wife this time
Chapter 176: Fear
Olivia stood before Isabella’s door. She knocked once—a sharp, impatient rap that felt too loud in the oppressive silence of the hallway.
No answer. Only a hollow, mocking stillness. True to her nature, Olivia didn’t wait for a second attempt; she gripped the cold brass handle, turned it, and stepped inside.
"Isabella?"
The room was a tomb. The bed was stripped of its usual disarray, the sheets pulled taut and meticulous, as if its occupant had intended never to return. There was no discarded shawl on the chaise, no half-read book left face-down on the nightstand.
Even the air felt stagnant, heavy with the scent of lavender and something sharper—stale salt. Olivia’s eyes darted across the vacancy, her heart hammering against her ribs with a sudden, sickening rhythm. It was a room scrubbed of life, a space prepared for a disappearance.
Then, a small, creak.
The bathroom door swung open slowly. Isabella emerged, her face blanched and damp. She was drying her skin with a shuddering hand, but the towel did little to hide the raw, swollen crimson of her eyes. She froze at the sight of Olivia, her breath hitching in a splintered gasp.
"Olivia? What are you... why are you in here?"
Olivia didn’t answer with words. In a sudden, uncharacteristic blur of motion, she crossed the rug, her heels muffled by the thick wool. Before Isabella could recoil, Olivia’s arms were around her, pulling her into a fierce, almost painful embrace.
"Thank God," Olivia rasped into Isabella’s hair. The mask had slipped; her voice was thick, vibrating with a desperate relief she hadn’t permitted herself to feel until this exact second. "I thought... I thought you were gone. I thought you’d done something irreversible, you foolish girl."
For a long heartbeat, Isabella remained stiff, a bird trapped in a cage. Then, the silence of the room was broken by the ragged sound of Olivia pulling back. The vulnerability lasted only a moment before the Duchess began to reconstruct herself. She stiffened her spine, her hands moving instinctively to smooth the silk of her gown, though the slight tremor in her fingers betrayed her.
"Well," Olivia cleared her throat, her tone sharpening back into its familiar, icy edge. "You might have answered when I called. You’ve nearly given the entire household a heart attack. Or perhaps that was the intent?"
"I was just..." Isabella’s voice trailed off. Her gaze darted toward the window, then toward the floor—anywhere but Olivia’s face. Instinctively, her right hand moved behind her back, her knuckles turning a ghostly white as she gripped something small and dark.
Olivia’s eyes followed the movement with surgical precision. The air in the room grew thin, charged with a new, lethal tension. She took a single step closer, her shadow falling over the younger woman.
"Show me," Olivia commanded, her voice dropping to a hushed, dangerous whisper. Her gaze locked onto Isabella’s hand. "That bottle, Isabella. Did you drink it?"
Isabella offered a hollow, broken smile that didn’t reach her eyes—it was merely a jagged line of grief. "No... unfortunately, I couldn’t."
She let the towel slip from her hands as she instinctively pressed a palm against her stomach, her fingers trembling against the silk of her chemise. A fresh wave of tears spilled over, tracing hot paths through the dampness already on her cheeks.
"I couldn’t fulfill his condition, Olivia. Does that make me a terrible wife? Am I failing him?" She choked on a sob, her voice fracturing into a thousand pieces.
"I truly don’t want this... I mean, I don’t want to lose him, but I cannot kill my own child with my own hands. I just can’t. The moment I held the bottle... I felt it. I felt everything."
Olivia reached out. It wasn’t the practiced, stiff gesture of a Duchess, but something raw. Her fingers were uncharacteristically gentle, almost reverent, as she wiped the salt from Isabella’s skin. For a moment, the gap in their status vanished.
"You have done nothing wrong," Olivia murmured, her gaze anchoring Isabella’s drifting spirit. It was steady, fierce—the look of a woman who had already decided to go to war.
"There is no need for these tears. And you won’t do it. No one—not the law, not the legacy, and certainly not him—will touch this child. I will see to that."
"But Olivia... Leon..."
"Don’t worry about Leon," Olivia interrupted, her tone hardening into a steel-clad promise. "I will speak with him personally. I will handle your ’mad’ husband myself. I promise you, Isabella. On my own honor."
Driven by a sudden, violent surge of gratitude, Isabella lunged forward, burying her face in Olivia’s shoulder. "Thank you, Olivia... truly. You’re like the older sister I never had. I don’t know what I would have done... I was so alone."
Olivia pulled back, though her touch remained lingering for a second too long to be accidental. "Yes, yes... save your breath," she muttered, her eyes darting away as she smoothed the wrinkles Isabella’s grip had left on her sleeves.
She looked uncomfortable, as she always did when faced with naked affection, but as she turned toward the door, the grief in her chest crystallized into a cold, focused weaponry. "Let me go and deal with that lunatic first. Stay here. Agreed?"
Isabella nodded weakly, a flicker of hope—fragile as a candle flame in a storm—finally touching her eyes. "Agreed."
---------------------
The world didn’t just tilt for Leon; it felt as though the very floor had dissolved beneath his boots. His breath hitched, a jagged, rattling sound caught in the back of his throat. Every last trace of color drained from his face, leaving his skin the translucent, sickly grey of a corpse.
Mathias leaned back, his silhouette cutting a sharp, unforgiving line against the library’s oak paneling. He arched a brow, his voice dripping with a dry, biting sarcasm that felt like a razor’s edge.
"Do I truly need to explain the mechanics of life to you, brother? Or did you imagine your ’decrees’ were enough to stifle biology itself?"
"Mathias, what are you... what are you saying?" Leon’s voice was a brittle thing, a ghost of a whisper. He reached out, his hands shaking as he gripped the edge of the mahogany desk.
He held on so tight his knuckles turned a ghostly, bloodless white, as if the wood were the only thing keeping him from drifting into the abyss. "Who told you this? Who would... who would dare—"
"Olivia," Mathias replied. The name was dropped like a heavy stone into a deep well. Cold. Final.
"And why?" Leon’s head snapped up, his eyes wide and frantic. "Why would she go to her? Why tell Olivia and not me? I am her husband. I am the one who—"
Mathias didn’t let him finish. He leaned forward, his gaze locking onto Leon’s with a simmering, dark intensity.
"Really, Leon? Have you truly become that blind? Have you forgotten the poison you were spewing just seconds ago?"
He slammed a hand onto the desk—not in violence, but for emphasis. "How could she possibly come to you? You’ve spent months making her life a curated nightmare. You built a cage and called it a marriage. She didn’t go to Olivia because she wanted to; she went because she was terrified. She even..."
"She even what?" Leon’s voice cracked, the air in his lungs suddenly feeling like shards of glass.
"She went to find a way out," Mathias hissed, the words coming out low and lethal. "She sought Olivia’s help to... to end it. To erase the child before you could find out. She was ready to commit a tragedy just to keep your ’peace’ intact."
The words struck Leon with the literal force of a physical blow. He recoiled, his shoulders hitting the back of his chair as he felt the air leave his body. The crushing weight of a thousand suppressed truths finally collapsed upon him.
The reality of his "conditions" had come home to roost; He had driven the woman he claimed to adore toward a darkness as absolute as death itself.
"She... she was going to do that?" Leon choked out, the words scratching his throat. "My God... because of me?"
He slumped back into the leather seat, his strength vanishing. His hands continued to shake, rhythmic and uncontrollable, as the image of a terrified Isabella took root in his mind.
He saw her now—not as the docile wife who followed his lead, but as a woman so desperate, so utterly abandoned by his hollow "ideals," that she had sought a remedy in the shadows.
The doors were thrown back with a violent, rebounding crash that made the crystal ornaments on the mantle rattle like chattering teeth.
Olivia stood framed in the threshold, a silhouette of cold, shimmering sapphire against the dim, oppressive mahogany of the study. She looked possessed.
Her chest heaved, the fabric of her bodice straining with every breath as she fought to contain a fury that had clearly outgrown her skin. The porcelain mask she usually wore for the world hadn’t just slipped—it had shattered, leaving her features raw and lethal.
"Leon," she rasped. The name didn’t sound like a call; it sounded like a sentence.
"Olivia? What in God’s name—" Mathias stood so abruptly that his chair screeched against the floorboards. He caught the look in her eyes and slowly withdrew into the shadows of the corner, a silent spectator to the coming storm.
"I am not speaking to you, Mathias," she snapped, her eyes never wavering from her target. "I am speaking to your scoundrel of a brother."
Leon looked up, or rather, he dragged his gaze to her. He looked hollowed out, his voice nothing more than a dry stutter. "What... what is it now, Olivia?"
The sheer, pathetic exhaustion in his voice was the final spark. It ignited something primal within her. Olivia didn’t walk; she charged. She cut through the space of the room like a blade, her eyes blazing with a heat so intense it felt as though the temperature in the study had plummeted to a bitter frost.
Before Leon could even draw a breath to defend himself, she reached him. Her hand whipped through the air—a blur of silk and fury—and connected with his cheek in a stinging, explosive slap.
The sound cracked through the high-ceilinged room like a gunshot, followed by a silence so heavy it was deafening.