I will be the perfect wife this time
Chapter 177: Muffled Agony
Leon stood frozen. His cheek was flaming, a vivid, angry red where the heavy sapphire of her ring had grazed his skin.
The silence that followed was suffocating. It wasn’t just the physical sting of the slap that had paralyzed him; it was the mirror she had forced him to look into. He saw himself clearly now—the image of a man who had traded his wife’s soul to pay for his own peace of mind.
Olivia let out a deep, weary sigh, the fire in her eyes dimming into a heavy exhaustion. "I’m not sorry for striking you, Leon. God knows you needed to feel something." She straightened her posture, regaining her regal poise. "Now, I want an answer—and spare me the talk of legacies and conditions. Look me in the eye and tell me: Do you want that child?"
The room seemed to hold its breath. Leon finally lifted his gaze, fixing it on Olivia’s eyes with a raw, unvarnished honesty that made him look younger, and far more broken.
"It is from her," he whispered, his voice cracking like dry parchment. "It is from the woman I adore. How could I not want it? I’ve just been... so afraid."
The silence that followed Leon’s confession was brittle, a thin sheet of ice waiting for the slightest pressure to shatter.
"Fear?" Mathias’s voice came from the shadows, dripping with a renewed, darker skepticism. "You speak of fear as if it were a shield, Leon. But you didn’t use it to protect her. You used it to—"
"Fear of what, exactly?"
The voice didn’t come from Mathias. It didn’t belong to Olivia.
It was a hollow, haunting sound that drifted from the threshold of the partially open doors. Everyone in the room stiffened. Olivia’s breath hitched, her hand flying instinctively to the sapphire at her throat.
Leon didn’t move. He couldn’t. He remained frozen, his gaze fixed on the floor, as if the very sound of that voice had turned his blood to lead.
Isabella stood there, framed by the darkness of the corridor. She looked like a specter—her chemise was damp, her hair a wild, silvered halo around her blanched face. She wasn’t weeping anymore. Her eyes, usually so soft and compliant, were now two burning coals of agonizing clarity.
"Isabella..." Olivia started, her voice uncharacteristically soft, "You were supposed to stay—"
"I asked a question," Isabella interrupted, her voice gaining a sharp, crystalline edge that cut through Olivia’s protest. She ignored the Duchess entirely, her focus narrowed down to the man slumped in the chair.
She took a step into the room, her bare feet silent on the heavy rug. "Of what were you so afraid, Leon? Was it the child? Or was it the fact that you might actually have to love something more than your own curated peace?"
Leon finally looked up. The sight of her—broken yet standing, a ghost seeking an accounting—seemed to do more damage than Olivia’s slap ever could. He recoiled as if she were a physical flame.
"I wanted to protect us," he choked out, the words sounding pathetic even to his own ears. "The legacy... my father’s madness... I thought if we stayed as we were, the world couldn’t touch us."
The air in the study was too thick, too charged with the ghosts of a broken marriage. Olivia saw it—the raw, bleeding honesty in Leon’s eyes and the spectral, haunting stillness of Isabella. They didn’t need an audience; they needed a reckoning.
With a sharp, decisive rustle of silk, Olivia reached back and snagged Mathias by the forearm. Her grip was iron, brookng no argument.
"Out," she commanded, not to the couple, but to the man beside her.
Mathias didn’t resist. He allowed himself to be hauled toward the threshold, casting one last, unreadable look at his brother before Olivia pulled the heavy oak doors shut, muffling the world inside.
They walked a few paces down the hallway, the silence of the corridor feeling almost alien after the violence of the study. Olivia finally released him, her chest still rising and falling with the remnants of her fury. She let out a short, dry laugh—a sound devoid of mirth.
"Those two," she muttered, smoothing her sleeves with a frantic energy. "They argue with such... quiet agony. It’s suffocating. If it were you and I, Mathias, our shouting would have reached the end of the north wing by now."
Mathias adjusted his cuffs, a faint, lopsided smirk tugging at the corner of his mouth. It was a rare moment of genuine, albeit cynical, agreement.
"Regrettably," he drawled, his voice returning to its usual low timber, "I find myself forced to agree with you. We’ve never been particularly good at ’quiet,’ have we?"
He pulled out a silver pocket watch, clicking it open with a precise snap. The smirk vanished, replaced by the cool, professional mask of a man who dealt in empires. "On that note, I am already late for my duties. I must depart."
Olivia arched a brow, her regal poise snapping back into place like a spring. "To where? The day has barely begun, and you’ve already caused enough chaos for a week."
"I need to see the Emperor," Mathias replied, his gaze shifting toward the grand windows that looked out over the capital. "Something necessary has arisen—a matter that won’t wait for family dramas to resolve themselves."
Olivia studied him for a heartbeat, searching for the hidden meaning behind his words. The tension between them remained, as it always did, but the lethal edge had softened into something resembling a temporary truce.
"Ah," she said, her voice dropping into a neutral, polite tone. "Well then, you can go."
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In the meantime, Isabella stood in a heavy, lingering silence.
"Sit," Leon commanded. It wasn’t an order born of authority, but of a hidden plea—as if his very stability depended on her remaining within his reach.
Isabella sat beside him in absolute silence, her body still shivering with the cold traces of a terror that hadn’t yet departed. Leon reached out—the same hand that, moments ago, had been trembling over his desk—and moved it slowly toward her stomach, as if approaching something sacred or forbidden. He exhaled a long, ragged breath that seemed to carry the weight of centuries.
"So... I am to be a father."
Isabella stared into the void, her voice emerging as faint as a whisper on the wind. "If you wish for it... but if you do not, then I will—"
Before she could finish, he placed his hand over her mouth. His touch was unexpectedly warm, searing enough to make her eyes drift shut.
"Don’t," he whispered in a fractured tone. "Please, never say that."
She gently moved his hand away, her eyes searching his for a certainty she had never known from him. "Alright. But are you sure? Can you truly... live with this?"
"Yes, I am," Leon said, and the word felt as if it had been unearthed from beneath a mountain of stone. "I am... even though I have never dared to utter that word before, nor imagined it could ever belong to a man like me."
He took her hand tenderly, clasping her small fingers between his palms as if he feared she might evaporate. Then, he leaned toward her and pressed a long kiss against her cheek—an apology and a vow all in one.
"I love you, Isabella," he said, staring into her eyes with a voice trembling with raw honesty. "I truly do. You, and our child, and everything about you. I will learn how to be a father... I promise."
A long silence followed, but it was no longer the "mocking" silence that had once suffocated the room. Instead, it was a stillness that felt like the calm after a great storm.
Leon rested his forehead against Isabella’s shoulder, closing his eyes as if trying to inhale the very scent of her existence, to ensure she hadn’t evaporated. Isabella felt his warm tears soaking through the thin fabric of her chemise. It was the first time she had ever felt his weakness, and as painful as it was, it served as the only bridge that could bring him back to her.
"Leon..." she whispered, her fingers trailing through his dark hair. "I am afraid too. You are not alone. But... I have always been ready to face any fear, as long as it was by your side."
Leon lifted his head slowly, his bloodshot eyes meeting hers in sheer shock. Isabella continued, her voice trembling with a sincerity she no longer had the strength to hide.
"You say you love me now, but I have loved you for a very long time. I loved you even as you built walls between us, even when you imposed those cruel conditions... I was fighting the world for you, and fighting myself just to stay with you."
She paused for a moment, then placed her hand over his—the one still resting against her stomach. "You thought you were protecting me with your coldness, but you were tearing apart the only heart that ever beat for you. I love you, Leon... I always have."
It felt as though her words had slapped his soul with more force than Olivia’s hand ever could. He pulled her hand from her stomach and kissed her palm with exquisite tenderness.
he pulled her fiercely against his chest. Isabella surrendered to his warmth, resting her head over the frantic rhythm of his heart—a rhythm of a new life beginning to take shape despite all the darkness.
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