Some joys are not something others can experience, and some sorrows are not something others can understand.

Xia Jing knows that the things she’s doing now are actions her husband might never understand or forgive for a lifetime.

In this lifetime, she has acted too outrageously, repeatedly damaging her husband’s trust, and the love of all her relatives.

Sometimes, without even mentioning the fact that she can’t understand such things herself, if these things were to happen to her, she might do even more outrageous things. Yet, she repeatedly pushed all the pain onto others. Why is she so selfish? Couldn’t she learn to understand the psychological pressure others endure? Why is she always so self-centered in everything she does? If she could learn to look ahead, consider the pressures others bear, wouldn’t it prevent her from repeatedly making others sad, making mistakes over and over, letting everyone know what she has become? What should she do to make everything return to the way it was? Must she see everything go wrong step by step in her lifetime? Must heaven torment her with pain again and again?

When Zhang Zhentian heard his wife utter those things, he was truly angry inside. He couldn’t believe that the wife he loved deeply could have another man on her mind. It’s so unfair to him, who could abandon everything for this woman, even give up his family’s reputation. But he could casually throw away his father’s century-old legacy just for his wife. Why does she reveal such a cruel truth to him in the end?

He feels that even if his wife doesn’t love him, there’s no need to tell him these things. He’d rather be kept in the dark for life, at least have a short-lived happy life. Why make him so sad? Why push him into the depths of pain again and again? In his wife’s eyes, what does she really see him as?

"Xia Jing, I don’t want to say anything to you now. I only want to ask you one question: in your heart, am I better or is your first love boyfriend better? I hope you tell me the truth now, don’t hide anything from me, or I really won’t be able to forgive you for life. You know, some matters are a man’s taboo. No man can tolerate his wife thinking of another person, especially someone she hasn’t forgotten in all these years. If you tell me the truth, I might choose never to deal with you for life, or we might reach the end of our marriage. Think carefully before you act."

Xia Jing sighed, knowing her husband is giving her a way out, a step down. He doesn’t believe every word she says because he’s afraid it’s all true, and such truth is a devastating blow to him. His beloved wife has other men in mind, making it unbearable as a husband. If word gets out, what will others think of him? She probably never considered his feelings as a husband. Why is she really that selfish? Can she never learn to consider what others might experience in life, especially when those experiences are caused by her actions?

"Zhentian, I’m sorry. I have to admit I truly love my first love boyfriend deeply, no matter when or where, he is always the most remarkable person in my heart. My love for him has never changed in the slightest.

I think things have already reached this point; there’s no need to deceive you anymore. If I continue to deceive you, it’s just being irresponsible to you. I don’t want our future life to become so ugly; I always think about living happily. I always hope to grow under your protection, carefree in this lifetime, but I forgot you are also human, you sacrificed so much for me, yet I can only hurt you. My heart aches too, but some issues I have no solution to. The more facing such outcomes, the more I realize some matters are destined, no matter how I wish to change them, there’s no way to resolve them.

Since I can candidly tell you all this now, it means I have no more illusions of continuing with you. If you choose to divorce, I will have no complaints. I have always hidden these things deep within me repeatedly watching you risk everything for me, my heart pains deeply. I am not heartless; seeing your sacrifices for me, I am moved and guilty, because together with you I still think of another person. It’s truly unfair to you; there’s no way you can accept this happening to you. Often I’m really selfish, but I have no choice. I want only the happiness deep inside but forget that you need my greatest care too. You are my husband, but I always expect you to understand me, yet forget that you need my understanding too, repeatedly watching you eager to return home, but because of me, you stay outside with me again and again, never going back. Do you think my heart really has no feelings? Watching your impatient desire to return home, yet because of me, seeing your lost disappointed expression, my heart is really torn, I don’t know what decision is best for you. All my actions ultimately hurt the ones who love me the most. I really don’t understand what my existence in this world truly means."

"I’m not afraid to tell you; hearing these words makes me really angry!"

Perhaps the best for him is to let him live carefree under a free-spirited smile...