After Rebirth, the Celebrity Daughter is the Medical Expert!-Chapter 514 - 401: High-End Boyfriend (Part 7)

"Because I love eating spicy hotpot, love eating chips and knife-cut noodles, love drinking yogurt and milk tea. At home I’m quite rough; when I’m on break I don’t wash my face or wear makeup, and don’t meticulously take care of my skin. I wear clothes casually, do random tasks at work hoping for results—my worldview isn’t grand, but outside I must constantly maintain my dignity, my grace. These things can’t be showcased."

Her face was full of tears. "Gradually, I’ve spent so much energy concealing my flaws, hence I disdain those who casually reveal their dark sides, and I’ve become increasingly cynical.

I feel like everyone in this world is hypocritical. Whenever I encounter problems, I feel it’s because the heavens are unfair: I was born into a poor family, had bad luck, grew up in the countryside without seeing much of the world, attended the wrong school, and chose a major I’m not good at.

My suffering is all caused by these external forces. 𝑓𝓇𝘦ℯ𝘸𝘦𝑏𝓃𝑜𝘷ℯ𝑙.𝑐𝑜𝓂

If my parents were wealthy people, were educated elites, were people of high society.

If my family were rich, I could attend excellent private tutoring, travel anywhere I wanted, I’d certainly live a thousand times better than now.

I’m always fantasizing ’if’, ’if this’, ’if that’, then I could do something...

But the reality is, I won’t get better just by thinking this way; instead, it makes me more selfish, unattractive, bitter, irritable, and more resentful towards my parents.

No matter how hard I try, I can’t become my ideal self.

But, I can’t truly blame my parents because even though they’re poor, they worked hard earning money to send me to college, gave me the best of everything.

They themselves live very frugally, reluctant to eat or wear well, but they never skimp on me.

So I become more divided and conflicted, I don’t want to go back to my hometown, nor do I want to face my parents.

Aside from sending them money, I don’t want to see them at all.

Initially, I thought this was doable.

But after some time, I feel increasingly miserable; I haven’t been truly happy for a long time." At this point, Xiao Shi’s emotions completely collapsed.

Ning Youguang stood up and embraced the girl who kept blaming herself.

"Modern society often gives people an illusion that only perfect people can obtain happiness. Many people suffer heavy losses in the pursuit of perfection and it’s always hard to fulfill. Instead, it burdens one’s body, mind, and spirit." She comforted Xiao Shi, "In fact, behind each of our flaws hides a merit, each dark side corresponds to a life gift... The dark side is part of our life. Every one of us is a unity of contradictions, a result of harmonizing various positive and negative traits; without either, we’re not complete."

Xiao Shi rose from Ning Youguang’s embrace. "As time passes, I’ve gotten used to the mask I wear; I have no idea how to live once the mask is removed."

Ning Youguang’s clear gaze settled on Xiao Shi’s face. "You know very well; covering your eyes, blocking your ears, refusing to see the real you, refusing to listen to your inner voice—suppressing your internal dark side doesn’t yield good results, does it?"

Xiao Shi was speechless, her gaze slightly evasive.

"You’ve forgotten there’s a real you beneath the mask. Even though you repeatedly fail in life, you intentionally suppress your inner hints." Ning Youguang said, "But you also know extremely well that your traits won’t disappear due to your denial; they’ll hide in your subconscious, subtly affecting your self-identification."

Xiao Shi awkwardly lowered her head, clenching her fists.

Tears pattered onto the book in her hands.

She hastily tried to wipe away the tears but found the stains on the book couldn’t be erased.

She cried even harder.

"Many people around us see their dark sides, and their first reaction is like yours: to run away, to rid themselves of these traits. To suppress them, everyone expends tremendous energy; the result is that when they relax even slightly, the dark sides float from their subconscious, affecting them." Ning Youguang quietly watched her actions, "They all think as long as they pretend well, whatever they want to hide won’t be seen by people around them. But when they sincerely ask their friends, they’ll find that the dark sides they try hard to conceal can always be seen by others."