The Lycan king-Chapter 80

*Jax*

I silently stared at Leonora while she watched the movie. There were tears in her eyes and she had been wiping it off, not wanting to alert anyone. It was a family drama and the moment the mother and father fought, I noticed the tears in her eyes.

I had never spoken to her about her family. It wasn’t easy for a kitchen volunteer to trace their history because some of them were children of rogues who begged for refuge. For some of them, their parents died during a war. I knew it was going to be a touchy topic so I never wanted to ask her but now i felt like it was something that we needed to talk about.

There was something weird that I witnessed before the movie started. She had walked in with Claire. Bethany had her mouth agape as we watched them laugh before sitting down. There wasn’t any awkward tension between them and I was shocked but happy. Happy that they were both on the same page and possibly heading towards having a cordial relationship.

I wrapped an arm around Leonora’s waist and I pulled her closer to me. She buried her face in my chest before turning back to the movie.

"It’s so sad." She whispered to me as she wiped her eyes. I pulled her legs over mine so that she could cuddle up to me and be totally comfortable.

We stayed that way until the movie was over. Leonora tried to get off me but I held her, not wanting to let her go just yet. Bethany and Claire looked at us, eyeing us before walking away. I didn’t think Leonora noticed because she was still cleaning her eyes.

"I’m so emotional. I don’t know why I cry when I watch anything remotely sad." She said as she finally looked up at me with tears stained cheeks.

"Because you’re also human?" I answered and she nodded. We sat there in silence as the end credits rolled down the screen. "I notice you and Claire."

"Yes she came up to me and apologized for hurting me and trying to ruin our relationship." She answered and I smiled. "I didn’t like that we were arguing. She’s your only family right now and I have to get used to her being around." I rubbed her back and placed a kiss on her forehead.

She was perfect in every sense of the word. Every single time she proved to me that I made the right decision. She proved to me that I was right for following my heart instead of my mind. She made me want to be better- for her at least.

When she told me she had made dinner for me, it was like that was confirmation of everything I felt for her. It was her way of holding out an olive branch. One thing I am beginning to learn about her was that she showed her love through her actions and not just her words. That was why she was always angry that I left her to attend to Claire.

She was the best.

"You are so perfect. I’m so lucky that you’re mine. Imagine if someone else became you mate, I probably would have killed him off." I joked but I wasn’t lying. Even if Leonora and I didn’t end up together, I wasn’t sure I would be comfortable seeing her with someone else. This wasn’t even because we were mates. I had liked her way before I found out we were mates.

"Please I want you to be honest with me." She started. This felt like I was going to get tested. Anytime she starts by asking me for honesty, I knew something very serious was following. "I just need you to tell me why I am not enough for you and why I’m not worthy. Is it because I don’t know much about my role as your partner and queen or was there something I did that turned you off?"

I sighed. I didn’t know where to start from. There was no way I could tell her about how Claire mocked me for staring at her. That would put a large dent in their budding friendship and I really wanted Leonora and Claire to be at peace. I hate being in the middle of their war but what I hated the most was being the fuel to their fire. So I opted to tell her my other reasons.

"I have never been in love with someone before. I’ve never liked someone so when I used to get these feelings in my chest, I pushed it back. I kept telling myself that you couldn’t do it. You couldn’t be my queen because you didn’t know anything about my world." I admitted. I hated that she had to hear me say all these hurtful things. "It’s not a good enough excuse and I know." Everywhere was silent and I could see the gears turning in her head. There was nothing else for me to say and plead my case. I made a mistake and I have been trying my best to correct my mistakes.

"So it wasn’t really about me?" She asked me and I shook my head. It wasn’t about her. She never did anything wrong to me. There was no reason for me to hate her.

It was about me, my pride, my ego, my reputation. At that moment, I felt like I had so much going for me and I didn’t want to lose it because she might not be the perfect fit. Claire was easier. I didn’t need to work hard. She knew everything and she has always been preparing to take over if anything happened to me so it seemed right that she would be my mate.

But Leonora had been the only one to make me feel things that I had never experienced. There was just something about her. 𝓯𝓻𝒆𝙚𝒘𝓮𝙗𝓷𝒐𝓿𝙚𝒍.𝙘𝓸𝙢

"It was never about you and more about me."