My Alleged Husband
Chapter 1882 - 1676: Heard
I heard everyone’s voice, yet I did not hear a single word from you directed at me.
I never realized that meeting you was the beginning of my pain.
Chen Gang watched the girl he loved smile so happily right in front of him. He knew that he finally made the right decision this time. Seeing his beloved so joyful and content, what reason did he have to destroy her happiness? Nothing is more important than the happiness of the one he loves. Everything he had done before was simply too heartbreaking, too disheartening.
But now he finally understood it all. Perhaps heaven was waiting for the day he would wake up. Now, he has completely understood everything. Maybe things will really be different. I hope we can meet again in the future, and I hope when we meet again, she will still smile as brightly as she does now, never saddened by any bad thing again.
"Zhi Han, do you know? When I see your radiant smile now, I realize that what I wanted was not your love. What I wanted was to watch you from afar, living happily, and that would be enough. I never truly understood what kind of life I wanted until I saw your brilliant smile. I realized I’m sorry; it was I who hurt you before. I turned you into that sad appearance. I was the reason you and your husband had a rocky relationship.
I know that nobody is perfect in this world, and I understand that many things cannot be forced, but I hope there will be a day when we can be as happy together as we are now. No matter how you consider me in the future, or how you view me, please remember that there was once a boy who deeply gave everything for you, willing to sacrifice everything, and in the end, you still passed by each other. This feeling, I hope you can understand this fate, and I hope you can thoroughly remember..."
"Chen Gang, I truly thank you from the bottom of my heart. If you hadn’t decided to let go of me, I wouldn’t be as happy now as I am. It was you who made me into what I am now, who let me realize what true love is. You know, I’m so happy to have been with you, to have become your best friend. I cherished those years we lived together; back then, you were always a bright sunshine boy. I don’t want you to change your original intentions because of anything. You are a kind person. Don’t let unpleasant happenings darken your heart, don’t let your years of effort go to waste!
Believe me, although life is full of struggles, there is always a lot of sunshine waiting behind. Don’t let my appearance ruin your lifelong happiness. I hope that one day you can find your true love and be a couple. I will be so happy at that time. I may not be good with words, but you know my heart is not bad. I just wish for the people I care about to live happily, and that’s enough for me. Maybe you don’t yet understand why my heart feels this way, but one day you will know that being with you is not about ownership!"
Chen Gang nodded and said, "You are right, now I completely understand all the perspectives. You know, when I realized that I could never have the girl I love the most, my heart was filled with despair and regret. I hated myself for being so incompetent, why I couldn’t keep the girl I love the most by my side. At that moment, I felt like such a failure. A deep sense of defeat swept over me from the depths of my heart.
Maybe you can’t understand such a desperate life, but with you, my life became colorful, no longer as hopeless as it was before. This is what you gave me, it’s you who made me understand that life is not perfect, nobody can be perfect, even if someone is good at everything, they still have weaknesses and flaws!
Life is given by one’s parents, one’s path is chosen by oneself, and ultimately, which road to take cannot be controlled by others, only guided by one’s heart to the right path. If one’s mind is truly twisted, then even if you have a wealth of assets, it’s still of no use. In the end, you cannot escape the law’s punishment; you will still fall into the law’s net.
Everyone knows that the law is not lax, and no one knows what they will become. The only thing we can do is decide who we should be. My lifetime ambitions are not too many, but my biggest ambition is not to bring others the greatest joy, just not to hurt the people I love most.
We have lived together for so many years without any way to continue living together, yet we are ultimately friends. No matter when or where, please remember, you will always have me as a friend behind you, silently supporting you, quietly clapping for you. Seeing your life filled with excitement, I will laugh for you. Seeing your life happy and joyful, I will be relieved for you. But if I see you sad and crying, my heart will still ache for you. You must understand that your happiness is my joy, your sorrow is my sadness, allowing you to understand all this may let you know how reluctant my heart is!"
"Chen Gang, I’m sorry, ultimately I still let down your kindness, ultimately let down your deep love. I don’t know what words to use to describe everything to you, I can only deeply say sorry to you. Maybe we really have no chance in this life, it really is a destined fate without a share, but I truly hope that if there is a next life, you could confess to me a little earlier. Maybe then I would make a different choice, wouldn’t I? Every road is chosen by oneself, and every road chosen determines the final outcome, so you should know that over these years we have ended up here, it’s actually unrelated to anyone else, and you shouldn’t blame anyone. In the end, it’s just the result of the path chosen initially. Who can we blame?"
Chen Gang thought about it and did feel that was indeed the truth, he had worked hard waiting for so many years, and in the end, still lost!
Turns out, you were the luck I most wanted to hold onto. Turns out, we could be so close!