Looking at the roads I’ve traveled, and the things in my diary, I can’t even imagine that I once wrote them!

Ran Zhihan really doesn’t know how to explain this to her husband now. Even though she’s already made everything clear, why does he still refuse to believe it in the end? Will I really be happy in a marriage lacking trust? Constantly reflecting on herself, yet forcing herself to make decisions each time—to stay with him forever—how it ends up hurting her in the end. How can his heart be balanced knowing the person he’s loved so diligently for many years treats him like this?

Ran Zhihan doesn’t want to say anything now and turns to leave. But when her husband sees his wife turning to leave, he’s instantly upset. Is he now unwilling to even offer an explanation? Why is it so difficult to give me an explanation? I just want one persuasive explanation—that’s all. Doesn’t he feel I’m worth that explanation in his heart? 𝑓𝑟ℯ𝘦𝓌𝘦𝘣𝑛𝑜𝓋𝑒𝓁.𝑐ℴ𝓂

"Where do you want to go? You stand there and don’t move. You haven’t made things clear yet. Do you want to quietly leave again? Don’t you think what you’re doing is immoral? I’ve sacrificed so much for you, and you’ve betrayed me. Do you really think I wouldn’t mind? Do you intend to leave me here alone and ignore our own son? Do you think that’s what a mother should do?

No matter what happens, you should at least give me a reasonable explanation. Otherwise, I will only think you are evading and unwilling to tell me the truth. Do you think, in this way, we can still live happily together? I believe you don’t want to live in such pain either. Everyone has a strong sense of dignity. You have your pride and principles, and I have my own dignity. Especially since I’m a man.

Put yourself in my shoes. If you were a man, knowing your wife had relations with another man, but still pretending to not know, wouldn’t you find it disgusting?

Honestly, every time I get close to you, when I think of you having intimacy with another man, my heart aches. You’ve never cared about my feelings. You think that because I say I don’t mind, it means I truly don’t care. But I’m not a saint. I only want a complete marriage. But you’ve utterly disappointed me. I thought as long as I worked hard enough, as long as I ensured you were taken care of, you wouldn’t need to work outside, yet the reality is like a slap to my face. My wife spent a day and night out with another man while I, as her husband, could only wait at home, and what I got in return was no explanation from her. What would you think?

Zhihan, I’m not a wooden doll. I can’t behave like those men from common families, who know their wives have cheated yet still live life as if nothing is wrong. They have ulterior motives, but I’m different. I have everything I want now, and it’s all through my own effort. I have a clear conscience, and I haven’t taken any shortcuts. I just worked harder than others since I was young, and that’s how I got everything I have now.

I believe everything I have now is deserved. Why shouldn’t I get all this after my efforts? And you, what have you contributed? You’ve gained everything simply by living with me for a few years, conquering the world effortlessly, whereas I’ve conquered the world only to conquer me. But now, I won’t foolishly be at your beck and call like before. I’m no longer the same person as before. I know each mistake made may not seem much to you, but for me, it’s a lifelong wound. Perhaps this wound will never let me lift my head again. You’re living a happy life willingly, while I endure all the pain and torment alone. My heart feels heavy, and yet you act unaffected. How can my heart be appeased? How can I simply let this matter go?"

"Actually, I haven’t said anything else to you from start to finish. I don’t want much. You want a stable married life, and I’ve always wanted it too. Isn’t this the best for us? I admit I did something wrong to you, but was it out of my original intent? I didn’t want such things to happen, and it was just me falling for someone else’s trap. Why can’t you sympathize with my intentions?

Do you think after all this happened, I’ve been happy every day? You’re mistaken. Each day has been filled with pain. I never dare imagine how I’ve managed each day. I only know all of this was caused by me. I have no way, and no one else to blame."

I didn’t want this to happen, but the facts are before us. How can I salvage all this? I only want your forgiveness. Only with your genuine forgiveness can I stay by your side, serving you and living with you forever. But you’re tangled in this matter, never letting go. Where does that leave me? Don’t you know what I want?"

Zhang Yichen remained silent. How could he not know what his wife truly wants? Over the years, he understands her thoroughly, not that he’s unaware. But he refuses to accept these facts. She doesn’t want to admit she’s clinging onto this issue, but his heart is deeply pained. Some things can’t just be let go. It’s about dignity, and the honor of the whole family. He can only suppress everything for the family’s sake. But can these things truly remain uncovered from the probing of the interested?

Ultimately, he can only choose to protect his grace, letting this matter end without further notice.

We’ve met time and time again, only to separate again and again!